[M] 6 months left: More troub (1/1)

“When you choose to forgive the same people over and over again you do so because you don't want to believe your time loving them was wasted. Bad relationships over time can become investments, that are hard to let go of. The key to freedom is to realize that love is never wasted. The only thing wasted in life is the time you spend focusing on an unhappy situation that will never change to fit your needs, and not realizing the true investment of time and love are the lessons God wanted you to learn.” - Shannon L. Alder  Sehun's current mood: cloudy with a chance of rain                                                                                                                                                           Jongin's current disposition: It could've been worse...                  Sehun was not feeling well. In fact, this could've easily been one of the worst days of his life. Jongin wasn't home yet and it was already past midnight. Sehun had called him numerous times but it seems like he was out of reach. Sehun was beyond frustrated with Jongin's recent behaviour. Ever since Sehun had rejected his attempts at intimacy, he was becoming colder by the day. Sehun hadn't anticipated a situation like this. Jongin had started ignoring Sehun and Sehun was feeling horrible about this. His pregnancy hormones were not helping the matter, either.Sehun decided he had enough of Jongin's bad behavior that is why he was currently working on moving all of his things in his previous room. No more bed sharing from now. Jongin would have to keep himself company from now on because Sehun was so over his childish act. He had always known Pinku Pinku was the best but now he was really convinced of it. Nobody could replace him, not even JonginWhen Jongin had finally arrived home, at about 4am in the morning, Sehun was already fast asleep. Jongin went into his room and noticed that Sehun was not sleeping in his bed, well, more like their bed at the moment. He went into his boyfriend's previous room and found him curled up in the bed linens. Jongin thought he looked really cute like that but then he saw him hugging that stupid toy and Jongin felt pissed off all over again. He hated the fact that Sehun was ignoring his every attempt at touching him or kissing him. Weren't people in love supposed to want to do those things with each other? He couldn't figure out why Sehun was acting so indifferent towards him. His friends were the only ones who comforted him. He was starting to really doubt his decision of living with Sehun. He cared about Sehun but he was not so sure anymore that they could ever fit together. Their characters didn't match at all and Sehun behaved like a spoilt brat most of the time. Jongin was starting to get really tired of his tantrums. As soon as Sehun woke up, he went to check if Jongin was home yet. Fortunately, it seemed he had returned home at one point during the early morning. Sehun knew they could not go on like this. This is not how he imagined their relationship to go about. They were supposed to be doing cute, disgusting things together at this point and discuss about their future with the baby but all they had been doing the past month was to argue over the silliest of things. Sehun needed a break from all this drama and he assumed Jongin felt the same. He went to prepare breakfast for both of them because he knew that Jongin would be starving when he woke up. When Jongin entered the kitchen to get something to eat, he met Sehun's eyes and instantly felt guilty for the way he was acting currently. Sehun looked really exhausted and so pale. He needed to apologize for his behaviour and attempt to find a way to solve their issues. Before he had a chance to say anything, Sehun was already addressing him."We need to have a serious talk. This cannot go on like this. You, not being home most of the time, and me going crazy on my own in this house. We need to decide once and for all if it even makes sense to do this together. I had been excited when we first started living together but now I just want out. I want to know if you want to make this work or if you think we should just break up and forget this ever happened. I would, of course, let you see our child how many times you want but I would be the one holding the custody. I think it's only fair since I am the one carrying him or her. My baby is already part of me. I will let you think about this for some days and when you have an aswer I want you to sincerely tell me what you want. I will listen to everything and respect any decision you make. We can still be friends no matter what you decide."After he had ended his speech, Sehun didn't wait for Jongin's reaction. He was too affected by what he had said. He had no clue why he had spoken so decisively about this. He didn't want to lose Jongin but he didn't want to force him into a relationship either. This was for the best. In a couple of days, he would know how Jongin really feels about him. He had also recently discovered a very interesting club, something like Anonymous Alcoholics, named Young Carriers. This club has as members boys like him who could carry babies and he wanted to try and attend some meetings. Maybe finding other people like him would help him deal better with the mess in his life. He was actually looking forward to see how other carriers lived. If they had the same problems that he had.The following day he was quite nervous to attend the meeting of the club because he had no idea what they would be discussing or how the other members were like. He usually felt a bit uncomfortable around strangers but he was ready to face this f