five (1/1)

I was guided to a black car that was waiting outside the hospital doors. Daehyun opened the door, and helped me get into the car. The men who came into my room waved goodbye. They all looked sadden by my blank expression, but they understood because I had no memory of them. Daehyun told me they were Yongguk, Himchan, Youngjae, Jungup, and Junhong.Once I was safely inside the car, Daehyun closed the door and walked to the drivers’ side.“Daehyun-ah, who are those people you mentioned?” I said with hesitation.“How can you not remember them? All of you were inseparable especially you and Hongbin-ah”“I can’t remember them, and I’m going to their funeral so I want to know something about them”“It’s better if you didn’t say anything about them. People might be angry” he answered.“Why?”He bit his lower lip and scratched his head, “Well people think that it was your fault that they died?” He said as he lowered his eye.“Me? What did I have to do with their deaths'” I questioned.“Well people saw you go onto the ship even after they called off the search, and well when they saw Hongbin they told him that you went up there for no reason. Then he ran to go get you. Then your whole team raced to find you.”“I don’t remember any of that” I said since my memory held no answers as to why I went on the ship. “So it was my fault that they died. If I didn’t go onto that ship they would have been okay” I said as I began to realize that it was my fault.“It’s not your fault. People said you saw Jaehwan go aboard the ship and you went to go tell him that the real ship was already found”“No! It is my fault!” I cried.Although I didn’t know them, my heart ached. The pain in my chest was growing. Tears began to fall. Then I felt his arms wrap around me, and he gently pushed my head toward him. He patted my head.I don’t know why, but when he did that more tears fell. It was uncontrollable. All I wanted to do was cry until I emptied my tear ducts.“We’re here” he said quietly.I looked around to see he had already parked the car, and other people had already arrived. I wiped my remaining tears with my finger tips.He got out of the car, and opened the door for me. I was hesitant to get out of the car; however, he waited for me. He offered his hand as I got out of the car. Once he closed the door, he took my arm and put it through his arm.“Be strong. Just like you always are” he whispered into my ear before we approached the crowd of black figures that were walking toward the building.When we entered the building, we were guided to a much larger room. Along one side of the walls were six picture frames. The room was empty until I saw a group of people enter from a different entrance.“Those are their family members, they came to do the service” Daehyun whispered.Then he handed me a band and a gown. I didn’t understand until he put the gown over my dress and pinned the band on my left arm. Then he put a different similar band on his suit jacket.He guided me to a portrait who no one was next to. It was Lee Hong Bin. A man who had a beautiful dimpled smile. A face that I should have know, a face that shouldn’t have been forgotten, but not even his smile brought the memories back.“Where is his family?” I whispered.“He doesn’t have anyone but you and his friends”He left this world without his parents knowing. I looked around to the other five families who gathered together to mourn their son. However, Hongbin’s family would never come. They will never know that he has passed away.The pain in my chest was growing again. I grabbed onto Daehyun’s arm to support myself. He discreetly held onto me to support me.“We are gathered here today not to mourn the six precious lives that were unfortunately taken too soon than we would have desired, but to remember and cherish them. These six men were brave, strong, and intelligent detectives. They risk their lives to keep people safe, and for this we thank them. Let them find peace in the afterlife.” the priest said.As the man was talking, I noticed that the families were glaring angrily at me. It made me feel uncomfortable, so I kept my eyes looking at the floor.After the man finished, people came over and gave their respects to each family. However when they came to give respects to Hongbin and some glared at me, and others pitied for me.As I went to give my respects to the other families, the mothers and sisters all glared at me while the males had a harden facial expression as if they did’t want me to be near them or their son.Once the service was done, Daehyun offered to take me back home. I didn’t know where home was, but luckily he did know where I lived. He walked me to the door and I unlocked it with ease.“If you need anything call me okay” he said as he closed the door and left.Once I turned on the lights I was taken back by the sudden emptiness. The house seemed strange to me because I don’t remember being in this house.I quickly washed up, and when I entered the living room a sudden chill ran down my spine. I turned on the TV, and walked to the bookshelf. There was pictures of me and Hongbin.We were smiling.The next picture to the right was us with the other guys from the service. We were in a big group hug, and the guys holding me up sideways.m style="border:0px;font-family:inherit;font-weight:inherit;margin:0px;padding:0px;vertical-align:baseline;">*Today was the memorial service of six brave detectives. We give our respect to them and their families* The news reporter said.The families, all of the families blamed me for their son’s death. My pain came back. I turned off the TV and went to my room in search for medicine.To ease my pain, I looked for aspirin. I stopped and stepped back when I saw it. In my hand it was male clothes. Someone lived in this house besides me.I ran back to the bookshelf, and picked up the picture of Hongbin and me.I was his family. I was his girlfriend. We lived together in this house. He gave his life to save mine.“It’s alright” a whisper said from behind.I turned but no one was there.“Hongbin-ah!” I unconsciously said as I ran through the halls trying to find someone who was dead.“I’m okay” he whispered said.“I’m sorry Hongbin!” I cried. Then I fell to the floor, and I unconsciously reached for my left hand, and I looked at my hand to realize that I was rubbing my wedding finger.It was missing its ring. The ring that was placed by Hongbin. He proposed to me on his birthday. While we went camping, but that ring was gone.I cried. “I’m sorry oppa! I’m sorry that you’re dead! I’m sorry that I lost the ring! I’m sorry that I’m stupid! It’s all my fault! I’m sorry!” The tears wouldn’t stop and the pain was unbearable, the hallways was spinning, and I collapsed on the floor.I was drowning in the amount of tears I shed. I opened my eyes to see a pair of shoes. He appeared in front of me.“(y/n)” he said.I rubbed my eyes and sat up.“Oppa?”He smiled his dimpled smile.“Hey baby” he said softly as he crouched down.“Are you really here?” I said as I touched his face. His face was smooth, just like I remember it “I’m sorry oppa. It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have gone onto that boat”“It’s not your fault baby. If anything it is mine.” He stroked my hair.“But you’re dead” I cried.“Not in here.” He said as he pointed at my heart, and then he pulled me into his arms. He hugged me tightly then he  laughed. “Sorry you know how I’m not good at being cheesy”“You’re so stupid” I laughed. “I’m going to miss the way you make me laugh with your lame jokes”He laughed, but then his body became stiff, “(y/n) I need you to do something for me.”I looked up at his face. His eyes were slightly red as if he wanted to cry.“Forget me”“Forget you? Never!” I shouted as I held onto him tighter.“You need to. I don’t want you to suffer because of me” he said as he began to gently pull my hands apart.“No! I won’t forget you!” I cried.Then Sanghyuk, Jaehwan, Hakyeon, Wonsik, and Taekwoon appeared behind him.“You need to forget us!” They said.Hongbin stood up, and looked down at me. “It’s for the best” He and the guys took a step back and turned around.“Hongbin! Don’t leave! Oppa! Why are you leaving me? Why?” I cried as I tried to reach them.However, they disappeared like foam.“I want to wake up. Get me out of this nightmare!” I cried.***

