Skies (1/1)

*** Jaejoong doesn't feel like doing anything. He lies in the bed most of the days and just stares at one spot. He doesn't want to eat although he still drags himself out of the bed when Yunho makes him. He chews the rice dutifully without any real taste to it and drinks the juice. He lets the alpha wash him, dress him, drag him out for walks. He lets him kiss him, caress him and love him during the nights. Yunho is a real sweetheart, worshiping him every single day, but Jaejoong feels like a part of him has died and he cannot get it back. He doesn’t know how to forgive Heechul. Somehow he had imagined their babies growing up together, his being a strong alpha girl and Heechul having a cute omega boy. He'd imagined them playing together and becoming sweethearts when they grow up. Somehow he had seen himself sharing his worries and pains with the older omega, seen them giving each other tips in raising their pups, and complaining about their mates. But then he remembers that Changmin is not Heechul's mate and there is no baby in his tummy anymore and it makes him tear up all over.He doesn't cry anymore, he's out of tears for that even though Yunho keeps him well hydrated. He knows he should stop moping, should stop worrying his poor alpha but he can't help it. His life was turning out to be perfect and Heechul had to go and destroy it all. At times he feels angry and thinks that he should get rid of his baby as well, but then his eyes widen in horror, heart stopping in cold fear at the thought, and he curses himself for ever considering something stupid like that. 'It's been a week, Jae, aren't you tired of your self-pity?' Heechul asks him when he comes over but Jaejoong refuses to listen. He glares at Yunho who looks at him apologetically, and hates the alpha for inviting the stupid omega to his apartment. 'Go away, I don't want to see you,' he groans, hands fisting at his sides. Heechul rolls his eyes and gets up, glaring right back at him. 'It was never your baby, Jaejoong, it was mine. It was my choice to keep it or not as it's my body. If you cannot grasp the simple concept of choice, that's your fault. But this sulking of yours is not going to help anyone. It's not going to change a thing so suck it up and stop acting like the victim here.' Heechul leaves and Jaejoong feels victorious for a moment but only until he hears the door slamming closed and then the tears come. He cries, clinging to his alpha, bawling his eyes out. He kisses Yunho, holds him close, snuggles to him like he's the last straw of his sanity, until he finally falls asleep curled up in his arms safe and sound. Finally, Jaejoong decides he needs to go to Heechul and apologize for his behavior. But he can't force himself to do it. Instead, he spends the time lying in his bed and staring at the wall. 'Jae, do you want to eat something?''No.’Yunho lets out a sad sigh.'Do you want to go out?''No.''Watch some TV?''No.''Meet Junsu?''No.'Yunho crawls on the bed, taking him in his arms and shaking him lightly. 'Are you going to mope forever?'Jaejoong looks back at the alpha, the 'no' already forming on his lips, but then he stops himself, narrows his eyes and says 'yes' instead. He's not that stupid. 'Ah, Jae, please stop. It hurts me to see you like this. You're such a wonderfully stubborn beta, why do you care about what some stupid omega did?''Because,' Jaejoong whines, trying to free himself from the other's grasp but gives up right after, 'It's not about Heechul.' He rests in the alpha's arms, head laid on his strong chest. 'It's not about him at all or-' and he hold a hand in front of Yunho's mouth. 'Shut up. Ok, yes, it is a bit about him as well but it's not only about him.'Yunho looks at his mate curiously, tilting his head, and Jaejoong thinks it's so cute he cannot help a smile. 'So what is it about?''Well-'It's hard to explain. Jaejoong knows he has to try to make Yunho understand. He lets out a long breath and readies his heart. 'It's that my mom- well, my ‘real’ mom gave me up for adoption when I was just a baby. I grew up in a foster family and, well-' he looks down at his hands, finding it hard to continue. He's determined to do it as Yunho deserves to know. 'Betas. All of them. My foster family were betas only and I, well, I - uh, thought of myself as one as well. That why I don't know much about who I am or anything about my past. I don't really know much about alphas or omegas. Even though my family was very supportive, they had quite the stereotypical views on what an alpha or an omega is so- uh... ' he shrugs, realizing that he's babbling now. 'But anyway, what I’m saying is that if my mom had decided to abort the baby instead of giving it up for adoption, there wouldn't be me. And then, well, then maybe there wouldn't be a mate for you as well. And- uh, what if Heechul's baby was my baby's mate and now he will grow up unhappy and scarred? What if he will not find true love and happiness, an amazing person like I found in you, because his mate will have been-'Yunho hugs him close, kissing him and swiping the tears away. Jaejoong didn't even realize he was crying.'Joongie, why are you thinking such nonsense? For the love of God, why are you torturing yourself with such crazy thoughts?' and he kisses him over and over again until they both are breathless. He pushes the beta away, keeping him at arm's length, looking ready to reprimand the other like a small child.  'Maybe it's because of your upbringing or maybe it's because you're crazy but there's no such thing as ‘one true mate’, Jae. You've been reading way too many novels and watching too many romcoms. That stupid mating bond that you seem to fawn over and that binding ritual to make the supposedly everlasting bond? My mom calls it romanticized bullshit. We're long past that, Jae. Sure there are some alphas and omegas who feel drawn to each other from the first sight, I sure felt that with you, but most alphas and omegas get together just like Yoochun and Junsu did. Was it love at first sight? No. Are they true mates? I highly doubt that, Jae. But does that really matter? No, it doesn’t,’ and Yunho smiles, cleaning up the rema