2 Revelations of the day (1/1)

Kyuhyun’s POV “Are you sure about this?” The others looked at me with worried eyes. “Yes,” I told them as I looked out the window. It was a sunny day, just like the previous few days since I was awake. Difference is Mi Mi had woken up and I had decided to let her free. “She’s going to come back you know. Are you going to be strong enough for that?” He looked at me with a questioning look. “I will be even if I’m not,” I simple said before lying on the bed. “I want to get some rest. You guys should go now,” I said to the group as I pretended to close my eyes. I heard their shoes shuffling and then went that click that tells me that they’re really gone from the room. I opened one eyes slowly, just to make sure, only to see Heechul in front of me. “I knew it,” He said as he leaned on the wall behind him. “Why do you do this if it hurts you that bad?” He asked as he pointed to the drop of tear that had fallen off my eyes. I quickly wiped it away and stood beside him. “Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d think I’m going to be happy only if she is? That I am going to give up anything in this world just to make her smile and laugh again?” I asked him before seeing him nod slowly. “Well, for me it’s her. She’s the one I want to give all the happiness in the world for, even if it means I have to sacrifice mine,” I told him as the tears betrayed me once again. “You may think that but this is not the way to do it. You’re hurting her, not making her happy,” Heechul then said as his voice got louder.

“It’s only temporary. It’s going to go away soon. She has Junhyung,” I rebutted as I gave him a glare, making it known to him that I, too, am hurting right now. “I don’t know about this, but I’m sure of one thing. You’re not trying to solve this. You’re just running away because you’re scared and scared of what? I’m not pretty sure myself but this is pathetic. Pretending to lose your memories? Seriously? This is not some soap opera. Get a grip of yourself and live in reality, Kyu because right now, you’re just straight up pitiful,” Heechul said before walking out of the door before slamming it right behind him. I let my body fall to ground right after. I’ve never looked at it that way. All I wanted was to see her happy and I could tell she wasn’t near happy at all when she was with me. I am protective and possessive of her, so much so that it irks me as much it irks her, though she never really say it to my face. I know that she hated me being like that. She hated it when I ask about every single thing she’s done or will be doing just because of me being insecure. Just because I was scared of losing her. I guess she knew that the fear of losing her was the one that motivated the actions of mine, but I couldn’t help it. I cannot let myself not be protective and possessive when the person who’s potentially in love with her is right there beside her apartment. The internal conflict that I have every single time I saw her is too overwhelming, sometimes I hate myself for that. I knew something like this was going to happen. I knew that like Min Min, Mi Mi would find love and that love would not be directed to me. I had somehow knew that it was going to be him but that didn’t mean that I was prepared to see it like how I did a few nights ago. I placed my fist above my chest as I tried so hard to suppress the pain that was taking over but I can’t as the scene replays itself over and over again in my head. So I’ve decided that I will let her free. I’m going to make her believe that I’ve forgotten everything about her so that she could start with him. Maybe then, I could find satisfaction in myself, for finally letting her be free to be with whomever she chooses to be with, as long as it’s not me. I spend a lot of time, sitting down on that floor. Letting the tears I’ve held flow out freely when I finally realized what Heechul means. I was indeed running away. I was making the decision that was supposed to be hers. I was trying to run away from the rejection that I knew was coming.  The voices in my head then started rambling and chatterings into random loud evil laughs, Heechul’s voice, Mi Mi’s voice and her face. Everything was just going on at the same time. I grabbed some of the hair on my head as I tried to make it stop but the throbbing pain won’t go away, instead it got stronger and stronger. Then slowly, my eyes fluttered and close gently as I felt gravity pulled my whole body to the ground as darkness took over my vision.   Junhyung’s POV I couldn’t believe my ears when I heard the conversation that Heechul and Kyuhyun were having. I had initially wanted to come to the room to meet Heechul to tell him that I won’t be coming over to weekly group meeting with Hongki and the others so that I could take care of Mi Mi. After hearing this, I just didn’t know how to react. I was standing there frozen when suddenly the door opened and revealed Heechul with an irritated face before he slammed the hospital door close. It took a moment of him to realize that I was there, but when he did, he simply pulled me away from the room and took me to the hospital rooftop park. “What did you hear?” He asked, his voice still laced with annoyance. “Everything,” I said as he glared at me hard. “Why didn’t you tell me about this?” I asked him, almost in an interrogating tone. “Because it’s not in my position but I can tell you this. Keep everything you heard today to yourself. No one else should know except for the suju members and you. So if she gets to know about this, I’ll place the blame on you,” He said as he pointed his index finger towards me. “I don’t get it. Why are you so mad?” I asked Heechul after a while. He looked at me before looking away, looking at the sight in front of him as he placed his hands on the railing. “Because Mi Mi…. she’s my ex-girlfriend,” He said quickly before making his way out of the area while I stayed there shocked, frozen for the second time today. It’s too much to handle for me. First, I got to know that they guy I thought to have lost his memory did not lose his memory but instead pretended that he did, so that Mi Mi could make her own choice. Second, Heechul’s was Mi Mi’s ex boyfriend?I took a deep breath as I tried to digest everything that was before me. Everything’s in a mess right now. And I don’t know where to start to clear it all up.