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I have to tell you this story!So, you know, a couple years back he and I kicked it off and were really close, right?  We'd hang out and do stuff together and play video games and laugh at stupid things and it was awesome.  We'd go out and do stuff together and he'd dote on me and everything.  Then he turned his attentions to you-know-who and started doting on him instead of me, right?Dote.To dote.You know, that's a funny word.  It's a verb, right?  Dote?  Dote, dote, dote.  Dote, d-dote, d-dote.Anyway, yeah, so he stopped doting on me and started doting on him.  Tao.  I don't know why I didn't just call him Tao to begin with.  That's his name, after all.But, yeah, Tao showed up and Kris started hanging out with him instead of me.  Though, I guess, at that time we'd already been split up for a while, so it was natural that he'd find someone new.  Tao's younger than me, after all.  I don't know if he's cuter, though he is kinda cute in his own way, but he's not cuter than me, I don't think.  He's not cuter than you, I know that.  You're the cutest!So he started hanging out with Tao and doting on him and doing all the same things we used to do, only not with me.  I guess I was getting jealous.No, I was totally jealous.  I think I'm still a little jealous.  We'd been hanging out and doing stuff together for years, then this new "cute" guy comes along and I'm just left out to dry.  Completely unfair!But it's cool, because I got over it.  I mean, we got back together, all twelve of us again, and we were back to being all chummy and you were hanging out with Tao and everything was perfect.  It could have been that I would just be ignored or something, but instead it was like old times.  And every time we get together, all twelve of us, it's like that.  We're back to being how we were before Tao came in and "stole" Kris from me.It's cool, though.  Through all that time I was thinking, "Man, I can't believe Kris replaced me," I started realizing something else.OH!  OH!  OH!Before that, I have to tell you this since I don't know if I did or not.  It's HILARIOUS.  So one night I had this dream -- this was kind of how I finally started realizing that I was jealous, by the way -- and it was this fighting game, right?  Like a fighting video game, and I was P1 and Tao was P2.  We were both dressed like fighting game characters, too.  The reason I remember it was because our outfits were so funny and everything was just ridiculous!  I was dressed like some kind of magical nurse-doctor with a stethoscope around my neck and wearing scrubs and a lab coat and I had this weapon that was a HUGE syringe, like one of those hypodermic needle things, and my ultimate attack was HAPPY VIRUS SHOT, 'cause I lunge with this huge needle and give the other player a "shot" of whatever bright green liquid was in it.  AND TAO WAS A PANDA IN LEOPARD PRINT CLOTHES!!!  It was SO FUNNY!  And Kris was in the background as a tiny cartoon version of himself yelling "STOP FIGHTING, THIS IS STUPID" at the top of his tiny lungs.What ended up happening was predictable, though.  The first round, I did that HAPPY VIRUS SHOT thing and KO'd Tao, but he came back in the second round with his wushu moves and I couldn't fight back very well.  Then, in the final round, he did this punishing 57-move combo and knocked me out before I could even lay a strike on him.  I woke up and yelled, "THAT'S NOT FAIR," but no one heard me, so it was okay.And, yeah, after thinking about that dream, I started realizing that maybe I was jealous of Tao for gaining some kind of ownership over Kris.  Taking his attention away from me was kind of a blow to my heart, you know?  I thought we were best bros, but we weren't, really.  I like Kris a lot, but if he likes Tao more, then I can't really do anything.It's okay, though, because I really, really like someone else.  You know exactly who I'm talking about, too, Baekhyun.  You know I really, really like you.  You're cute and fun and I just like you.I'm pretty sure I like you more than Kris.  I know for certain that I like you more than Kris likes Tao.  I really, really like you a lot.Which I guess means that I love you, and that's kinda why I wrote this email for you.  Although, now that I'm sitting here looking at it, that seems kinda silly.  I could just tell you in person.  You're not far away at all.  You're so close.Yeah.I think I'll just delete this and tell you how I feel face-to-face.Goodbye, email message.