You reminded me of me (1/1)

The door creaked open slowly, Miss Mi hiding behind the dark oak. “Mir, can I come in? I need to speak to you” She spoke softly, peeking into the darkness of my room.Light streamed through the small crack in the door, casting a ray of light onto me. I was sat in the corner of my room sleeping until she opened my door. “I don’t want to speak to anybody” I stared at her as she still continued to wander into the room.She sat next to me, wrapping her arm around my shoulder. “Does that anybody include me, Cheolyong?” she pulled me closer to her, squeezing my shoulder lightly as I let my head fall onto her shoulder.“I hate it when you use my full name” I groaned, relaxing more into her embrace as she hugged me.“And why is that, Cheolyong?” she whispered, smoothing the hair that had fallen over my eyes. She rubbed my back gently with her left hand, fixing my hair with her right.“It means you mean business” I muttered, feeling annoyed as she chuckled lightly.“I always mean business” she murmured, suddenly grabbing my arms, tutting loudly. She grabbed the medical kit that Cheondoong left out when he last used it and began to dis-infect my arm. “And I’m assuming this wasn’t accidental” she spoke quietly and calmly, just like she always did.“I-I felt overwhelmed” I looked away from her as she put a bandage over my arm to hide the deep nail marks that were imprinted in me. “I don’t know what came over me. I hated how I felt when it happened… I always hate it” I stared at nothingness as she continued to bandage my arm in silence, expecting me to continue. “I just felt paranoid about Changsun…”“Why do you feel paranoid over him?” she asked slowly, pulling my face over to look as her as she let my arms drop to my sides. She put the first-aid kit back under my bed, helping me to my feet and placing me in my desk chair.“I’m not gay” I spoke matter-of-factly, watching as she walked across my room, wordlessly tidying up the mess I’d made in my rampage. “I’m just not…” she nodded slowly, walking over to my bed and neatening the crumbled sheets, before sitting on it and patting the space next to her.I walked over to her hesitantly, feeling her arm wrap around me comfortingly as soon as I sat on the bed. “I’ve spoken to him you know” her voice always seemed to soothe me, make me feel like I was listening to the waves hit the shore.“And…” I cut in, pulling my jumper sleeves down over my arms and holding the cuffs with my hands protectively.“He said he tried to tell you that he didn’t actually dislike gay people, and that he makes fun of others that aren’t gay because he was once bullied for that reason and another reason which he begged me not to mention” she stood from the bed and walked to the door of the room, turning the light on. “Can I send him in?” she looked back at me with a kind of hopeful look in her eyes. I wasn’t sure what kind of hope was reflected through her eyes, but I couldn’t help but agree to what she wanted. "Also, don't worry about being late, I'll get over it. Just don't do it again"“Only for a little while” I made a small smile to her, watching as her eyes shone brightly as she leaned into the room next door and called Changsun into my room. I held my sleeves a little tighter as I saw his slightly taller figure block the light that came in from the hallway. His light brown hair looked dishevelled as he walked into my room, grabbing my desk chair and facing me, door closing on accord to Miss Mi.“Please can we just start over, Mir?” He voice broke as he spoke – the tell-tale factor that he’d been crying. A wanton need could be noticed in his voice as the words tumbled from his mouth uneasily. He looked up at me pleadingly, resting his elbows on his knees. “I can explain why I was such an asshole… Just, not now” he tried to explain. But, me, being the stubborn asshole I am, I decided to play with him a little, just listening to what he had to say to me.