Am I Too Late? (1/1)

Chapter 18:Am I Too Late?JENNIE Hugging Lisa for the first time in years made my knees weak. I missed her so much but the moment she wrapped me in her arms, I missed her even more. She thought she is never going to see me again. Did she wait for me? She probably stopped waiting if she thought she was never going to see me again. I felt her hug me even tighter and I didn’t want that moment to end.  She asked me If I’m back for good. I truly want to. I want to be with her again after all, That’s the whole point of me being here anyway. I finally saw the opportunity to come back but It might have been a little too late for me. I knew what I saw earlier. Lisa was holding Jisoo’s hand. Jisoo lets go when she saw me for the first time. What else could it be?  I couldn’t be mad, I was gone for a while. I didn’t expect her to wait for me but I also didn’t expect that they’d have a thing. Of all the people, It had to be my best friend. The two people that helped me out ended up dating and I’m actually the one who brought them together. Funny how life works isn’t it? When I asked her if I was too late, she couldn’t give me a straight answer and I knew. I knew then that I was in fact too late. I wish I returned sooner. Would that make things different? I asked her if she loves her and she said she doesn’t know but she said another thing. She told me she loves me. That’s the first time I’ve heard her say it. Not even when we were together two years ago and not even in the letter she sent me. This is the first time I’m hearing it and I was supposed to feel happy about that but I don’t. I felt pain in those words. She told me she loves me but she’s already with someone else. How could I tell her I love her back? Did I come back here to disrupt their happy lives? Come to think of it, I might really be the bringer of destruction. I never did anything good to either of them. The moment they met me, it had been problems after problems and I realized one thing. It’s not fair for me to just come back here and expect things to be the way they were two years ago. I don’t expect them to put their lives on hold just so I can live mine freely and come back when I’m ready. That was selfish, so selfish that I felt so nauseous about the things that were happening.  *Listen to this while reading this part.*Goodbye - Carlie Hanson (CLICK HERE) I’ve lost Lisa. I should have seen that coming but I was too focused on my life and coming back here thinking she’d stay the same after all those years. I changed a lot, why did I think she wouldn’t? Seeing her run this company is already one of those things that changed. She was so carefree back then but right now, the woman standing in front of me looks elegant and authoritative all over. She looks like someone you don’t want to dare mess but as soon as we got in her office, that changed. And I felt hope that maybe there’s a chance but that was a little too good to be true. She loves me but she’s already with someone else. “When did it start?” I asked her. “A week ago.” She said as she looked down on her feet like a child that did something wrong. I suddenly realized she’s still that same girl I met two years ago. She may have changed her hair, the clothes that she wear and the aura that she projects, but, she’s still the same. However, her heart did. I can’t blame her either. I left to live my life on my own. I probably hurt her too that’s for sure and yet, she changed her life for me so that I can live my life without worrying and here I am, still expecting so much from her. She’s still the same person but she changed her life completely for me and I’m fucking selfish.  “Does she make you happy?” I asked her. “Yes.” She answered and that hurt me even more.  I felt defeated and I should have seen it coming. I really should have.  I broke the hug we were in and held both of her hands. “I came back here thinking everything would be the same between you and I, that was selfish I have to admit I didn’t think you’d find someone else but If you’re happy with her, I can’t take that away from you just because I came back.” I said as I wipe my tears.  “I can’t lose you again.” Lisa told me as she pulled me back in towards her arms. “You never lost me in the first place, It’s you whom I’ve lost.” I said as I tried my best not to cry again. I felt a lump in my throat as I was about to say something I knew was going to be harder and I didn’t imagine I’d say it when I came back here. I cleared my throat as I gathered the courage to say the words.  “We might not be able to go back to how things were before but we can move forward. I’ll stay even if that means I only get to be your friend. I still haven’t thanked you for everything that you did for me. I want you to know that I’ve experienced many things, I went through a lot out tough times and almost gave up when I thought my life was going nowhere. God knows how many times I wanted to come back home and be with you but I didn’t want to disappoint you. After all, you’ve sacrificed so much for me and I didn’t want to put it to waste.” I said as my voice cracked and found myself crying again.  “I’m so sorry I took too long, I should have tried harder.” I said as she runs her fingers through my hair and cups my cheeks as she wipes my tears with her thumbs. “It’s not your fault, none of it were.” She said. “So don’t blame yourself. I’m proud that you’ve reached this far, I knew you could do it, please don’t give up, I k