Five (1/1)
What did I just do? How was I able to do that? My god…I was too obsessed with Kai, I was possessed by a demon.“Yuri, what do you think will Kai think of me?”“You?” Yuri raises her brows at me. Yuri is my best friend, my sex adviser, and she advised me to act so bold when I would have the opportunity to be with Kai. Oh god, oh god, what will my adviser tell me?“He will laugh at your poor acting skills,” Yuri smirks.I facepalm. This feeling is killing me. I should have practiced more here in my dorm, alone. I should have spent more than one hour with this sex doll beside me now. I should have not focused much on writing my essay. I should have practiced more, and that is my greatest regret in my whole life.“Do you even think that you can fool him?” She asks me.“Wh…what?” I stutter. Inside, yes, I hope I was really able to fool him. God, I will be more than embarrassed if he discovers that I lied to him saying that I’ve fucked boys. God, he’s actually my first time. I just want to act like a pro so he would not laugh at me. I want to act like I know many things and I have great sex background, so he will respect me as a sex expert. I have even altered my narration last night to convince myself that I am a sex god.“Go finger yourself. You failed last night. I’ll go now, I’m late for my class,” and then she goes out of the room. She did not even wait for my answer to her question. Gaah! She really knows my soul that she can hear my answer with my stutter. This. Is. Too. Embarassing.Thinking about last night, I do not have second thoughts to push my panty down and enter my index finger in my thing. Oooh…aaah…Kai…Kai…I was really disappointed last night. Disappointed at Kai, and disappointed at myself. Kai should have been more confident, while I should have forced him to enter me. But…okay, I think it is also good that I didn’t force him. I would rape Kai if ever. Maybe last night was not the time given for us. The right time for us is…tonight, perhaps?I look at my sex doll and I grab it. I spent much money for this doll to look like Kai—his thick, black hair, his facial features, his physique, his muscles, his everything. I have made sure this is Kai. The one I’m hugging so tightly now is Kai.I press him against the edge of the bed, his right thigh hanging while in my case it’s the left. I put our arms above our heads and we smack so gracefully. I rub my vagina against his soft, cottony penis and I am left with utter awe. I am like a frog now hanging at the bed, a frog hungry for some of my Kai dongsaeng.“Stand, stand,” I command his dick, and I am frustrated because it can’t. I suddenly remember that this Kai is just a toy, so I imagine that this Kai is real and his dick can stand. I eat it like a popsicle…oooh, aaah, delicious.