Part 4 (1/2)

They decide to give Woohyun a bit of space and go to the meat house around the corner.

An order of samgyubsal and two bottles of soju later Sunggyus stomach feels a bit better but he still can't shake off the unsettling feeling.

He bites into another piece of kimchi, his gaze on the passing people outside the huge window. " You think he'll be fine?"

"Of course he'll be fine.", Hoya puts a few more pieces of meat on the grill, turning the ones already finished. A bit of kimchi in the corner next to the meat and he is happy with his work. " He's just like that from time to time."

"I've never seen him like this."

" That's because you make him happier than he ever was."

"Great.", Sunggyus features darken. " Then I fucked things up now."

"Not necessarily you. As he told you… sometimes he just can't help but worrying."

Dongwoo fills another round of Soju. " Is there a particular reason for that?"

Hoya nods slowly." He's pretty open about that story actually so I guess it is fine if I tell you."

"Whatever story you'll bring up now I'm sure I haven't heard of it so he isn't."

"As I told you, Sunggyu. He was happy. He didn't have a reason for telling you."  Hoya drinks his soju in one go and the other two do the same. " In his last year of high school Woohyun started to date a guy named Doojoon."

"Doojoon." Dongwoo says slowly, the name sounding familiar to him.

" You know, the Beast K-pop whatever leader Doojoon."

Sunggyu feels a pang of jealousy but keeps any comment to himself.

"Well… it's a quiet short story. They were together. Woohyuns first love. Then the guy joined a company as a trainee, and soon fame made Doojoon ditch him.", Hoya clicks his tongue." Not that he was the best for Woohyun from the beginning. I'm glad he's gone. But it did something to Woohyun. Not anything ridiculously bad … just… he became more careful. A perfectly normal reaction. I think it hit him to a degree, that now he doesn't want to be the one that is left behind anymore. I can just guess that the video you made triggered the memory."

Sunggyu breaks out into cold sweat. "He has still feelings for Doojoon?"

Hoya brush off his question vigorously. " No! Holy shit... never. You're his number one now, no question. Not even comparable. And I guess that is the reason he reacts this strongly to it."

"Poor Hyunie…" Dongwoo mumbles, staring into his empty glass.

" If this is doing so much to him of course I won't upload this video. It's not important." Sunggyu says determined, earning Hoyas smile. " Thanks for saying that. You're doing him good. A lot better than any other guy before."

Sunggyu averts his gaze." Don't say that. Because of me he is feeling down and I can't do anything."

"Just listen and be there for him and he will soon  realise there is nothing to worry about. In the end this isn't even a fight. He just needs space."

They turn back to lighter conversations soon after, but Sunggyu can't seem to concentrate on it. He really wants to talk to his boyfriend and soon he pulls his mobile out of his pocket, surprised when he notices two missed calls from Woohyun.

" I need to call Woohyun back."He excuses himself and leaves the restaurant into the warm night.

" Sorry. I didn't check my phone." he says without greeting when Woohyun answers after the second beep.

"Where did you go?" Woohyun whines, his tone almost back to his old self.

" We went to the meat house close by. We wanted to give you some space."

" I wanted you to give me five minutes. I never said you should leave the house." Woohyun mumbles and Sunggyu can almost see the pout in front of him.

He chuckles. " You needed it."

"I need you. Leave those two and come back to me."

Sunggyu draws circles on the ground with the tip of his shoe.. " I thought you were out of sorts with me.""Who said that?""No one. It just seemed like it.""I'm not mad at you. Come home.""If that's what you want then I'll come."Sunggyu says bye to his two friends inside and leaves his share of the bill on the table before he leaves for their apartment." You're sure you want me there?"" One hundred percent sure.""Good… it wasn't a nice feeling.""What feeling?""Thinking you were mad at me."

He turns around the corner but can't walk any further when he bumps into someone."I'm so--- Woohyun!""Hey boyfriend."A wide smile and someone that hugs him tightly. " I came to get you.""Woohyun…""What?""It's late. You should stay at home.""I missed you." Woohyun says when he takes Sunggyu by the hand and pulls  him back in direction of their home." I was gone for an hour." Sunggyu says, putting his mobile back in his pocket."Don't tell me you didn't miss me?"" I did."Woohyun smiles again, but it vanishes as soon as it appears."Gyu. You uploading the video... It is actually a good idea and I think you should go for it.""I'm not doing it if you don't want me to. If the attention it'll probably bring makes you feel uncomfortable then I won't do it. It's your choice."

Woohyun gives him a suspicious side glance. "Did Hoya tell you something?"

Sunggyu was never good at lying and even in the dark Woohyun can see the red tips of his ears.

"Hoya might have told me about Doojoon.""Tsk.."

