[M] Intermezzo (1/1)

“When you graduate from "Being In Love" to "Loving Someone" you understand - Love is not about owning, Love is about wanting the best for them, It's about seeing or Helping them achieve great heights, with or without you. Love is not what you say, it's what you do.” - Wordions         Minseok was shaking a bit because he couldn’t even begin to imagine what Lu Han might tell him. It was bad news probably. He wasn’t sure how ready he was to deal with even more heartbreak than he had already experienced but he owed to his baby to at least listen to what Lu Han had to say. Lu Han had no idea where to start from because he had ruined so many things. He had made Minseok feel insecure and not good enough but that was not at all what the older male thought of him. His baby’s carrier was perfect in his eyes. Maybe he should say that out loud instead of always keeping everything to himself. “I am really sorry Minseok. I haven’t acted the best until now and you probably hate me. It was never my intention to cause you harm but I am really bad at dealing with emotions. I am not used to expressing what I feel and you caught me completely off guard. Because you are so beautiful inside and out and I think I couldn’t have asked for someone better to carry my child. Is there any chance we can start over? Pretend I have not been a complete jerk until now? Do you think you can find it in your heart to forgive me and to give me one more chance?”“I c-can do that. But I need you to make an effort. I know you are extremely busy but your baby also requires your attention. I want you to be part of his or her life even before being born. Children hear and are sensitive to all of our actions so I think we should work on becoming at least friends. Is that alright with you?”“Yes, of course! But I was actually thinking that maybe we could go out one day? I realize this might come as a surprise but actually I think I fell for you the first time we met. You were so adorable, with your flushed cheeks and you looked so tiny all wrapped up in your heavy coat. I was so scared you might have caught onto my feelings for you so I tried to hide them as best as I could. I was so concentrated on making sure you never find out that I only ended up hurting you in the process.”“I-I had no clue you l-liked me. I must confess I like you too but the way you were treating me made me reconsider my feelings. I was so afraid you might find out and scorn me for being so foolish as to fall for somebody like you.”“Wow! I can’t believe you share my feelings! You’re too good for me, really! After all the bad things I have done to you, I don’t deserve to be with such a wonderful being!”“I think we should commence from scratch. No more hiding things from each other, no more lies. I still have a bit of doubts regarding your ability to keep your promises. Once you’ve proven to me you are willing to commit just as much as I am, we can go on a date. How about that?”“I would like that. You’re right. Every relationship is built on trust and I haven’t really proven you that you can do that until now. I will try my best to show you that I can keep my promises.”“That’s what I wanted to hear. I am happy that we will be doing this together because being pregnant is terrifying when on your own. Now that I have you with me, everything will get easier.”After the most needed discussion, things started to look up in their relationship. Minseok would have never pegged Lu Han to be so disgustingly cute but he had been so wrong. He was also clingy. Looks were really deceiving. He couldn’t do anything without his baby’s daddy not wanting to be there as well. Doctor appointments, picking up infant clothes, visiting his family. Minseok was beginning to regret his decision of wanting the Chinese male in his life because it had become almost impossible to get rid of him or his affections. They were all over the place. The younger male was more exhausted now than when he had been handling the whole pregnancy issue on his own. Though he had to confess it was really nice to have someone at your beck and call, willing to do anything you ask of them. His cravings were getting worse by the day but Lu Han had never complained. That was really admirable since he knew how difficult he became when refused.