I cant (1/1)

Jiyong's POV I have this feeling inside of me when our body touched. I can barely tell what it is. Happiness? Because we're friends again. Sadness? What to be sad about? Worry? Why?Meeting the girl you've hurt is hard for me, guilt started to build up inside and especially i found out and even saw it that she changed... a lot.. I mean not just the appearance but also her personality. From the old Yumi who is not that sociable, hates parties to friendly and party girl type. However, there is one thing that until now it's still with her, everytime... That smile.. that addictive smile.. and can make your world stopped. The way her eyes disappeared and the sound of her cute giggles. But i still missed the other Yumi. I feel so bad that she transform into other person maybe because of me.. Last night, i was drunk. I know i did stupid things, i remember all of them including what i did to Yumi. I was really thinking of doing that, the alcohol helped to gather up my courage, but not in that way. I want to hug her and tell her i missed her in the first place not to kiss her. A few inches only away from her lips and i will able to kiss her again, then pushed me hard and ran inside. That is the time i woke up from my drunken thoughts. So instead of making time to regret of almost doing that to her, i grabbed the girl i talked with earlier to dance with here. My mind once again was filled with such things, then without any thoughts, i pulled her to my room and pushed her on my bed. I don't know how many rounds we did it until the sun rised. I just woke up alone, naked.I hope my parents especially Yumi didn't heard all our moans and screams. I wasn't really that type of guy who will just fuck every girl i want just to pleasure and satisfy myself. I was drunk, and can't control myself from doing it. “Nice one, Bro” TOP hyung said putting his arm around my neck while walking back inside the pension. “How long will you guys stay here?” Noona asked the time we got inside. “They will leave later afternoon, while Youngbae and I will stay here til tomorrow” I said My bestfriend will stay with me to help me with our comeback album. We're supposed to relax and not to work, i hope he won't scold me later for reasoning it to let him stay. “Can i have request from you?” Noona said “Sure, noona. What is it?” “Go to my boutique next week, i'll be needing you there for my photoshoot” I agreed to my sister since it was her birthday last night, i'll consider it as my gift for her. I'm sure she will make me as her model again. The last time i became her model when i was still a trainee to debut soon and a lot of fans already coming to my noona's boutique to buy her clothes which she designed herself.  “So.. how was meeting Yumi again?”  “Fine..” “That's it?“We walked, talked and ride the duck boat” I said making her smile. “I'm happy for you guys. Please don't think that i'm planning something to get you guys together again. I know you, Jiyong. You're thinking that right now. I just want you two to be friends” I pursed my lips and nodded  I went inside my little house which i built. I'm not really good at building so it's not that nice outside but when you come to see inside, you'll definitely be shocked. I spent a lot of money and of course sweat. I don't know what came up to my mind to build this. Sounds like in dramas, right? And corny? I always tell to all my interviews when they asked me about my personal life and i always said that i want to married soon and have my own family. I always imagined myself with my soon-to-be-wife, growing old with her and with our kids. I won't let her cry, never feel sad nor alone. Not like i did to my past girlfriends. If only i could gather them all together to sent my sorry.  Destiny.... example of it? Yumi and I met again because of our mothers. I never thought of this, i can call it as destiny. But Yumi and I together again?      I can't......               i just can't ......               YAY! Jiyong's POV finally. I want to apologize for another short chapter. I don't really have time for writing. Soooo... teaser for the next chapters... there will be a lot of secrets to reveal. And i, myself, can't wait to reveal them all. Hahahaha. ok. Thank for subbies and your comments! I always felt so excited and happy whenever i saw a comment added on the comment box.Btw Keep subscribing and don't forget to write your reactions and comments below! ~yencuyom