Final~ (1/1)

A/N: This will be short, cause I really dunno how to write this. And uh, the lyrics don't really make sense with the story... so.. yeah...Btw, the guy in the prologue, the "he", that's Alexander. And uh, I edited the prologue too. ~When the rain starts to stop, you will follow. Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well.~Kevin sat with knees pulled up to his chin, eyes closed tightly.He didn't want to have even a glance of his surroundings, the colourless room, the bright light that shone regardless of day and night. He didn't want to see the tiny window in the top corner of the cell, a cruel reminder of the freedom he didn't have, not anymore.Laying his head on his folded arms, he shivered slightly.How long had he been here? He didn't know. To tell the truth, he didn't care. Even if he got out, he wouldn't have a home, no one would help him. Not after what had happened."Time for your medication," a voice said, as someone stepped inside the cell. No reaction from Kevin, he'd long trained himself to ignore them. "Kevin?""Go away," a muffled murmur, as Kevin rolled over onto his side, burying his face into the mattress.A hand pulled him up firmly, the other one holding him down as a handful of pills were held up in front of  his mouth. "You need to take these. Or I'll have to inject them into your vein." At these words, Kevin obediently opened his mouth, allowing the pills to be dropped inside, taking a gulp of water and swallowing them down.Five minutes of human contact, before he was left alone once more.I... I miss you...Even if in the past, his life had been a living hell, Kevin wanted to go back. Even if their love had been a lie, he wanted to hear those words again, from the lips of the man he loved.~~"He's hurting you. Please, stop seeing him." Xander said seriously.Kevin sighed, shaking his head and looking away. His hand unconsciously reached up to touch the swollen area on the side of his mouth, still tender from the last beating. He winced slightly, drawing back as Kibum laid a hand on his shoulder. "Look at you, Kevin. You come to school everyday with bruises all over. Why do you still put up with him?"A soft whisper. "I... I love him, hyung.""Kev! Listen to us, we -- " Xander started."Kevin~!" Kevin's head snapped up when he heard the familiar voice. He saw Eli leaning against the wall outside school, smile playing on his handsome face."Bye hyung." Kevin gave Kibum a hug, waving to Xander, before running off to his boyfriend. "Eli~" An arm was wrapped around his small frame posessively, tightly."What were you doing with Kibum?" a smile on his lips, yet not masking the fury in his eyes. "And Alexander?""We were just walking out of school together..." Kevin murmured, even as Eli's grip tightened, fingers digging deep into his skin. "Eli, please." He let out a breathless gasp as he was pushed against the wall roughly, Eli's fiery eyes burning deep into him."I don't want you touching anyone else." Fingernails scratched, gouged into a bruise on Kevin's arm, tears rising in the younger boy's eyes. "Understand?""Ye... Yes..." Kevin whispered, nodding fervently. "I'm sorry."Eli loosened his grip, kissing Kevin softly on the lips. "Good. Let's go home." Kevin didn't say anything, as his fingers were linked with Eli's, as he rolled down his sleeves to hide the bleeding cuts left behind on his arm. He sniffled slightly, but held back his tears, because Eli didn't like him crying.A few metres away, Alexander and Kibum could only sigh, and watch as each step Kevin walked, took him back to hell.~~He hadn't wanted to do it. Never, ever. He hadn't wanted to hold that knife, stare into his eyes as he stabbed the blade down. The blood, red warm blood, splattering out, covering his clothes. Glinting bright on the knife, on his hands...Killing someone... Hadn't been as easy as he thought.Even now, he still remembered the handle gripped tight in his palm, slick with blood. The last breath leaving his lips; the glow of life slowly, slowly dimming his eyes. The realisation that he was finally dead.A tear rolled down Kevin's cheek, but he quickly rubbed it away. Eli wouldn't want him to cry.~~"Tell me the truth." Eli hissed, shoving Kevin onto the bed forcefully. "That night you didn't come home, where did you go?""My... My parents' house..." Kevin stammered, before falling to his side, cheek stinging as Eli slapped him hard, pressing him down onto the bed by his neck. "Eli...""Liar! Who fucked you? Kibum, or Alexander? Or was it both of them?" Eli fisted the younger boy's light brown hair, yanking his head up and pushing him against the headboard of the bed roughly."No one. I really was with Umma and Appa, I --" a scream as a fist slammed into stomach; he groaned, biting his lip to keep from making any more sounds, even as hard blows rained down on him."You're mine. Mine, no one else's." Eli hit him, a punch with each word, until Kevin's lip was bleeding, until he couldn't control the tears anymore. "Don't you DARE cry, Kevin." The younger boy turned away, more tears falling as Eli backhanded him harshly. "You're weak. Damn, I don't even know why I love you." Another slap, before he felt Eli get off the bed. Heard the door slam shut, the sound of footsteps fading away. Kevin didn't even bother cleaning away the blood trickling from the corner of his mouth; just pulled the covers over his sore body, sobs shaking his tiny frame.He wouldn't be able to sleep tonight, not with all the fresh wounds.Some time went by, before his phone lit up, ringing. He reached out, took the phone from his bedside table. Kibum hyung. Eli would kill him if he talked to Kibum. Without a second thought, Kevin switched off his phone, putting it back on the table. Tonight, he wouldn't anger Eli anymore. Anything Kibum wanted could wait until morning.~Halfway through that sleepless night, Kevin felt Eli climb into bed, arms wrapping carefully around him as if he was made of the most delicate china. He felt the older man nuzzle his neck softly, laying light kisses on the bruises on his arms, on the parts he had hit. "Kevin, I love you."Without a word, Kevin turned around in Eli's embrace, burying his face into the warmth pf his chest. His own slender, bruised arms encircling around Eli.I love you too.He didn't have to say the words out loud, he knew Eli could hear them.