Ch. 9- Feelings Resurface (1/1)

Hoya's POV:I tossed around the bed as I tried to wake myself up. There was like something heavy on me and I couldn't push it off. My bed was being all wobbly too. I groaned wanting whatever it was to get off of me. Then I felt something fluttering on my face, and I forced myself to open my eyes. Right in front of my face, literally centimeters away, was Dongwoo-hyung. He had on his huge, gummy smile and I couldn't help but smile too. I rubbed my eyes because I was tired and he finally got off of me. I sat up in my bed and noticed that two butterflies were fluttering around him." Hyung, you are always bringing butterflies with you, you know that?" He tilted his head at me. I rolled my eyes and held my hand out. The butterflies flew to my hand and sat on there. I showed it to Dongwoo-hyung and he laughed- as usual." Haha! Oh yeah! They were following me since this morning!"" Well, they must like you or something." A gentle smile came across his face and the butterflies flew away. I watched them as the flew out of the room through the window. I got off the bed and I noticed that Dongwoo-hyung was already in his uniform." Why are you here anyway? I usually come pick you up."" Oh, it's nothing. I just felt like coming to wake you up since you always come pick me up." I laughed and ruffled his hair. I went to the bathroom to wash myself up, and then put on my uniform afterwards. I didn't see him in my bedroom when I came back from the bathroom so he must be downstairs in the kitchen." Hoya, I made breakfast!" Right when he said that, I ran down as quickly as possible, and sat down at the table. Dongwoo-hyung brought out a plate of pancakes for me- blueberry pancakes." Thanks, hyung!"" Anything for you." I began to dig into my pancakes when I noticed Dongwoo-hyung wasn't eating. I looked up at him and spoke." Why aren't you eating?"" I ate before I came here. And don't speak with your mouth full of food." He clamped my mouth shut, and I pouted at him. He just laughed at me and continued to watch me as I ate.When I was finally done with the pancakes, I put my plate into the sink. I grabbed my backpack and made sure I had everything. Dongwoo-hyung was waiting for me by the door. I put my shoes on and we headed out the door. While we were walking, I felt like something was different with Dongwoo-hyung. I couldn't tell what it was, but I was curious. It didn't look like he got a haircut, and he was his happy self. I decided not to think about it, and we walked in silence to school. I had the itch to hold his hand, though. Right when I was about to grab it, he pulled his hand away from me. Also he stopped walking and he was looking at something in the distance. I looked to where he was looking at, and saw Sunggyu-hyung walking with Woohyun-hyung. From what I could see, it didn't look like the made up yet. All of a sudden I felt somebody grab my arm, but it wasn't Dongwoo-hyung." J-Jieun!"" Hi, Hoya! Where is Dongwoo-sshi?" I looked around but he wasn't beside my anymore. Then I saw him walking with Sunggyu-hyung and Woohyun-hyung.I guess he wanted to walk with them. He should have told me at least. " Hoya?"" Hm?"" Let's go." I nodded my head. When she let go of my arm, I was a bit disappointed. I wanted for her to hold on a little bit longer, even if it was just a second.Jieun and I walked to class, but Dongwoo-hyung wasn't in there. I looked around the classroom and I still couldn't find him. Jieun told me she was going to go see Suzy-sshi, and she left. First, I headed to the bathroom, but he wasn't there. He wasn't at his locker either, and he wasn't in any of the other classrooms. Right when I was walking back to the classroom, I saw Dongwoo-hyung walking with Kiseop. They were laughing at something funny, and I could see Kiseop reaching for his hand. Jus then, Dongwoo-hyung's and my eyes met each other. He started to come to me and I saw that he was eating a donut. " Hoya, look what Kiseop got for me! A donut! It's so good with the jelly in it!" I glared at Kiseop and he smirked at me. I can tell what he was thinking, but I wasn't going to let him take away my best friend. I grabbed Dongwoo-hyung's hand and led him to the classroom. I sat him in his seat and I sat down in mine." Hyung, you should really stop eating donuts. They aren't good for you." As expected, he rolled his eyes at me like a child." Why do I have to listen to you?" I watched him as he slowly brought the donut to his mouth and started to eat it. I could see a bit of jelly on the side of his lips and decided to tease him a bit. I brought my face close to his. Then I wiped the jelly off with my finger, and put it in my mouth." Hm. It's not bad."" Y-Yah!" I laughed at him when I saw red face. I