Asunas Diary Entry #?? (1/1)

I’ve written so many of these, I honestly have lost count now. I have been updating Damian’s condition for the past few months and we still are getting no response from him. Besides that, training is going well. All of us now know how the omega braces work and have our total time to last 2 hours in total before we have to worry about dying. Lucy is really proud of us to say the least and now we are waiting to see if Seris is going to make any moves.Jessica left SNSD. Her clothing line, Blanc, was used as a scapegoat for SM terminating her contract as far as being a member of SNSD. Every fan kind of had a freak out, which was understandable. I mean…getting kicked out for clothing seems kinda stupid. SM stock did drop immediately after the announcement, but Jessi did go into hiding for a bit. We created a couple more things to make it seem like the tension between SM, her, and SNSD. The fans may hate it, but we need to do it to keep the girls safe.SM town concerts are still going. F(x) and SNSD still need to attend those at the very least. Then the TaeTiSeo stuff was going on for a while. However due to Jessica and Sulli both leaving for different circumstances, their solo group activities have been halted at least for a while. This gives the girls time with each other, us, and Damian.Tiffany….I have been worried about. She hasn’t really been her cheerful self when she is around us. Sure, in public she seems fine, but when she is back here at the palace, she kind of justs puts herself into a corner.Taeyeon and Victoria have been leading the charge in keeping positive attitudes with their groups. Hell, we even got to see Amber promote her first solo album she was working on this whole time without us even knowing about it. Those two have stepped up in leading their teams and the changes have definitely shown in their attitudes. Secret on the other hand have been coming and going. I don’t think Seris has been able to connect them to us in any way so they aren’t in any danger. Ji Eun is really smart which surprises me more than anything. The conversations her and Lucy have sometimes make my head hurt like hell. Hyosung apparently has a huge obsession with Damian. Staking her claim. I mean to be fair, the women is sexy. She definitely gave Jessica a run for her money the few days they were together. Having a “sexy off” was probably the most interesting thing I saw between the two. Flaunting around in bikinis and stuff, a sight that most men would probably have killed to see .As for my friends…my family. Shinji and Haruna have gotten back into the groove of working with one another again. Those two are deadly in their own right on their own. Make them a tag team though and you better watch your shit. Especially with the braces now, I kinda am scared to see what would happen if they went full out. Reager and Lucy being the over achievers they always are were the first to bring out the armors full potential for what they can do. It was bad enough that Reager could punch through solid concrete or you know trucks. With the armor from the brace though…let’s just say a lot of titanium and various precious metals now have significantly gigantic holes in them.BoA Onaychan has been a bit different. Haruna said that she talked to Damian a little, and ever since then, she has been going with Haru to see Damian for just a little bit every day. Krystal too has changed. I am so glad she doesn’t blame herself for everything that has happened. When she learned that this whole time, she was the thing that kept Damian from turning into a monster, she took care of him more than any of us. Day after day I would be able to see her in there as she would tell him what she did almost every single day after the fire happened. Also, whenever she would be in there, she sometimes would call Jessica and both of them would tell him stories about how Krystal’s training went back in the day.The mood has shifted from being gloomy, to a little more upbeat. However I still can’t help feel that there is something looming over us. Youngie is still out there… and even if Shinji told me she felt horrible doing what she did, the fact of the matter is she is still a threat.Thinking back…way back, I remember that she was my best friend too. There were nights where both of us would stay up and talk about what we would strive to become. Unlike the rest of us, Youngie wanted to be by Damian’s side forever. I even thought at one point her dedication to him was way stronger than Mi-Hi’s. Even if she was blinded by love though…I knew she loved us. She didn’t kill Shinji when she could have, and I know deep down, part of her that is our friend is still in there. It makes it hard sometimes for me. To know that the two people I declared to love most I let down. One is sleeping and I have no clue when he will wake up. The other is now a hired hand allied with the very organization that wishes to destroy us. I am stronger now….stronger than ever before. All of us are. I will use what I have learned to bring them back. No more useless Asuna. The girls of f(x), SNSD, and even Secret have all become an extended part of my family. The eighteen women who all gravitated towards one man originally, have all asked us to stay. Wanting us to know that with them we have a place of safety, and us giving them some sort of comfort that we will protect them from whatever comes.As Taeyeon’s birthday quickly approaches all of us are trying to figure out exactly what to give her. Apparently she wants to spend time with Damian on her own since SM Town and TTS activities have taken away a lot of her time. That’s easy but still I feel like all of us need another celebration and the girls birthdays are what can do exactly that .It’s time to sleep… forget any regrets. I haven’t lost hope yet for him waking up. None of us have…and we cannot start now.