Im Alive (1/1)

"Sungmin hyung, Sungmin hyung, Sungmin hyung!" My name was falling from his lips in desperate pleads as he clung to me. I knew he didn't know it was really me, at least not yet. I had managed to chase Kangin away with the help of yewook. Now, Kyuhyun and I were back in the safety of his small apartment. I held him in my arms, fingers combing through his hair hoping he would calm down. His tears tore at my heart as I held him. I hated that he was still hurting even after my sacrifice for him. But, I was also happy he wasn't being hurt like before."I'm sorry." I whisper as Kyuhyun looks up at me. I smile before ordering him to bed. The fact that he listened to me so loyally made me smile. I decided to shower before bed. I stripped before stepping under the hot water. The heated feeling pleased me as I cleaned myself. When I finished, I walked in front of the mirror and examined myself. Outside the door, was Kyuhyun, he didn't know I was his brother. This secret, how long was I going to allow it? Had my sacrifice meant nothing? Hanging my head, I should have just died in the fire instead of letting it scar me. I was hideous, disfigured, unfit to be loved like I was before by my cute dongsaeng. I wanted to punch the mirror, shatter the image reflected in the small object.What would it accomplish though, I would still be scared, still hide bend my mask like a small child. I had let Kyuhyun down, I deserved this pain. It was a fitting punishment for my crimes as a child. It was the lie I told myself repeatedly over the past few years. The reason I was still dead to him. I open my eyes before moving to clean my face, fingers running over the raised bumps of scared and burnt skin. This was my face, a face no one would ever love. I hated revealing myself to Yesung hyung and getting involved with my brother. I couldn't stay away though, my heart broke every time I left him, every time he cried. I was filled with angst, in my eyes, there was no color except Kyuhyun, he was nothing but color to me. I wanted rush out and hold my brother close and tell him it was all okay, but I couldn't, I was scared. I had hurt him and myself. I placed back on my mask and opened the door, jumping when Kyuhyun stood before me. Neither of us talked, instead, he gently placed his hands on either side of my face taking the mask by its edges and pulling it up. I stood frozen in place as inch by inch my face was revealed to him. I refused to look at his eyes, his gasp making me flinch."Hyung?" He whispered, eyes wide as he looks at me. I forced myself to look at him, my heart clenched."Kyuhyun." I respond. Tears were falling from his eyes as he dropped the mask to the floor with a clatter. We stood still afraid that if we moved, everything would shatter. It was Kyuhyun who made the first move, cupping the sides of my face in his hands and staring into my eyes. I couldn't turn away from those eyes I had loved my whole life."Is it really you?" He asked, his voice weak and shaky. I nod as I wrap my arms around his middle."Yes, I'm here baby, no more running." I whisper before he leans forward to kiss my lips. It was a slow deep kiss, our tongues moving with each other as we relearn the others mouth. When we separated, we were panting for breath, me smiling, him frowning."Why did you leave me?" Kyuhyun asked pulling away from me. I look away feeling ashamed by my actions. Nothing I said would sound right."Hyung?" Kyuhyun pleaded, his eyes watering as he watched me. I take a feel breath before explaining the reason behind my leaving, how I wanted to protect him, let him have a normal better life. When I finished explaining, my brothers eyes were hard and angry. I waited for him to speak, to hear him yell at me and hate me. The sound of the slap echoing in the room was dulled compared to the sound of his tears as he falls to his knees. I fall beside him pulling him into my arms and cuddling him. I didn't want to let him go, did not want to leave him again. This was my brother, the only family I had left. We needed each other. My fingers ran through his hair as he closed his eyes and placed his ear over my heart listening to it beat. I hummed to him, holding him, treasuring our reunion."Don't leave me, not again, not ever, hyung promise me, please!" He pleads making me nod. I wasn't leaving him again, never again. I wanted this to last forever, but sadly, nothing ever lasts forever. Someone began knocking on the door, an angry voice revealing the identity of the man on the other side. Kangin had returned and still sounded angry. I push Kyuhyun behind me, my eyes warning him to stay where I placed him. Kyuhyun obeyed, staying still as I moved to open the door. Kangin stood on the other side his eyes wide with anger. I glared back equally angered the two of us sparring silently."Nice face." He hissed making me growl. "Leave, and never mess with my brother again." I snarl. Kangin moved closer earning my protective stance."He belongs to me, besides, last I checked, his brother was dead." Kangin slurred. I saw Kyuhyun move closer to me and away from his landlord."Well as you can see, I'm alive now, so leave." I order. I remained still as Kangin reached forward grabbing around my throat. I was use to this, I grew up abused I did not fear this brute."Hyung." Kyuhyun called, his fingers grabbing at my shirt. Kangin smirked as his hand tightened making me choke."Let him go!" Kyuhyun ordered dashing forward and pushing Kangin away. I was frozen for a moment, before my protective side took over again. I saw the dangerous flash in Kangin's eyes before he tried to hit my brother. I launched myself at my brother taking him in my arms and pushing the drunk man away. We locked eyes, both holding our hatred for each other, Kyuhyun, watched hiding his eyes from the view."Leave now, before I kill you. I've killed before." I tell him making Kangin back away wisely.“Don’t worry my Kyu, I will be back, and I will rescue you from this weirdo.” Kangin slurred before leaving the small apartment.