Sunggyu holds his hand a bit tighter. " Now we're even I guess. You surely remember Domgwoos story time about me being karate kid.""It's okay. I'm not mad. Would have told you either way."Woohyun stops in the light of a street lamp, closing the distance between them to initiate their first kiss since this morning before he went to work and Sunggyu knows in those moments that he might grew a tiny bit too addicted to this.How much he actually missed it all day long..."It's just need to learn that you're not like him... you aren't, are you?" Woohyun says and chuckles slightly in the end but it is a fake laugh and Sunggyu notices immediately.

So he hugs him again because frankly speaking love confessions still aren't his best thing and it is still hard for him… but… if Woohyun needs them he can get them out because that man in his arms became quiet much Sunggyus whole world which is a lot when you take in the fact that he never got farer away than Busan, making the world an unbelievable huge place for tiny Kim Sunggyu.

"I'm not that great with confessions or whatever. But… how do I say this… you know…. People might think that I love you gets old after a while and that  in  today's society it is not worth anything anymore because we seem to love everything. But to me, it is such an important thing to say. You always need to remember you're the only one I ever told to. So, once again because I think I told you a lot already, Nam Woohyun. I really really love you with all I have and as things are now, forever sounds like a great thing to me. I don't know if you'll ever grow tired of me and I hope not… but at the moment I can offer you this quiet long time frame if you want to. I will never treat you like he did. I promise and I hope you can trust me with that."

Woohyun seems to freeze in his arms for what feels like an eternity but Sunggyu is thankful for that because his head looks like a tomato and he might not be able to speak for a while in all of his sudden embarrassment.

He is all the more surprised when Woohyun sits on the ground all of sudden, sobbing like a baby.

"Woohyun… what…", Sunggyu crouches down in front of his boyfriend cupping his face in a miserable try to sooth him. "Are you hurting somewhere?"

"This was the best thing I heard in my life." Woohyun brings out between two sobs. He wipes over his eyes with his fists but it is futile because he can't seem to stop.

"Why are you crying then?" A half hysterical Sunggyu asks."Because I'm so happy…""Then stop crying.""I can't!""Because you're happy? ""Because I love you!""Oh no… please. Stop… oh no…"Sunggyu almost starts to cry too, but gets disturbed by laughing and back to almost crying and  they just sit like that for ten minutes because Woohyun is a drama queen and Sunggyu is a boyfriend dyslexic and they never know what to do with each other and still are perfect together in their own and everyone's opinion.

OOO

Sungguys video comes as a real bombshell. .Dongwoo, the best with computers uploads it.Tracking save, as he calls it.He is doing it in the afternoon. When they go to bed there are already around 5000 clicks and when they get up in the morning they managed to go over 400.000 clicks, continuously growing higher in a fast pace.

It doesn't really affect their lives as much as they worried. They go on like always over the next two weeks, Sunggyu sometimes making a new video about the questions in the comment section.

Woohyun goes through the comments during the evening, cursing every user name that dares to call "oppa" "cute" or " sexy". And on top of that he has to endure Sungjongs and Dongwoos new favourite game : who finds the worst newspaper headline.

Sungjong currently is on top due to Kim M. and Woohyun feels the closer coming heart attack. He is currently situated on their sofa. It is a Friday night and he is already wearing his sweatpants and a loose shirt.

Woohyun grabs the newspaper Sungjong brought over with both hands, almost tearing it apart in the middle.

Sungjong behind him, scrutinizing the picture of the woman with the blurred face.  " I don't think that is his style."

"I…don't…care…" Woohyun presses out through clenched teeth and reads out the headline over and over again. " Kim M. - I'm carrying his child. The masked affair is finally speaking up."Dongwoo almost cries in laughter and barely keeps his body on the couch.

"Why did you even buy this shitty newspaper??" Woohyun throws it to the ground, almost trampling on it in a childish fit of jealousy.

Sungjong shrugs, checking his nails. " I need to read my horoscope."

"Carrying his child??? He's as straight as the crooked banana in the song!""

"You know all the copycats. She needs attention and money."

"I WILL GIVE HER ALL OF MY FUCKING ATTENTION WHEN I GET HER!"Dongwoo looses the battle and sails to the ground.

Woohyuns forehead meets the table. "I hate this…"" Yah…", Sung Jong tries to console him. " You know that this is just gossip."

"Still….I don't want half of Korea to have a part of him.", Woohyun mumbles. " Go away and let me die in my misery."

"Bad timing?"

"Sunggyu!"

Woohyun jumps up from his seat, almost stumbling over the table in the process and hugging Sunggyu.

His boyfriend stumbles slightly under the extra weight, accidentally walking over the newspaper on the ground. " Ahh. You already saw Mrs. Kim."

" I'm going to castrate you if you're going to tell me it is true."