[M] Blind Again (1/1)

So this chapter contains mature material. If you're uncomfortable with smut sorry cause it ties in with the story. Yup. Sorry.       It didn’t take him long to get home and when he did I was waiting for him“Hey you”“Hey” he respondedHis arms reached around my neck and I was on his lips almost too quickly. I pulled one of his legs to my side and pushed him up against the wall. I broke the kiss and he latched his lips to my neck and attacked mercilessly.“Poor baby, having to deal with this all the way here” I said grabbing the thing that had been pushing against my stomach“If you feel really remorseful” he licked the shell of my ear and whispered “Do something about it”I did exactly that. I kissed him hard and he fought like he always did and I won per the usual. Not to say that he’d let me but I was just that much more experienced than him. He was skillful, just not more than me. I made a point to grind my hips up so it’d rub against the side of his own erection as I kissed him. I liked the way his face scrunched up in pleasure, it was so cute, so provocative. He pulled my shirt over my head and I ripped open his. I had lost almost all of my frustration by doing so. Playing with his chest he clawed into my back and I knew he was really enjoying himself.“Aren’t you a bit of a pervert?” Junhong said through moans “Getting turned on from me clawing at your skin”“You say that like you’re not doing it to get punished yourself”He snickered and said “True” and I flipped our positions.Now I was completely holding him up kneading his ass as his long legs were wrapped around me.  He shivered and moaned as I licked and nipped at his chest and I could hardly contain myself when he bit into my shoulder.  “Bedtime Junnie” I carried him into the room and laid him on the bed and palmed him while my tongue intertwined with his. “Ah h-hyung w-wait”“What” I asked “Are you already close? From just some palming and a makeout session? How Lewd of you”"Shut up" he whined gripping the dick caught painfully between my tight pants and stomach before he gives me this smirk that says my pants are very much in the way"You wanna try and even the playing field?"I stood up unbuckled my belt and watched as Junhong slid down to the ground on his knees. He held my thighs and I ruffled his hair and pulled out the semi-erection When he grabbed it, that and just the scene before me made me shiver really hard."Well this isn't very hard at all" he said starting to stroke it painstakingly slow"Yeah, well it doesn't matter much now does it, seeing how far gone you were even though what you were feeling was my b-belt buckle" shivering again"Oh shut up" he said puffing out his cheeks in a pout taking another longer tight tug at my dick like he was trying to milk me dry right there and end all the fun.'Might be skilled but my endurance is strong' and not only that I wanted this whole thing to be nice and slow. Lolling my head back I took the chance to looked down at him and place my hand on top of his head. He looked up at me with those big brown eyes and licked his lips. Then after seconds that felt like hours his lips touched the head. He kissed down the shaft then ran his tongue back up to the head. Planting light kisses on the head."Hey"  I said knowing he was doing it on purpose "Quit playing" I tugged his hair up a bit and his tongue ran it up from the edge of the crown to the slit and I accidently tugged his hair roughly but he didn't mind.He kissed the tip and then I watched him engulf half of it. I growled and lost myself as I looked down to see those eyes. I lost it as I saw those eyes looking up at me. I could barely stand and my knees buckled and bent forward in pleasure trying to stop it before this ended too quickly."W-w-wait Junhong" I said needily and rushed "st-stop, get off"He instead slowly went from the base to the crown to slip back down and I felt a constriction that was sinfully good when I tugged weakly at his hair.I moaned and in an instant Junhong had me on my back on the bed. When he came up he held it and looked over me."Who knew my hyung could make such a slutty face""Be nice Junnie, you won't see this again" I said trying to retain some control in this which I no longer had as he respond "I think I wanna see more of it" and slid his finger over slit and I shivered"Ah w-wait a minute Junhong""No" ignoring my plea swallowed my erection with minimal effortAfter a couple of moments of senseless panting he actually stopped "Wow, you really are hangin' on by thread aren't you hyung?""D-don't fl-flatter yourself." "Oh? But shouldn't I? Since you're like this because of little old' me"I chuckled as I was reminded again that my little Junhong was this grown man. Junhong was very grown."Hyung" he said getting my attention "Can I?"I looked between my legs where both he and my erection stood only now noticing his own standing just as proudly. He pushed it up against my ass and my body trembled in pure anticipation of what was to come.

