how to tell? (1/1)

If love was easy to be spoken of Hae Won did not share the same thoughts as she couldn't seem to utter the words out loud for jiyong.  And jiyong, he's waiting silently. How can in such a short time she could understand him bit by bit. the way he frown, the way he smiles, how his eyes show his thoughts, how his lips pursed in distress, little by little she pick those little languages and signs of his and learn more.  The room was dark and she turn slightly to face jiyong who was sleeping next to her. He has girly eyelashes and his lips pursed slightly. Hae Won smiled, a warm feeling spreading through her chest. How to tell? How to tell?  Turning, Hae Won looked at the ceiling, her heartbeat increasing. How to tell? How to tell? Why cant jiyong just starts first?. He's so good in it but seem like this is her call. Yesterday's incident in the changing room flashed behind her eyes. 'its the wife's fault, who asked her to leave him for 9 years, who the hell will do that' 'who knew jiyong is married for 9 years when he's like one of the biggest playboy in Seoul, I pity the wife, damn stupid' he's going to leave her soon, that's for sure' he's going to leave her soon, that's for sure' he's going to leave her soon, that's for sure' Hae Won scratches her cheeks slightly, a frown stuck and her lips pursed. don't think about it Hae Won. Jiyong would never do that, would he?   This marriage will work. It will work. They'll make it work. Hae Won didn't ask jiyong more about his ex-lover because it was too painful to think of.Why have they not reached that stage yet? Truthfully she don't dare to ask because she's too afraid if this newly build relationship will crumble on the ground. sigh. soon. she can't force things.How to tell? How to tell? she started to fell tears at the back of her eyes but Hae Won fought them. This is not the time to cry. Jiyong don't need a sissy wife and since when she's a sissy anyways.She nearly died in Thailand 2 years ogo when her jeep was involved in an accident. The memories send shivers down her spine. It was when she met Min Ki. He saved her. An image of a handsome volunteer doctor in white lab coat flashed and Hae Won erased it immediately. She should not think about him. She has Jiyong now. Hae Won blinked her eyes. She's here now and she needs to make this work. Jiyong is her husband and she loves him but he won't know unless she tells.Hae Won gulped and sighed. How to tell? aish this is too much of a big problem. She rather peform an open heart surgery to patients rather than think about this.  Her frequent movement woke jiyong up.  ===Jiyong roused slowly and looked at his wife watching the ceiling. What must she be thinking? Is she thinking about yesterday's incident?. Damn Sun Hee. Damn her, Jiyong felt like someone gripped his heart at the thoughts of how Hae Won must feel hurt. He can't change the past. He was quite a jerk back than. A bit heartless when it comes to relationships but now aish who ever could explain this feeling. he's screwed cause all he knows is he loves his little wife and he needs to make this thing work with her because since she came back it has been amazing and he can't imagine life withot her in it anymore. 'Baby' He whispered playing with her hair. Hae Won was startled and turned to face him 'ji..sorry, did I wake you up?' Hae Won whispered 'are you ok hun?, you seem worried' Hae Won took his hand and play with his fingers 'I am worried' Hae Won trying to find courage to tell him. 'about yesterday?' 'that and something else' 'tell me' 'yesterday, she said you would leave me and go back to her' Jiyong was silent for a while and Hae Won bit her lip 'I won't' Jiyong sounded sure, his eyes turning dark as he clutch her fingers slowly. like making a promise. asking her to believe.Hae Won gulped finding courage but her voice shook when she asked 'who is she?'Jiyong's eyes flickered and he moved closer to Hae Won, hugging her 'just an ex, nothing more, you're here now, I won't stray, that's my vow baby, could you trust me?' Jiyong's said horaesly. Truthfully jiyong was scared to death if she would say no and leave. But her nod changed that thought. 'what else is worrying you?' he asked kissing her forehead. 'I need to tell you something' 'ok' jiyong said a bit nervous. 'I..I..I..''Baby, you?' Hae Won now had her head buried on his chest. What is it that she wants to tell? Hae Won touched his chest 'your heart beat is fast' she whispered, not looking at him. 'yea, you do that to me love' he urged her to look at him, tipping her face a little'what is it' he asked. could she be pregnant? that's to early to tell Jiyong thought. Although he wouldn't mind that.'you're not telling so I should tell' Hae won said 'tell what love? love you're making me nervous, It's not good for my heart' Jiyong chuckled silence lurked for a few seconds and Jiyong gave her time although he felt like dying.'I love you' she whispered slowly, her voice nervous as she tried to see what was his reaction. Jiyong closed his eyes and Hae Won thought he was displease. She felt cold and ripped, ashamed and fighthing tears she tried to pull away from jiyong.jiyong stopped her and rolled above her. His eyes were piercing into hers 'thank God love, Oh my God, How I love you Baby' he kissed her forehead, his breath heavy. Hae Won felt a tear slipped and jiyong lifted his face a little 'Don't cry, is loving me that bad?'Hae Won shook her head 'just scary' she whispered. 'Don't, you have me now'    :o so deep :0  *sniffs* o.o I lost 2 subscribers T.T I feel so discouraged :< it did stomp my spirits a bit then I thought I still have readers that wait patiently for my updates. this explains the emo chapter today. I feel emo today. hohohand my friend sprained her knee o.o because she was busy looking at trees 0.0 hehe, she's so funny. now that the pain is gone, we can't stop laughing :Dbut do not worry. I'm back in the game. will try to update more. MIN KI? who is he???????? jeng jeng jeng 0.0 OMO OMO