Chapter 3 (1/2)

Eunhyuk`s povI woke up from the loud sound of my alarm clock,  and felt sad again cause this meant that Donghae wasn`t going to wake me up like before, no he also stoped this.It hurt somehow, . . . everything that happened. He was a very special person to me, my best friend~ My heart hurt even more and I gulped the tears down that were forming at the edge of my eyes. Thiy really was annoying, and even more cause he replaced me with Siwon, who was also a friend of mine since we were alle members of ONE groupe! They shouldn`t run away from me~ Well they can`t really cause we are one group, but they can ignore me or . . . what they are doing now. Outcasting me. . .

I sighed when the alrm began again and got up turning the alarm off, while I sat at the edge of my bed. I was oooo tired since I only fall a few hours ago asleep. I run my hand through my hair and jumped when the door suddenly burst open, with an loud >BANG< ! Reaviling the last person I wanted to see right now . . . Siwon.

>>You`re up, that`s good. We will be going in forty-five minutes(Strong Heart filming), so you should wash yourself and eat breakfast.<<

He said and i nodded my head, while I wasn`t really awake, even with that loud BANG.

Just get out of my room Siwon. I really can`t see him now, makes me want to punch him. He had dragged Donghae away from me. They were always together!!! I hope they don`t sleep together~Wait what!? Sleep together . . . ? Hae`s arms around another mans body? Why does this htought of Hae sleeping with another man, hurt me, rather disturb my feelings? I shook my haed and stood up, when I saw that Siwon was still standing at the door, closing it with an silent click. What now?

>>Eunhyuk I want to ask you of something. . . rather I demand it,<< he said seriously and I somehow had no clou what he was saying??? HE wants to order me around?! What the-.

>>What do you want Siwon?<< ´You already have Donghae, what more?!` I added but didn`t say it out loud.

>>I WANT YOU TO STAY AWAY FROM DONGHAE, YOU`RE JUST HURTING HIM,<< he said serious and with an calm voice, but still I shuddered a bit.

>>W-What?!<< He isn`t with me anymore, cause he`s with you the whole time!!! Even when they are filming!!!  (SkipBeat).

>>You heard me Hyukjae. Youe better listen to me, or you will regret it,<< he said and walked out of my room leaving me stunned and stiff in the midle of the room. Eyes wide open and my brain was turning over and over, trying to process what had just happened. Thousand of questions came to my mind:

I hurt Donghae? How? Why? What did I do? He is already with you, what are you even saying? I will regret it? Will he beat be up if I don`t oblige him?! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I was snapped out from my brainstorming when Leeteuk came in my room and shook me.

>>Yah! Eunhyuk-ah, are you there? Listening?!<<

I blinked many times and looked at the concernd Leeteuk that had his hands still on my shoulders.

>>I-I . . . S-Sorry, I was daydreaming. You said what Hyung?< >>You look tired Hyuk~. Did you slept?<< Leeteuk asked worriedly. He was really like an Umma (mom) to us.

>>It`s alright hyung. I just . . . had an bad dream,< He eyed me for an moment until he noddd and let got of me, turning to go out of my room while he said, >>You shoul hurry a bit.<<

>>Yes.<< I took my towel and went to the bathroom, showering fastly and drying my hair before I went back to my room to get dressed. I put on a black-skinny-jeans and an grey long-sleeved-shirt. (this shirt)

I headed towards the kitchen and when I entered my eyes immidently searched for Donghae but he wasn`t there, instead there was Siwon, glancing at me. I shuddered and sat down eating cornflakes, while I stayed silent.

What am I suppose to do?~

Soon after that we (Donghae, Siwon, Leeteuk, Kyuhyun, Sungmin and me) were driving to the studio of Strong Heart. I couldn`t even glance at Donghae cause I somehow was scared of Siwon, who was always with Donghae.

The thought hurt me even more and I looked out of the window trying to shut everything out, but iz didn`t work. There were always Siwon`s words, over and over again:

Stay away. You`re hurting him. Stay away. You`re hurting him. Stay away. You`re hurting him. . . .

Donghae`s povWe were in the car driving to the Strong Heart sudio. I was sitting in the last row in the car with Siwon while Sungmin and Kyuhyun were infront of us, Leeteuk -who was driving- and Eunhyuk were at the very front.

I wasn`t talking much since I was still a bit tired and Siwon didn`t try to start an conversation. Probably he knew that I was tired.

I was really thankfull to have Siwon at my side,cause he helped me a lot. He made it not so . . . troublesome.

It was still hard to ignore Eunhyuk, or turn him down when he wanted to do something, but most of the time it was alright cause I wasn`t there and away with Siwon. So he had no chance to ask me. But when he asked me out yesterday I could see how hurt he was and I just wanted to got to him and tell him that I would go out with him.

But I know that, if I did that I would never be able to overcome this. If I would get over this I would surely be able to have fun with Hyukkie again.

Cause right now I`m beeing selfish when I am together with him, cause I really, really love Hyukkie.

I have no idea how he would react if he knew that I love him. I am so scared to let him know, that`s why I disided to get rid of those feelings, since I really want to be with Hyukkie and laugh with him.

But when I tried I couldn`t help but to give in and come to Hyukkie. I was sad and cried at some nights till I fell asleep. That`s when Siwon came one night into my room, and started to help me with my feelings. And somehow it works . . . not really~. I am sad the whole time unless Siwon distacts me from my thoughts, what he manages most of the time. But at night when I am alone . . . I can`t help to feel sad. I sighed and looked forward to Eunhyuk, he seemed also in thoughts, looking outside the window.

He weared black-skinny jeans and the shirt I really loved on him cause when he didn`t wear another shirt underneath you could see through the holes his fair skin. Not that I care about what kind of glimps I can catch through his holes, when I saw him NAKED yesterday!!!!

I felt my cheaks getting warm and my body heated up again as I remembered his muscles, which were covered with his soft skind and rhose pink nipples that were too cute~. And the water drobs running down his body, till his  . . . dick! I saw his dick! I mean I saw his upper body many times cause we were in one group, plus we live together!