I sat up gasping for air. My head was spinning and I noticed I was on the floor. I was holding onto Hongbin’s shirt. “It was only a dream” I said as I walked to my bed. “It was only a dream” I repeated.It was impossible for a dead person to come back to life. Why did it feel so real?Once I climbed into bed, sleep quickly came.***

“Shoot” a high male voice shouted..I turned around to see black figures chasing me. I was in a forest again.“Shoot” he shouted again.I hid behind a tree. I lifted the gun in my hands, it was fully loaded with real bullets. It was immoral to shoot someone. However, when a figure appeared I shot him without hesitation.Then more black figures appeared, and I was surrounded by them. One person kicked the gun out of my hands, and it went flying. I should have been scared, but I wasn’t.As they closed in on me, I felt the adrenaline pump through my veins. Someone grabbed my arm, but I was quick to flip him. Then the other tried to attack me. However, I dodged all their hits. Within minutes they were all down.“Time!” The male voice shouted.I was confused because the guys I just attacked got up. The man I shot got up and rubbed his neck.Then a man came running toward me.“You did better than last time!” He said. His face was hidden, and his voice sound cracked like a teen-aged boy going through puberty. He hugged me, and I hugged him back.“But what was wrong? You were hesitant to shoot”*bang* a loud bang ringed throughout the forest. Birds flew through the trees.We looked down to see both of our hands covered in blood.***

I gasped for air. I was choking. I ran to the bathroom. Why did that feel so real. It felt more real than my dream with Hongbin.“Are you okay?” Someone one said as they knocked the on the door.“Daehyun? What are you doing here?”“I came to check up on you”“I’m fine just a little sick. I’m okay now” I said as I opened the door.“I brought you breakfast. I have to go to work so take it easy today.” he said as he left.I got dressed, and went downstairs. After I ate the food Daehyun brought, I didn’t want to stay inside the house so I wanted to leave, but where should I go? I went to the police station to visit Commissioner Byun.I called him, and he said he would be happy to talk with me. I walked in without having anyone notice me.“Hello. What brings you here?” He asked.“I want to talk”“So do I”“I want to turn in my badge.”“Really? I heard that you didn’t even get to go on any assignments. Don’t you want to go on some?”“But I don’t have a . . . a team” I gulped.“Not here, and frankly I don’t think we can fit you into another team here, but there is an opening at another station across town”“Really?”“Yes and if you still decide to quit this profession then you can after you actually try”If Hongbin wouldn’t let me go on assignments maybe I should go somewhere else. I should have felt guilty, but Hongbin promised to let me go on one major assignment, and I promised him that after that I would quit.“Thank you Sir”“You are to report to Team Captain Kim Namjoon” ***And so it begins . . .Hello readers! How are you? Missed me?Instead of doing my Eng rough draft I edited this chapter XD I'm badI have thought of the most perfect ending ever! Don't worry, that won'tbe until several chapters later. I made my story 100x more interesting by thickeningthe plot. I'm so excited to write each chapter and share with everyone! I try to update at least twice a week, but things come up in life, so pleasebe patient, and support my story. Thank you for reading my story.~ v^^ Peace~