was going to say something back but then I saw Jieun in the hallway with Wooyoung-sshi. I was about to walk to them, but I felt a tug on my sleeve. My eyes met with Dongwoo-hyung's eyes. It was as if he was trying to tell me something, but I couldn't decipher it." Why are you holding onto me?"" H-Huh? O-Oh, sorry. I don't know why either." He let go of my sleeve, but by then Jieun was already in her seat and Wooyoung-sshi was nowhere to be seen.Without asking Jieun why he was talking to Wooyoung-sshi, I sat back down. I felt something, though. It was as if something was boiling inside of my heart. This feeling, I didn't want to accept it. My heart has already moved on, and I should find somebody else. She probably doesn't have those sort of feelings for me anyway. We have been childhood friends, and that's what we will always be. Just childhood friends.---------------------------------------------------------------------------During lunch.... Dongwoo's POV: While I was on my way to lunch, I saw Sunggyu-hyung walking outside. I looked back and forth between Hoya and Sunggyu-hyung. I didn't know what to do, but if Sunggyu-hyung was going to go the garden again, I should go. He did say before that he wanted somebody to follow him. He didn't care if it was anybody who followed him. I decided that I would follow Sunggyu-hyung, and tell Hoya." Hoya."" Hm?"" I'm going to go follow Sunggyu-hyung. Remember that we are going to stay after school a little bit later so we could practice for the performance."" Okay! Tell me how Sunggyu-hyung is doing. Okay?" I nodded my head and ran out of there.Slowly, I made my way to the garden. I admired the flowers, and the cherry blossoms that were disappearing. The sight of the bare trees made me gloomy. It was as if it was giving me, us, everybody a sign that something was going to end. The bright red and pink cherry blossoms made the spring enjoyable, but now what will happen? There is this tugging feeling in my heart. I can't explain it, though. As the cherry blossoms disappear, this agnsty feeling in my heart grows and grows." Dongwoo?" I didn't notice that I was standing in front of Sunggyu-hyung. I smiled at him and sat across from him." Hey, hyung. Why are you out here again?"" I'm fine. It's nothing." I could tell from the solemn expression on his face. That's when I saw tears falling down from his face and rushed to his side. I quickly wiped away his tears. This is the first time I have ever seen him so weak like this. Sunggyu-hyung was the type to have a strong but calm front about him. Seeing him like this truly shocked me." Why are you crying?" Sunggyu-hyung placed his hand on his heart and looked at me straight in the eyes." It hurts. It hurts so much. You wouldn't understand because you don't know what love is."What does he mean? I don't know what love means? Is Sunggyu-hyung in love with somebody? " D-Do you like somebody?" A bitter smile replaced his tears, and my heart broke when he laughed." I'm a fool aren't I? He wouldn't ever love me." He stood up and I quickly grabbed his hand from leaving. I was worried for him because he has never, never, never been like this." You can tell me. You can trust me."" Dongwoo."" Hm?" His face came close to mine, and I felt his breath on my ear. My hand flew to my mouth to keep myself from gasping. When Sunggyu-hyung pulled away, I looked straight into his eyes. If what he said was the truth or not, I wanted to know. His eyes said it all, though. I could see the love and sadness in his eyes." Can you please keep in a secret?"" Why? Shouldn't you tell him?"" I....can't. I don't want to break our friendship. We should probaby go back inside."Silently, I followed him inside. By walking behind him I could see how lonely he was. I guess I could count this as the first time Sunggyu-hyung has ever told me a secret. It was as if I was following a zombie. The way he walked, his expressions, and just everything seemed like the sun was sucked out of him. I have never dealt with a person like this, and I didn't know what to do. Dealing a situation like this, all I could say I didn't have any experience. Especially when I haven't had any experience in love.I watched Sunggyu-hyung walk into his class and sit down in his seat. Once it looked like he was okay, I made my way to my next class. I felt somebody put an arm around my shoulder, and turned my head to see a smiling Hoya. I tilted my head in confusion as to why he was smiling. I didn't have a good feeling, though. It was as if I was telling myself not to ask as to why he was smiling. Yet, I wanted to know as well. My curiosity got the better of me. They did say curiosity killed the cat." Hoya, why are you smiling? You are creeping me out a bit."" Guess!"" Why!? Just