Chapter 12 (1/1)

I couldn't believe it.Changmin? What was he even doing here?For a second, resentment took over me and I saw red. What did he want? Was he hear to plead with me? To take him back? He married her. He chose her, not me.For a second, the red I saw became as thick as blood and I thought of leaving him out here, in the cold. Perhaps for hypothermia to claim him.But I snapped out of it soon enough. A bit too soon, if you ask me.I took the blanket away from my body and wrapped him as best as I could. I pulled of his leather shoes, knowing fully well his feet were freezing. The guy never wore socks.I pulled my fluffy slippers on his feet. They were warm. Body heat can do wonders sometimes.But now I was freezing and could barely function. I was strong but not that strong! Changmin was like 6 foot 2 or 3 inches! Pretty much a foot taller than me!I dragged him into the house. Literally. I pulled the blanket around his legs towards the patio before turning him around and gently pulling him head first up the stairs and into my warm living room. The electric heater was on. I put him on the couch.I touched his forehead. It was cold. I held his hand. It was cold. I meant to move away and get some warm clothes for him, but I felt him hold my hand tighter." Chae.. Chae.. " he mumbled before releasing my hand almost as if his life slipped out of him.It frightened me. Thankfully he wasn't dead, I thought inwardly laughing at my lame joke.I ran up the stairs, grabbing anything that looked warm.I knelt down beside him. I shifted his dark hair away from his eyes and admired his face. He was beautiful.. Still beautiful... I pulled off my fluffy slippers that were way too small for him. I fit him into thick woolen socks and the slippers that I had kicked when I'd first arrived. I smiled awkwardly as these slippers fit him perfectly. They had been for him after all..His clothes were slightly wet. I had to get him out of them. But how? Wouldn't it be rude and an invasion of privacy? He might just kill me for it! But hey, he just might die if I don't!I fought with myself for a moment. Before deciding, it was his life or his privacy. I chose to spare his life.I unbuttoned his many wet shirts. He shivered, but did not wake up.I patted him dry with a towel before slipping him into a t-shirt I found in his bag. I used a blowdrier over him to warm him, and his t-shirt. Over that I slipped him into a big sweater I had and an even bigger jumper I'd received as a gift. After which I used the blowdrier over his clothes. He had to be warm...I looked lower. His pants?I gulped. Did I have to?I touched his jeans. They were cold. Cold and wet. I had to." Aissshh! " I exclaimed.I pulled of his jeans with my head turned away and quickly threw a towel over him. I chanced a glance at him.He was shivering again with his feet wrapping around each other. I pulled the blowdrier up to the towel that covered his legs to warm him up. Again with my head turned away, I slipped him into a pair of dry sweatpants from his suitcase.I covered him in three thick blankets and wrapped a scarf around his neck. Of course, I used the blowdrier on him.. Again! It was the only thing I could think of doing to make him warm!With that, I stood up and smiled at my handiwork. I carried his clothes to the bathroom and dumped them into the washing machine.I sat on the floor infront of him.I stared at his face. He looked so peacefull... So innocent... Just like he did back in high school...I smiled...And before I knew it, I was crying. I had a smile on my face but I was crying..." Changmin... " I whispered to the sleeping boy. No, man. My ex-boyfriend. The husband of my ex-best friend." Min-ah, " I whispered. And from there I let it flow. Everything I ever wanted to tell him. I'd tell him everything. He wouldn't know any of it, but perhaps I'd feel better.I continued." Min-ah, you look so beautiful... I missed you... No, I still do actually.. You're infront of me yet I can't reach you. You're married now... " I paused to laugh bitterly. " Who knew it would be Dara... "I stared at his expressionless sleeping face." Min-ah, do you miss me too? Did you think about me at all? "I wiped a tear away and continued." I waited so long. It hurt but I loved you... I thought you loved me too... "I choked back a sob." Was everything a lie?... "My body racked with my sobs." I was stupid wasn't I? To think you loved me... Everyone told me you didn't. That you'd marry some rich chick. Heck, I knew it would happen... I just didn't think it would have been like this.. I thought you'd break up with me first... "I cried. My face burning as I heaved with the heaviness of my sobs. It hurt so bad, but I needed to let it all out before he woke up." Atleast now I know... "With one last sob I wiped my tears away and sniffled.I bent forward over his face. I caressed his cheek lightly before placing a soft kiss on his cheek. I whispered into his ear words that I could only tell him once.Words that I would never tell him again.Words that I would never be able to tell him again...In his ear I whispered softly... " I love you... "