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Stupidity and Pride, Chapter 12: Meticulous DiscussionsThe next morningIt was 5:30 in the morning and class wouldn't start until two hours later. You rolled over to left side of your bed, where Taemin was, and peeked. Your eyes slightly enlarged to see him awake.''Why are you awake? It's 5:30 in the morning, you should be sleeping,'' you said, rolling back to your original position.''Do you really love Minho hyung?'' he replied, not minding your question. I know you love Minho hyung, that's why you're in a relationship with him, but I still want to hear your answer. Even if it hurts more to hear it from you. ''Yes," you lied. No. I hope you can understand Taemin, but I have to do this in order for us to stop hurting each other.A tear slipped down on Taemin's cheek. He was on the verge of crying, but he tried hard to stop himself.''How about you? Do you have someone you love?'' It really sounded like you wanted to know, when inside, you really didn't. You were afraid that you would end up hurting yourself. ''I have someone I really love, but it's too late now," 'm style="font-size:14px;">Cause you love someone else, now. ''Late?'' You questioned, wondering what he was talking about.''Yeah. She already loves someone else. She doesn't need me anymore.'' You don't need me anymore.''Does she know how you feel?'' You asked.''No.'' Why tell her? I would just hurt myself.''You should tell her when you still can. What if she loves you back?'' What am I saying? Asking my love to confess to someone else?! You're really insane, Haneul-ah!''And what if she doesn't? I'd just hurt myself,'' Taemin argued.''You're not ready to love if you're not ready to risk something. You have two choices: confess or not. Those choices have two results; suffering and happiness. It's 50-50. I can't guarantee that you would be happy if you confess, but whatever decision you make, just make sure you wouldn't regret it,'' you smiled. Don't repeat my mistakes of being a coward, Taemin. I'm such a good advisor. I hope I can advise myself to stop loving you.''Easy to say, but hard to do.'' ''In this world of ours, nothing's easy,'' you pointed out.Taemin couldn't argue to that. He blankly stared at the ceiling as if he was analyzing an abstract painting. He wondered if you would still say that if you found out you were his subject of interest. ''What do you like about her?'' Taemin continued examining the ceiling, as if it was you. ''Her sparkling eyes. Her pointed nose. Her rosey cheeks. Her pink lips. Her angelic laugh. Everything.'' Taemin said, admiration in his eyes. Those things can never be mine. It's already destined for someone else. ''You make it sound like she's perfect.'' I'm no match compared to her. I really don't deserve someone like him.''She is. To me, she's perfect.''Too bad you don't think of me the way I think about you.''You really love her. Who is the lucky girl who captured your fragile heart?'' ''What if you're the one who I'm talking about?'' Taemin said, out of control. He mentally slapped himself. m style="font-size:14px;">Taemin. you're a true dumbass for saying that! It even sounded like a confession!''It must be the end of the world if you fall in love with me," you faked a chuckle. I wish that was the case, but it would only stay that way. A wish that would never happen. There would be always a gap, a 'what if', an 'I suppose'.But I truly do.