tell me!"" Aish! Fine! Jieun asked me if I could teach her how to dance! Isn't that great!?" I stopped in my tracks. The feeling of tons of bricks fell onto me." But, we were supposed to practice today."" Oh right! I forgot about that! Please, let it slide this one time! Okay? She really wanted me to teach her!"She really wanted Hoya to teach her how to dance? Hoya and I already made plans, though. How could Hoya forget? Does Hoya still like Jieun-sshi?" Hoya."" Hm?"" Do you still have feelings for Jieun-sshi?" I stared straight into his eyes. I could tell he was trying to mask it, but it didn't work on me." I don't know." I rolled my eyes and went to class. I didn't feel like dealing with Hoya who was uncertain about his feelings." Hey, wait for me!" I didn't slow down, though.I immediately sad down in my seat and played with the sleeve of my blazer. Hoya was trying to get my attention, but ignored him. His voice passed over my head as he continued. I didn't spare him any attention from me. Luckily, the teacher came in and Hoya had to go sit in his seat. Though, he didn't stop looking at me. I wanted to tell him to stop looking at me, but that would mean he would have won. It was a battle between him and I. I wasn't going to lose, not one bit.-------------------------------------------------------------------------After school.... After thinking about some stuff, I thought that I was being a bit childish. I shouldn't have acted that way to Hoya because Jieun-sshi was just asking a favor from him. It wasn't like he was going to be stolen away from me.....Right? Anyways, I was in the dance studio getting ready to dance again since everybody else left to go home. Hoya went to go get Jieun-sshi from the singing class while I stayed here. I thought that maybe I could watch Hoya ' teach' Jieun-sshi how to dance. Dancing was taking a lot of energy out of me. I walked over to my bag to grab my water bottle. Unfortunately, my water bottle was empty so I decided to go to refill it.I went to the closest water fountain that was near the dance studio. Though, I didn't expect to see Kiseop there. I ran over to him and hit his back. He started to cough, and I couldn't help but feel guilty. I started to pat his back to help him out. After a few minutes, it looked like he was okay. I was so wrong, though. He pushed me up against the wall and I was pinned between his arms. There was something behind his eyes that I couldn't see. Sadness, happiness, love.....desire? Why was Kiseop looking at me like that? Why?" H-Haha! You look like you are about to pee in your pants!" I pouted when he said that and pushed him away from me." W-Well, you shouldn't have pinned me to the wall like that then! Tch!" I ignored his laughter and went to refill my water bottle.Kiseop decided to walk me back to the dance studio when I specifically told him he didn't have to. I can't stop him, though. He does whatever he likes to do, and I'm fine with it- sometimes. As we were making our way back to the dance studio, I could hear music being played. I walked a bit faster, and the door was wide open. I peeked inside, and at that moment I sat the two of them dancing. The way how Hoya was placing his hands on Jieun-sshi's body so she would know how to move. The way how he smiled when she got it right. Then the way how he looked at her with love filled eyes. I was going to just quietly get my bag, but everything went in slow motion when Jieun-sshi fell to the floor. Thought, before she hit the floor, Hoya caught her in his arms, and they fell down together. Right then and right there, my heart stopped beating. Their faces were centimeters away from each other, and I just couldn't take it anymore. Quickly, I ran into there and grabbed my bag. Then I ran out of there as fast as I could." Dongwoo! Wait!" I kept on running despite the calls." God dang it! Stop would you!" I felt myself hit the ground, and his body on top of mine." Get off of me, Kiseop!" I was flipped around and my arms were pinned down. Gently, he let go of my hands and caressed my cheeks." Pabo, why are you crying?"" W-What?" He took my hand and brought it to my face. My eyes widened when I felt wet tears on my face. He was right. Why was I crying. Kiseop got off of me and helped me up. I dusted my pants off, and walked away without saying anything.Why was I crying? There was no need for me to cry. So why? Why? I guess I should just go to work even though I took the day off. I'm just tired. So tired of this feeling in my chest.      (A/N: Hey everybody! Sorry that I haven't updated for a while! I had tons of homework to do! Ugh. Homework. Anyways this chapter probably sucked since I couldn't come up with something else at the moment. Comments are appreciated!)