[M] Only you (1/2)

"Come on Youngminie, it's time to get up..."

I heard my beloved brother Kwangmin whispering close to my ear, making me immediately leave from my dream. Only his call managed to reach me in my sleep and give me the strength to get up, the alarm wasn't effective with me at all. I yawned, still keeping my eyes closed because of tiredness, and he left the room before I could say any words such as good morning. I pouted and managed to rapidly get up by myself, I put on clothes I found on my way then I quickly joined Kwangmin downstairs.

Once in the kitchen, after having yawned widely once again, I rubbed my eyes to see clearer and I realized that Kwangmin wasn't even there. I sighed and sat down, then prepared myself a simple bowl of cereal for breakfast. Just when I began to pour the milk into my bowl, Kwangmin appeared out of nowhere and was now in front of me.

"Oh, I didn't think you would woke up right away, hyung!"

He told me with a huge smile and seemed impressed. I had the feeling that the room was suddenly illuminated from all sides, so he was shining like a sunbeam. His usual huge and vivid smile always dazzled me, making me lost all my capability. "Watch out, hyung!" He suddenly exclaimed, pointing at my bowl. Not understanding what he meant, I  looked down and saw that I had clumsily poured my milk everywhere except in my bowl of cereal. He rushed to me with a sponge and carefully wiped the milk. "Geez, paid a little more attention to what you're doing, Youngminie." He then said, and his usual thoughtful gesture always made me think of a mother. I couldn't help but blush by embarrassment. I was a pro for clumsiness and he was always there to catch me up.

"I-I'm sorry... It's because I'm still not fully awake yet." I quickly made up an excuse, after yawning again.

"Really? Hmm... Then, I think you should be wide-awake after I give you my morning kiss." He murmured as he leaned toward my face, smiling, to then put a delicate kiss on my lips. Feeling the warmth of his soft lips against mine was really the best thing that could happen to me so early in the morning. "So, do you feel any better?" He asked, as his face was still really close to mine.

"I think... that I need more than one kiss." I replied with a playful smile, and when he was going to taste my lips again, a loud voice at the door made us stop right away.

"Hey, Jo twins! We're going to be late if you don't hurry up!"

Our childhood friend Minwoo shouted behind the door, with a rather annoyed tone. Since his house was quite close to ours and he was in the same class as me, we always went to school together. We also could say that he really had an excellent timing when it came to interrupt the close moments between Kwangmin and me.

We then hurried to join Minwoo outside, not willing him to wait any longer, because he would otherwise quickly lose his patience and throw a tantrum against us.

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Once arrived in front of my classroom, Kwangmin and I had to separate, because we unfortunately weren't in the same class. He quickly turned to me and hugged me tight, like there were no tomorrow.

"Hyung... I want to stay with you." He said with a sad look.

"It's okay, Kwangmin... we'll see each other again at the end of our classes." I tried to reassure him.

"You two... How can you do that every single day? I will never understand it." Minwoo remarked with a bored face but we ignored him, as usual, when he would say things about us being overly close. The ringing stopped our hug, and we separated our way by going each others to our respective classes.

"Hey, Youngmin..."

Minwoo called me while we were eating our meals in the classroom. "I know I've already said this many times, but seriously speaking... your relationship with Kwangmin is too weird. I think I will never get used to it, nor anyone from the school." He said, while I looked at him confused.

"I don't see what you're talking about, our relationship has always been like that." I replied and quietly continued to eat my lunch.

"This is exactly what I'm saying! Usually, brothers don't do things like that even if they're twins. Kissing and hugging almost all the day, saying lovely words between you and all of this even when you two are no longer children... For me, this exceeds the limit of incest." I stopped eating after his long speech, mostly because of this last word which seemed rather bitter to me. "I mean, it's good to be close and get along well and everything but... Hmm, anyway, I'm just saying that for your own sake, before it's too late. " He added with a little more serious tone, before returning to his seat without even waiting for an answer from me.

Too late...?

I tilted my head on the side, not understanding what he meant by that. But I didn't think too long about it and continued to eat my lunch eagerly, before the class finally begins.

Actually, Kwangmin and me were accustomed to hear this kind of thing since so long ago that we no longer cared about it. People often said that our love was strange that we seemed more like lovers than brothers, even if in my opinion we didn't cross any serious boundary. I mean, we never did more than a kiss or a hug, and that was just all we needed to be happy. Nonetheless, since we always were like that since the beginning, we never thought about changing our habits, even if we perhaps needed to do something about it.

