Final (1/1)

It was 2 AM, the middle of the night and normal people were all doing the same thing right now, sleeping. But it seemed as if you didn’t belong to that group tonight and that wasn’t something that hadn’t happened before. You did want to go to sleep, that was definitely not the problem, but there were these kind of nights that your eyes couldn’t seem to fall close or that your muscles just couldn’t relax and you couldn’t lie still in bed.

The only thing you had been doing for the past two hours after you had crawled into your bed was staring at the dark ceiling that was covered with stars. You smiled as they brought up some old memories that made you feel great inside. You remembered it as if you had hung them up there yesterday. Since you had been a kid you had always been in love with the stars and the moon, that was also the biggest reason why you had chosen to study astronomy. It had been a warm summer night and on the radio the producers had promised all his listeners that it would become a very bright night and that there would be thousands of beautiful, shiny, little stars up in the sky. You had been excited whole day long and had been so impatient for the evening to fall so that you could see that wonderful scenery. It had kept you up all night long and you had waited and waited for what they had told you that you would see, but you had never seen it. It had almost seemed as if those people on the radio had lied to you about it because that night you hadn’t even seen one star that had lit up the dark sky. You had looked as a pathetic person, staring up against those ugly, big clouds that had blocked your whole view and it had made you feel horrible. Maybe the reason because you had felt that bad was because you had whined so hard against your back then best friend Suho to stay with you that night to watch it with you even though he wasn’t interested in those things at all and he had already had made plans. But he had pushed them aside so that he could join you at such an important moment and he had canceled his plans, for something that hadn’t been worth it in the end. You had apologized for over a hundred times to him because you had felt so bad about the whole situation, but at the same time you had been devastated about the fact that you hadn’t seen the beautiful sky of that evening. It had been the next day that Suho had surprised you with something you hadn’t expected from him at all after you had ruined his entire day only one day before. He had walked into your room without saying anything to you and you had feared that he had been pissed at you. But then he had stood on your bed and he had started to stick all kind of stars against your ceiling, small ones big ones. And in the middle of all those stars he had glued a cute, half-moon that had made the whole picture complete. He had done it because he had known how sad you had been because you hadn’t seen the starts the night before and he had wanted to share you up. The two of you had made the room dark and had lied next to each other on the bed, the dozens of small stars lightening up your faces. After that he had told you while not even loosening his eyes from the sight above of him for one second, “From now on you’ll never have to be sad anymore if the sky doesn’t show you what it has promised you, because each time you want to see the stars you can just come here and turn of the lights.” His words had graved themselves into your heart and you could still hear him saying them to you today, it was as if his voice was resounding through your head. It was also after that, that you had started to get feelings for him, that you had felt more for him than friendship. Luckily for you, since you had been very bad at hiding it, he had noticed that something had changed and he had decided to take the lead and to ask you out. And today you were already a couple for a bit longer than two years, and you were still as happy with him as you had been at the very beginning. Maybe the fact that you had already been best friend and so nothing much had changed in between the two of you unless the fact that you were more intimate had also been a bit handy. You had already known Suho completely before you had become his girlfriend and you saw that as a gift. You had already known everything he liked and disliked before you had even started a relationship with him. He had also known all those things about you since you had always been very close and inseparable. There had been people who had been surprised to hear that you hadn’t been a couple a long time earlier because you had always been acting like a couple if the two of you had been together. But the most important thing for you was that you loved him to death and that he made you happy, you didn’t need anything else. With a small sigh you rolled over so that you were lying on your side and you let your hand slid over the empty spot on the mattress beside you. His dorm was close by and if he had to wake up early to go to work and start his schedule he slept over there, because he didn’t want to annoy you by waking you if he stood up and if he got home late. It was very sweet from him to do that but actually you would rather have him beside you and having him waking you up than to sleep through the whole night. Besides, it didn’t matter if he was here or not, you couldn’t sleep anyway so. Feeling that you needed some distraction you grabbed your phone and opened your Instagram. It was the social app you enjoyed the most, you basically had your whole life story standing on Instagram and you had so many followers. So you just spend the next thirty minutes liking other people their pics and going through the album of your boyfriend once again, searing for the pics of him you hadn’t liked yet. Looking at him at your phone screen strangely enough made you feel as if he was closer to you, as if he was here a little bit more. Your eye brows shot up when you heard your ringtone go off, telling you that you had a text message. Who was texting you at this hour of the night? After clicking it open and reading what was inside you could only smile a bit and role your eyes. ‘Why are you still up?’ It said and of course there was only one person who worried about the fact why you weren’t asleep yet. ‘How do you know I’m still awake?’ You answered and waited to get a text back from him. You’d much more enjoy talking to him right now but if he’d call you he would probably wake up his roommate and you knew how much they needed their sleep. ‘You’re liking my Instagram pictures babe…’ A small giggle escaped from your throat before you yawned, it made you question why the hell you couldn’t fall asleep, you were so tired you felt you could fall asleep while standing up. Being tired of staying in bed and turning and tossing you threw the blankets back and kicked your feet out of bed. For a short moment you felt goose bumps appear on your skin because the cold air that had been blocked by your covers hit your skin, but that disappeared quite quick. While holding your phone you made your way towards the kitchen and you did your best not to run into anything while your eyes were focused on the screen of your IPhone. ‘Okay fine, you win. I’m tired but I just can’t sleep though.’ You had finished your text without running into a wall or getting a black eye and pressed the send button, knowing he would answer you in less than in minute. You put your phone on the kitchen counter for a second so that you had your hands free to make yourself a nice cup of hot milk, it was proved that it would be good for falling asleep. While you placed your milk in the microwave oven you heard the bells of your phone go off and your attention got replaced. ‘Well, do you want me to come over?’ He asked and for a brief moment your heart jumped in your chest and you felt so excited. But that excitement disappeared as you thought about how long he must have been working today and that he was probably so tired that he just wanted to go to bed and sleep. The last thing you wanted to do now was making him worry about you and making him have to care about you. You had seen Suho exhausted before and after all you knew how hard it was for him to be an idol and it was important for him to stay healthy and energetic, and for that he needed his sleep more than anything else. ‘No, you should go to sleep. I’ll be fine by myself here.’ That wasn’t the thing you actually wanted to answer for yourself, because you missed him and you wanted to feel his presence near you in your bed. But you knew that if you wanted to be a good girlfriend who didn’t put her own needs first than this was the answer you had to give, and that was what you had decided to do. But of course knowing Suho, he wanted to be the boyfriend who made sure that his girlfriend had everything she needed. So you weren’t really surprised when he answered you with, ‘I’m on my way, I’ll see you in a sec baby.’ With a small smile you put your phone away again and got your hot milk out of the microwave oven, closing it with your elbow and trying to make sure you wouldn’t burn your hands. Only the smell of it already made you feel a little sleepy and you blew on it to cool it off a little while you walked to the living room and took place onto the couch. You crossed your legs and searched for the remote of the TV as you tried to think of a good movie that would be on at this hour of the night. Like you had mentioned before, someone normal would be asleep right now and otherwise they would be working or clubbing, not sitting here like you were. So probably the good hope you had to find a good movie on any channel of the TV was a hope that would fade away quickly. And that was exactly what happened as you began to flip through the channels and saw a more ridiculous program each time. At the end you just turned the TV off again and threw the remote to the other couch on the other side of the room while leaning back with a loud growl of frustration. It seemed as if everything was against you tonight and this hot milk also didn’t help you a single bit to fall asleep. When you heard a knock on the door you held your mug tightly in your both hands, thinking hard about who it was and then you realized that it must be Suho who had finally arrived. His dorm was only ten minutes away from your apartment and that had been a very smart choice. You could always go to visit him if you had a free moment and be back in time to go to school or anything. Not wanting to let him stand outside longer than needed you rushed towards the front door of your apartment and unlocked the door in what seemed like the fastest you could bring up. It was when you swung the door open and saw his smiling face looking down at you that you could feel your whole body relax. It was strange what kind of an influence he had on you, what he did to your body and your feelings. “Hey…” He said and invited himself in since he was wearing his sweatpants and he didn’t want to get seen in it right now. “Hi…” You mumbled back and closed the door behind him. As soon as you had turned around towards the inside of your home again he was already there to hug you and he tightly wrapped his arms around your small frame. A big sigh escaped your lips as you leaned your cheek against his shoulder and took in the soft smell of the soap he had used in the shower that evening. The fabric of his hoodie felt nice and comfortable against your skin and it made you want to crawl against him as much as you possibly could. Suho chuckled as he felt how you clung onto him and sneaked his arms around your middle before lifting you up and carrying you back towards the couch so that you didn’t have to break the hug for even one second. It was so nice to have him around again, even though he hadn’t even been gone from you for such a long time yet. It was just that you missed him every second he wasn’t with you, no matter when it was or where you were. He didn’t waste any time as he lied down on the couch and made you lie down beside him, not giving you the chance the struggle. And even though the couch wasn’t as comfortable as you bed you felt as if you hadn’t felt this relaxed while lying down in a very long time. “And why can’t you sleep?” Suho asked as he popped onto his elbow and supported his chin with his hand so that he could look down on you and brush through your hair with his free hand. “I don’t know actually. I am tired but I just can’t actually fall asleep.” That was the best way for you to describe it, there was no other way how you could explain it. He nodded and made you cuddle into his chest which you had wanted to do ever since you had went to bed tonight. “I’m happy you’re here.” You mumbled and that made him smile, he knew that you had just told him to stay at his dorm because you didn’t want to be a bother to him. So by now he had already learned that sometimes he shouldn’t listen to you and do exactly the opposite. For a long time it stayed silent and there was a time you thought that he had fallen asleep. But just when you were sure that he was gone a soft melody began to resound through the room and the hoarseness in his voice only made it sound even more attractive. You slowly closed your eyes with your lips slightly curled up so that your face looked lit up. It felt so nice to have your boyfriend singing to you to sleep and you could feel yourself drifting off. The last words that you heard before you finally fell asleep were, “I love you…Good night.” I hope you enjoyed it!! xoxo dolliedollie