“Explain to me what you can” I spoke lowly, feeling dominant for a moment as he shrunk back into the chair away from my voice, fringe falling weakly over his soft features.He took a deep breath, steadying his voice with a low rumbling cough before he opened his mouth to speak once again. “I was bullied where I came from for being different. I was the kid that would rather stay clean and dance than play outside and get muddy with the guys and I was constantly called homophobic names for it – not that they applied to me, because you know, I’m not gay – but they still affected my state of mind greatly and they just hurt, you know?” His voice got higher pitched as he finished his sentence, signalling that he was just about ready to burst into tears once more. Nevertheless, he still continued his story despite the tears that had begun to slip from his eyelids. “I was sent here from my old home because the bullying affected my performance in school. And when I tried to fit in with you guys, I completely fucked up and made you cry, and it reminded me of literally a few days ago when I was still being teased about supposedly being gay. And I saw a little bit of me in you” his voice slowly got quieter again as he struggled to speak, throat constricting around the sobs that asked to be released.Without thinking I stood from my bed, walking over to the chair. I stared at him as he looked up at me, red tear stained cheeks still damp as strands of hair stuck to them. He looked confused, eyes widening and body visibly stiffening as I leaned in, quickly relaxing once he realized it was just a simple comforting gesture. I rubbed his back slowly, making various patterns on his back until he stopped crying. He pulled out of the hug, still wiping stray tears from the sides of his face as he regained his composure. “Hi, I’m Bang Cheolyong, but you can call me Mir, everybody does” I smiled, holding my hand out for him to shake.He looked up at me, confusion briefly flashing through his eyes before he grabbed my hand and shook it slowly; face gradually stretching into a thin smile. “Hello Mir, I’m Lee Changsun, but only you can call me Joon” he looked at me sincerely, eventually releasing my hand as he stood up, walking out from the room. He momentarily stopped, turning on his heel as he looked at me, holding his hand out. “Give me your phone”I scrunched my face up in confusion. “Err, why?” Nonetheless, I held out my phone for him anyway, unlocking it for his access.He rolled his eyes, scoffing as he took my phone into his hands and replied as though it was the most obvious thing in the world. “I’m punching my number in, duh!” he shook his head, navigating through my phone and punching his number in before passing it back and walking straight out. “Goodnight, Mir” he called as he closed the door.I ran to the door, turning the light off quickly before I ran back to my bed, jumping on it – a paranoid childhood habit of mine. Phone still in hand, I unlocked it, scrolling down my contacts to find Changsun’s number, laughing quietly to myself when I saw the name he’d given himself.To ~Joonie<(^_^)> ~ :Hiya, Joonie;pI opened my inbox after sending that message, feeling a little bad when I realized Cheondoong, Seungho and Byunghee had text me several times each asking me how I was and telling me not to do anything to rash; oops. I opened the messages from Seungho.From TOPPER OF SANGHYUN:Mir, Cheondoongie told me after you left the table he took Changsun into your room and you completely FLIPPED out to the max. WTF did he do to get you so pissy?From TOPPER OF SANGHYUN:DUDE SERIOUSLY, WTF? Answer me before I break off your lock and come into your room and download porn onto your computer again! Sanghyun is driving me crazy with all his worrying! I’m tempted to kiss him to shut him up… Wait, don’t tell him that!!!From TOPPER OF SANGHYUN:Mir, now I’m worried! Cheondoongie has been venting to me for 2 hours and now he’s rubbing off on me D: Are you okay? Are you getting any of my messages? Let’s see if you come out if I call you a DIRTY MAN WHORE PLAYAAAA!! >:D From TOPPER OF SANGHYUN:Fuck you Mir, I’m worried now. You are still alive right? If you are, I may have kinda just be-friended the enemy to get the story of what happened out of him :O Will you ever forgive me yeobo? <33 ;P The messages from Seungho pretty much repeated the same thing, but included different cocky remarks about various things he could do to piss me off. I replied to him before opening the messages I received from Cheondoong.To TOPPER OF SANGHYUN:Dude, it’s cool. Miss Mi eventually came in to calm me down and let’s just say I’m alright with Changsun now ^_^ Don’t worry too much about me, and I AM SOOOO HOLDING THE WHOLE ‘kiss Cheondoongie to shut him up’ thing