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Minwoo and I went out after the bell signaled the end of our class, and shortly afterwards, I heard just behind me the voice that I had missed so much all day.

"Youngminie~"

Kwangmin sweetly called me as he hugged me tight from behind, and a smile immediately appeared on my face. I had forgotten in an instant all my previous thoughts which were caused by Minwoo's unpleasant speech, and I just enjoyed the warmth that Kwangmin offered me in no time.

"Brrrr, it gives me chills..." Minwoo grumbled when he saw us being close again.

"Let's go!" Kwangmin said excitedly as he quickly grabbed my hand, and we headed together on the way of our home.

Once arrived home, we started to prepare our dinner. We lived with our parents but they weren't often at home because of their work, so Kwangmin and me were alone most of the time. It was like that since our childhood, and it was probably because of these circumstances that we became very close and accomplices. Well, the fact that we were twins was also one of the reasons. Thus, we did almost everything together, cooking, cleaning, we slept in the same bed almost all the time, and we even took showers together, even when we grew older. Actually, the more I was thinking about us, the more I was wondering to myself if our relationship was just like any other ordinary twin brothers, or if it was something totally different and abnormal. Anyway, it's wasn't that being so close with my brother bothered me, it was exactly the opposite. I just couldn't imagine my life without him always being by my side.

"You can't sleep?"

Kwangmin whispered to me while we were both lying on our queen-sized bed. The tip of our noses touched slightly, as we were in one another's arms. We always liked to sleep like that, it made us feel so secured. I softly shook my head from side to side, not wanting to make him worry. Actually, something bothered me so much that I couldn't even close my eyes to sleep, and it was entirely the fault of the discussion I had with Minwoo this morning. I had the urge to ask him one thing. Well, I just wanted to take my precautions.

"Kwangmin, is there anyone you like?" I asked, biting my lower lip. I don't know why, but I was pretty nervous to ask him this question.

"Of course there is." He said without hesitation, and my heart jumped in a rather unpleasant way.

After taking a deep breath, I dared to ask, "Who is it?"

"It's you, hyung!" He then said with a big smile, and that completely took me by surprise. "Why are you looking so surprised? You know that I love you more than anything." He added with a lower and softer voice, which made my heart beats a bit faster.

"I-I know... But I wanted to know if you loved someone else besides me." I said, thinking he obviously didn't understand that I was talking about something other than just brotherly love.

"Why? There should be someone else?" He asked innocently.

"No!" I replied immediately, without thinking twice. "Well, I mean, uhh... Never mind, goodnight Kwangmin." I said right after and turned around so my back was facing him, because I was now embarrassed to face him.

"Good night my Youngmin." He whispered in my ear while hugging me around the waist from behind. I then noticed that my heart was strangely beating faster than usual, and I was feeling strange on the pit of my stomach. It was a newsensation for me so I finally started to wonder if I was getting sick or something like that.

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"Ahhh.. I'm bored to death.."

Minwoo groaned by boredom, while we were in the middle of our math class. "I can't wait for holidays, I don't think I'll survive if we still have math classes." He said and I chuckled. For my part, what I only thought about was to go home and finally be alone with my dear Kwangmin. There were just one thing, I didn't know why but I was recently feeling a bit different when he was near me and I couldn't describe this feeling at all.

After a while, I wasn't following the lesson anymore, not to say that I wasn't following it from the beginning of the class. I escaped myself by looking at the landscape through the window, as my head was lazily resting on my wrist.

I saw a group of students playing sports outside, football to be exact, and from here I had a complete view on the whole field. I saw to my surprise Kwangmin among them, well, I forgot he had sport classes today. Instead of playing with his team, he was talking to some girl, who seemed to be the kind to be quite popular amongst guys. Curiosity suddenly took over me, and I couldn't help but keep looking outside to observe them, or rather, spy on them. Seeing them a bit away from the other people tickled me a bit. In addition, it was the first time I saw Kwangmin speak so freely and all smiling with another person than Minwoo and me.

I slightly turned my eyes away a second, to be sure that the teacher doesn't catch me daydreaming in his own class, but when I looked at them again, the girl was somehow in Kwangmin's arms. My eyes widened and I abruptly get up from my seat by reflex.

