love rain 3 (1/1)

“I wonder why I am standing on this road I am at right now… will my dreams come true at the end of this road? I don’t want to regret my choices… If those dreams could come true, I would be very happy.”To be honest, no matter Kyungsoo tries to do, be it closing his eyes, making himself busy, looking at other videos to try and forget what he had just seen, Kyungsoo can still see the videos playing in his mind. It’s much worse whenever he is about to sleep, or whenever he closes his eyes to rest them, because the videos are always on a constant loop. Kyungsoo knows no matter how many times he tries to convince himself that no, that person was not Chanyeol – it definitely cannot be his Chanyeol – he knows he is only going to hurt himself further. Kyungsoo is just too aware of Chanyeol’s very being that he knows well enough that the person had definitely been Chanyeol.The first video he had seen had not been anything out of the ordinary: just a bunch of guys cheering very loudly as they started their game – it was one of those drinking games that Kyungsoo never bothered to learn the name because he doesn’t drink – and the camera had only panned for a bit to the left. But that short time had been enough. He had seen the familiar red hair and the dark hoodie to know who the person had been.But even then, Kyungsoo still tried to convince himself that it wasn’t Chanyeol, it definitely cannot be Chanyeol because hadn’t he texted Kyungsoo that day telling him how he was busy? But against better judgments, Kyungsoo decided to click on the person’s profile just in time to see another video being posted and Kyungsoo should have heeded the warning in his head for curiousity after all did kill the cat.The second video had been the cause of his anguish that night.“How… How many times should I kiss him?”Chanyeol was drunk – that was evident enough from how much he was slurring and looking dazedly at the man who had been filming. They handed Chanyeol a paper and he laughed – Kyungsoo doesn’t know what was so funny about the paper because his heart is breaking in to pieces – before nodding his head. That night, all of Kyungsoo’s worse nightmares, fears and doubts came crashing on him. Every time Chanyeol leaned in to kiss the man – Kyungsoo doesn’t even know the man, knows enough that the man isn’t anyone he personally knows – his chest would start to hurt.Kyungsoo had been crying so much that he had actually missed his phone ringing that night. He eve