over you FOREVER! >:D MWAHAHA MUDAFUCKAAAHHHFrom UKE OF SEUNGHO:Mireu~ Are you okay? I heard you yell at Changsun after I left, and then he ran into his room with a pale face and he looked like he was about to cry :/ What happened between you guys?From UKE OF SEUNGHO:Mir, answer me! I’m really worried; Changsun won’t open his door to talk either. But Miss Mi just went in there to deal with him. She’ll be in for you afterFrom UKE OF SEUNGHO:Okay, are you reading any of my messages? I’m really worried about you Mireu, just answer me PLEAASSEEE <3 Seungho is trying to make light work of the situation and its driving me nuts. I think I might actually want to murder him XD From UKE OF SEUNGHO: Mirreeeuuuuuu, answer meeeee pleeaassseeee! Changsun just came out of his room and into us and explained what happened. But he won’t tell us why he called you gay and shit D:A smile somehow made its way to my lips, thinking about the fact that Changsun felt comfortable enough with me of all people to tell about his past home. I would’ve thought of all people, I would’ve been the last on his list, but obviously not. Clearly what Changsun said about me reminding him of himself earlier had to be true, or he wouldn’t of told me about his last home, would he?  Author note:Just to let you guys know, 'Yeobo' means like honey or sweetie in Korean. I've seen it used by SHINee in Hello baby where Key and Jonghyun roleplay a husband and wife ;DD hehe Awweee they are so cute!! fdioargkjlstkljhage I love Joonmir gifs. They just make me scream! SO MANY COMMENTS THIS CHAPTER! MAKES ME SO HAPPY! :D I love you!! <3 I liebe dich, wo ai ni, ai shi te ru, Ég elska þig, Kocham cię!! :D SO MANY LANGUAGES ! So, I went swimming on saturday again with two of my friends. We saw these little kids jumping in the pool at one end, so being the awesomely kind people we are, we went over to them and taught them how to dive. THEY WOULDN'Y LEAVE US ALONE FOR THE REST OF THE TIME SWIMMING! XD They were so cute though! They were like my brothers age :P Made me lol. I've been learning Dutch recently though! :D Anyone speak Dutch here? I met these two Dutch kids and they always speak Dutch when they're together. It annoys me so much because they could be talking about hwo sexy I am or something D: And I wanna hear that ;) So if anyone is Dutch/knows Dutch, TEACH ME PLEASSEEE <3 Whenever I hear 'Dutch' I think 'Duck' ..... LOL. I like duck wraps. GO CHINESE! Replies: JooMiForLike: I'm glad you liked the date :) There will be more dates too while Mir dates Sunny ! :D I thought I'd try to show how sensitive Mir is to his sexuality. Kinda like one of my friends in school, everybody calls him gay and he doesn't like it and he gets really upset - but he isn't gay,  I think. XD KeyOppaSaranghae: Thanks for two comments :D I ask for two comments because then they can comment about each chapter instead of things about the one they prefered :3 MIR IS CHEEKY LIKE THAT! He enjoys teasing people. So he's gonna like tease them for a while until he gets bored, hehe :D. YOU LOVE SEVENTEEN?! WE GOTTA FANGIRL GURRLLL!! :D I want them to debut sooo badly! It is a pretty sexy gif though, right? ;) And who is your favourite member from seventeen? Mine are a cross between Mingyu and Seungcheol. :3Kyung1Ari: Nahh, he'll tease them some more first ;) I love making Mir so emotional and protective of himself. I think its cute to have his personality like this :')Karenkitty1092: Of course everything will be okay! I don't liek angst much :( They can get along very well now ;D tenisana: Thank you for liking my plot ^_^ And I was thinking of maybe including smut, but I'm useless at writing it... I might get one of my friends to write it for me XD But it'll only be half smut. I don't want it too bad. And I MAY include proper smut too, MAYBE. :P Eunriehyun: You're welcome ! :D I will update once more in 4 days ^_^ He will be okay of course, he just needs his medicine *cough* Joon *cough*I HAVE A DEAL FOR YOU GHUYS! OKAY?! When I get 60 subscribers, I will do another double update. A nice long one ;) Can we agree on that? :3 SO QUICKLY! TELL YOUR FRIENDS HOW AMAZING THIS FIC IS AND GET THEM TO READ AND SUBSCRIBE! TELL OTHER JOONMIR/SEUNGDOONG FANS TO READ IT! And when I get 60 subbies I'll do another double update :D Next update on Friday at 10PM - As usual :D -Asdis OUT!