"Youngmin? What's wrong?" I heard Minwoo ask me with a surprised look, and I saw that everyone was looking at me, even the teacher. I properly apologized many times to the teacher and everyone else for the sudden interruption, then sat down again, very embarrassed to have suddenly attracted much attention. I didn't want to recall what I had just seen in my head, nor wanted to look at Kwangmin and that girl again, because the image of the two of them together was making my heart painfully sank and I had lump in my throat.

What's happening to me? I've never felt so bad in my life...

"Hey, are you okay? What happened?" Minwoo asked me with a soft voice, surely not wanting to draw the attention of everyone once again, and I could feel a slight concern in his voice. I forced a smile to reassure him and told him that there was nothing to worry about. He seemed to not believe me since he kept such a worried face but I simply ignored his care.

Once the class finished, I waited for Kwangmin outside the classroom, along with Minwoo. It was rare that Kwangmin doesn't immediately join us after the bell, but I preferred to not over think about it, otherwise I would feel very bad again. Kwangmin then arrived a few minutes later, and we finally get under way.

As we walked, I still couldn't help but wonder who was that girl, and what Kwangmin felt for her. Anyway, maybe it was just an accident. He just caught her because she was suddenly falling, or something like that, and that's all. Or she was surely just a good friend of his, even if they seemed more close than that for me. All kinds of thoughts floated in my head, making me dizzy and feeling heavy-hearted.

"Hyung?"

Kwangmin's voice quickly get me out of my unpleasant thoughts. "Everything's okay? You seem lost in your thoughts ever since we left school." He added, with a quite worried face.

"J-Just a little tired, that's all." I lied, and he suddenly came close to me.

"Hmm..." He looked at me doubtful, and I was suddenly afraid that he sees through me what bothered me. "Well, I guess it's okay if I give your goodnight kiss now?" He teasingly said to my surprise, and I couldn't help but blush at the words, even if I was used to hear him say things like that.

"W-What?!" Minwoo cried next to us, and we therefore remember that he was still beside us. "Uhh, don't pay attention to me. I just forgot that it was normal for you two, to do this kind of thing... But please, just wait that I am no longer there." He added.

"I'm sure you're just jealous! Come here and I'll give you a kiss too, Minwoo!" Kwangmin said while laughing deeply, and he dangerously moved towards Minwoo.

"No!!" Minwoo and I cried exactly at the same time, and that stopped Kwangmin in full swing.

"I was only joking, of course..." Kwangmin said, laughing again. I pouted, rather annoyed by this kind of joke, and began to walk faster to run away from him. "Ah! Hyung, wait for me!" He cried while trying to catch me, until we both finally arrived home.

~~~~ "Minwoo... What's happening to me?"

I asked Minwoo, the next day in class. My head was completely lying on the table, and we were taking a break just before that our math class begins, the part of the day that Minwoo feared and hated the most.

"What do you mean? I'm busy over here..." He said as he was very focused on the math exercises he couldn't finish the day before because he was too annoyed by it.

"Yesterday, I actually saw Kwangmin with a girl." I confessed. "They looked quite.. close.." I continued with a low voice, keeping my eyes fixed on the table. There was then a long silence comparable to the one in the interstellar space.

"Don't tell me... You're jealous?" Minwoo then broke the silence, and I looked up, surprised at his remark. "Well, I guess it was inevitable, anyway. This is normal that one day, Kwangmin will find another person he loves, other than his brother, and that will be the same for you. You two definitely can't continue to be together and have this kind of relationship all your life! " Minwoo said, then returned to his duties as if nothing had happened.

Meanwhile, his words had completely shaken me. They were like knives that planted one by one in my heart. He was right, Kwangmin would eventually find someone he really loves, and I will no longer be the most important person in his eyes. Then we had to separate to live our own and new life. Why had I never thought about this before? It was obviously unavoidable. But... I didn't want that to happen. I simply hated the idea.

Why?

I jumped when my phone suddenly vibrated in my pocket. I had just received a message from the only person who always filled my thoughts, Kwangmin. It was written that he would surely come home late, so I didn't have to wait for him and I had to go ahead with Minwoo.

Is it because he will see this girl?

I shook my head to not think about it again, but of course, I couldn't help but go verify if it was the case. This was making me feel terribly uneasy, so I wanted to know the truth. At the end of the class, I waved to Minwoo that he didn't have to wait for me and he could go home on his own. He hesitated at first, but sighed and walked ahead without arguing with me. There wasn't much people in the hallways so I easily made my way until I reached Kwangmin's classroom, and once in front of the door, I heard the voice of a girl.

"You know... I love you, Kwangmin."