Remember - Do you see the (1/1)

You don’t know how long you lied their at the dusty grey garret floor. You really don’t want to believe this all. But if it was real…There was only one who could proof this!You grabbed the picture and even if you were trembling you rushed down the stairs, outside. Right now you noticed it was already dark and raining like hell too but it didn’t matter you. You needed answers. Right now!You ran through the lonely night, tried to understand how Jongin felt the whole time….The picture you pressed on your chest so it would not being destroyed by the rain but it kinda burned on your skin.Even if it’s all true…he was protecting me all the time!You closed your eyes and saw Jongin clearer then ever. In every situation you thought he acted strange…wasn’t strange to you anymore.The first time he looked at me… totally painful eyes who looked at me.Betrayer! Promise breaker! Do you see the forgotten’s lacerated heart now, Lillybe?What more wanted those eyes say you?But why did he tried to be friend with me anyway? He was always there for you. He didn’t deserve you - hiding from the truth. The littlest thing you can do is to tell him your part of the truth. And apologize. For forgetting him.Rain-drenched and with your heart racing that it may burst your chest in every single part you  stopped in front of the dorm.Your lungs were screaming for air and your head killed you right now.What should I even say to him?! You leaned your forehead against the wall, thinking about the right words. You saw water drops dripping down from your hair and you felt like your time’s up - drip drop - with every more drop on the floor. You pushed the bell. “Annyeonghaseyo?” – It was Luhan.You tried to race your voice and sounded confident. But not a single sound came out. Nothing. You throat was cored up. Your lips were shaking and unable to bring the words out.“Annyeong?”Y: *sob* …. Jongin!L: Lilly is this you?The door opened and you tried to find your way to the elevator. Pushing the bottom and cuddle yourself in the corner because everything around was getting dark again. You sink down, hugged your legs and laid your head on it. You shivered but not of the rain but of being afraid. You pressed the picture even harder against you. Mom I miss you so…where are you now? I need you.You closed your eyes. The move of the elevator made you felt like…flying…or driving…It was a rainy Sunday evening then. Your Mom and you were on your way home.“This rain is amazing today!”“It’s dangerous. You should drive slower mom.”“I do. But I want to surprise dad. I said we wouldn’t be home before six”“Your lovey-dovey…even after years! How do you guys work that out?”She smiled.“I don’t know. But it just get perfect since you were there, Lilly”She smiled at you and patted your headNext moment flashing lights were blinding you. All you heard were screams. From you. From your mom. Crash. Pain. World turned black.Flashing lights were blinding you. A car again? You woke up in a hospital. Massive headache. You screamed. The pain was uncontrollable. WHAT HAPPENED?Everything black again.You heard your dad crying.“We tried everything we could, I’m sorry”… Don’t say it. Don’t say it. I beg you. Don’t say it“Your wife passed away.”Why did some stupid bastard drive on the wrong side of the street. Why did you survive? Not your mom? Why lost your memory and hurting now Jongin?You were shaking in pain. You were shaking really hard. No. It wasn’t you who shake’s your body. Someone was shaking you. You looked up. You couldn’t see because of crying.But you heard some familiar voices.K: She doesn’t even listen.L: She’s just out of this world.J: Common wake up. Lilly hey! What’s wrong?S: Someone call the doctor!J: *yell* THIS IS NO JOKE!S: I wasn’t even joking.You try to focus.  You can see Jongin near you. He was the one shaking you. And maybe Luhan, Sehun and Kyungso were next to Jongin.You try to say something.

Y: J-J-J… *shiver*J: Okay Lilly we’re here to help okay?C: We should take her to our room. Maybe she need some time.L: Shouldn’t we bring her to the hospital?Y: *shake your head to no* A-an..n..iJ: Okay. I’m here, alright?You felt like flying again. But maybe it was just Jongin who lifted you up carried you on his arms inside the dorm.Y: Mianhae…J: It’s okay.  Chanyeol, go and bring some towels please. She’s soaked wet. *to you* Why did you come here while it’s raining outside? You will get sick, Lilly.Y: *pressed the pic against your chest*  Nothing is okay. Nothing. I lost everything. Everything, Jongin!L: What even is she talking about?J: *lay you down on the sofa* I don’t know. *carefully sit to you* Why are you here?C: *with Sehun run by with a tons of towels* Quick before she’ll get sick!

*wrap you in towels*Y: I…*look down* have to talk to you. Alone. *look pleased to the others*K: No problem. I’m going to make tea. We leave you alone here.*everybody leaves*As you looked at him you saw he was nervously looking at you, waiting that you will start. But how?Y: You know…my first day at school…you were watching me all the time, remember?  And I didn’t know why you did this.J: *gulp* I don’t know what you mean.Y: *harsh* Don’t lie to me, Jongin. Why are you doing this? I mean…what did you wanted to ask this day…in the corridor. *calm down* You looked so serious back this day and after all you were…acting strange all the time.J: *take your hand* Lilly. Please forget this. It was nothing.Y: *jump up* Ani! I know who you are, Kim Jongin!*step away* I know it right now and now you’re saying me to forget it again?J: *shocked* A-gain?Y: *tears flow down* Forget everything? Forget you? Forget everything about us? Forget we were the closest friends back in childhood, and at least forget I promised you I will never leave you but did it instead? Forget how I probably broke your heart and…*voice cracked* and…I left…*break down holding your head* I left you.You didn’t saw what Jongin did right now. He was freeze standing there and looked at you extremely shocked.Y: Please hate me Jongin! I don’t deserve any other. I want to apologize but I can’t. No apologize would be near good enough to excuse what I did. *yell* Please hate me!Seconds went by. Minutes too. Nothing happened. As you calmed down a little you raised your head and Jongin felt on his knees right in front of you, silent tears went down his beautiful face which was covered in pain.Y: *whisper* jebal… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Helloo my dearest :3I'm sorry to tell you I will be without internet next week q.q huuuh~Have a nice week, enjoy chapter 20 (gosh...never thought of coming so far o.o') and let me hear some from you ♥Excited to come back in a week <3 ♥Saranghaeyo♥