. . . But then I saw his face. His eyes were glazed in lust and dull in reflection, like looking at a faceless man.' . . . It hurts' I thoughtHim looking down at me like I was just a fuck because he was horny; I wasn't mad though.' . . .It hurts . . .' "At least prepare me" I said making light of the fact I felt sick to the pit of my stomach"Of course hyung" he said with a smileI laid there moaning as Junhong went to work and I felt a hollowness in my chest. Everything should be amazing, it felt good, but my body felt unbearably cold."This should be good." he said pulling out his fingers "Are you ready hyung?""Yeah" I said nodding and he began to push in slowlyHe moaned "So-so good hyung"It was a little uncomfortable and a little painful but I didn't care "Ju-junhong start" I said weakly "Hurry" "Yes hyung" Junhong complied not really needing my demandAnd so he started to thrust and move his hips in a rhythm so sinfully good I could go mad. But with every thrust of his hips or tender touch, it hurt just a little. Then when I looked up at the ceiling my vision was blurred and I could tell it wasn't from ecstasy but tears. Junhong hadn't noticed yet.I shielded my face "Let me turn over" I asked not wanting to be seen as pitiful as I was or his face "S-sure" I shuddered as I turned him inside me, and I wished that I was warm like I was before."Ready?" He asked placing a kiss against my shoulder blade and I noddedAs he thrusted he took hold of my shoulders and went deeper with each plunge."So good hyung" he moaned against my ear "You feel so good"'Just say my name'"God you're so tight"'Tell me I'm the one''Tell me its me''Just say my name'"God Yongguk it feels so good"' . . . . . no . . '"God you feel good"'Stop' Sweat actually were tears that seeped into the bed sheets and I tried to bury myself away. 'It hurts'"Don't tighten up too much, I won't be able to keep it together" he said chuckling 'It hurts' "Hyung are you ready? I'm close" 'Can't you just say my name?'"Hyung?" He stopped as I assumed he noticed my body wasn't shaking in pleasure but raking over as I sobbed into the pillow "Hyung, why are you soft?"'Could this have happened to anyone else?'"Hyung?"'Can't you say my name?'"Hyung do you want me to get it up for you?"I peeked at him through my arms that shielded my face and turned away crawling away "Please just stop now Junhong""Were you crying just now hyung? Was I bad?""No just-" I was cut off as he gripped my thigh"Then why?" He said rubbing his erection against my thigh "Why stop if it feels good and we can continue?""Junhong""Hyung?" He said aligning himself only to have me break his focus again"Stop it""Why when it's so good""Because it's not good!" I snapped "Wh-what?" "This" said jamming my finger into the bed "this is not good. We aren't good.""But isn't it" he said body nonchalantly sitting cross legged "I get to sleep with Yongguk and you get sex whenever you want. We both win right?" he put a thumbs up and my tears flowed with sobs that would impair my words.'Why not with anyone else? Why us? Why you? Why me?'"Don't cry hyung, its okay" he said patting my shoulder "Just tell Junnie what's wrong"'Why are you so blind?''Why you?'' . . . Why  . . . . must it be like this?'" . . . . . Get out"  I said Junhong sat there a minute and then got off the bed "Fine mood killer, I'm hungry anyway" he started to dress"No. Leave the apartment"He turned and looked back Ame "Huh?""Please just leave" I said so weakly I thought I'd run into his arms "leave""Why" I wiped my eyes though the tears didn't stop "Because we can't be like this, not when Yongguk's wedding is coming around" Junhong stood there silently frozen and then he turned and walked out the door slamming it and then the front door. And I was left laying in my bed knees up to my chest crying hoping that he hated me enough to never want to do this again. Crying wishing he was mine. Crying wishing I was his.Crying alone. So I updated . Yay! How was it. I enjoyed writing this. It was interesting to see Nam vulnerable so closely. So you guys know what to do. Comment share the love and tell what you think. It helps a lot.