~~The trial, the trial had been the worst.Sitting there, head bowed, feeling the eyes of everyone in the court on him. The buzz of words blending together into a never-ending, monotonous drone. The accusations in their voices, in their gazes. "Kevin Woo, you are charged with the murder of ..." That was when he lost it, flailing his limbs around wildly, having to be restrained. As they dragged him out of the courtroom, Kevin looked up, meeting his eyes.He saw the disappointment, he knew he had failed. Of course he had failed, he had killed someone. But still, he didn't expect to see him react like that.After all, Kevin had saved his life.~~"Why didn't you answer my calls?" Kibum asked, as he and Kevin made their way to the classroom. "I called you, like, five times. Xander hyung did too. We thought something happened to you."Of course something happened, that's why I'm wearing a sweater and a shirt with the collar up in this awful heat. Kevin thought bitterly."Did he hit you again?" Kibum suddenly turned, gazes meeting firmly. "No. We were just...""He hit you." a statement in a tone so sure, as Kibum yanked up Kevin's sleeve, pointing to the hand-shaped print, black and blue across Kevin's arm, where Eli had grabbed him. "And here too." the older boy reached over, fingers brushing lightly against Kevin's swollen cheek.Kevin pushed his hand away, not giving a straight answer though the evidence was there for all to see. "He wasn't in a good mood, that's all.""If this is what happens when he's not in the best of moods, I don't even want to know what he would do if he loses his temper. Kevin, don't do this to yourself." Kibum tilted his chin gently so that they were looking at each other. "You broke up with me for a life like this?""It's... He loves me, hyung!" Kevin protested, shaking his head, eyes flitting across the worried expression on Kibum's face. "He really does!""So you're saying I don't?" Kibum demanded, starting to get impatient. "If this is your idea of love, then yes, I don't 'love' you like he does. Forget that I ever said anything, then." Turning, he stalked into the classroom, face stormy with anger. He didn't know why Kevin was being so stupid, so blind. Why couldn't he see that all Eli took him for was a punching bag for his anger?Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Kevin sliding into the seat next to his, looking close to tears, lip trembling as he took his books and stationery out. He couldn't help but turn and press a quick kiss on the younger boy's forehead, a symbol of apology, a sign of his love.~~Today, it was raining again. Kevin could see the drops of silver, pattering against the window, a steady rhythm, like a heartbeat. His heartbeat.He hated the rain, each time, he would be reminded of what had happened. Each moment they had spent together. The happy ones, the bad ones. His light touches, his whispers of sweet nothings into his ear. He remembered the days they would spend together, doing nothing but enjoying each other's company. Waking up with a warm body pressed up next to his, head still light with bliss of the previous night.That was the first time he cried.The first time since his arrest, his imprisonment in the mental hospital.They fell like the rain outside the window, an endless stream, hot and salty, drenching his shirt, dripping off the end of his chin. He didn't know why, but he continued crying, each new memory that surfaced a blow to his already injured heart."I love you. I love you I love you I love you I love you..." The words rolled off the tip off his tongue easily, a sweet melody filling the room.Those memories, he loved them, yet he hated them. Each one a piece of him, yet each one another stab to his bleeding heart.~~Today... Today was a good day, Kevin thought as he was enveloped in Eli's arms, sprawled across his lap. Eli ran his hands through the younger's light hair, ruffling it, enjoying the feel of it slipping through his fingers like silk. "What do you want to do today?""Mmm... Nothing.""Nothing? Why are you so lazy, huh?" Eli grinned playfully, before starting to tickle Kevin, even as he screamed, wriggling away. In the midst of their playing, both fell off the sofa and onto the ground, Eli cushioning the blow for Kevin, their lips meeting in a kiss.As Eli pulled him closer, trailing kisses down Kevin's neck, Kevin smiled. Yes, today was a good day.~~"Kevin, you have a visitor."A visitor? Who would visit him? Kevin hoped it wouldn't be Alexander again. He stood up, allowing the guard to put the cuffs on him before following him to the visitors' room.He froze, as his visitor lifted his head, looking straight at him. Why... Why was he here?Kevin sat down heavily in the chair, cuffs clinking onto the table, eyes never leaving the face before him. Didn't he hate Kevin? The last time they had met... Had been in the courtroom."What are you doing??" Kevin screamed, running into the room, shocked at the sight before his eyes.Such a long time, but he hadn't changed, not one bit.He sprinted to the kitchen, grabbing the first weapon he could see, before heading back and stabbing it down blindly. A thud, as the body fell to the ground, blood pumping out of the wound. "Kevin... No..."His mouth was dry, what should he say? His mind was blank, words stuck in his throat yet he couldn't summon them forth to his lips.Another stab, a shriek of agony as he thrashed around beneath Kevin. "Kevin," Eli solved that problem for him, reaching up to the glass, pressing his palm against it as if wanting to caress Kevin's face. "I miss you."~What can I do about something that already ended?

I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I am

Rain always falls so it will repeat again

When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well~ Hello~~Before I say anything else, PLEASE DON'T KILL ME. *runs and hides*hcheartjkpop,Hope you like this! If you don't, tell me in your comment which part is bad okay! You are allowed to scold me if you want T.TUm... Is it confusing? I'm sorry T.TI wrote this while listening to Kanon Wakeshima's album and my mood was kinda uhh... Gothic? Weird? Yeah. And it's short. So... Anyways, enjoy!Comments, anyone?:) *points to the comment box*Love,Me:)*Edit*Is it just me, or are there *-ed words that I can't change in the passage?