Starting Again~ (1/1)

~*~Through the hectic process in the airport (and the long wait at the lobby), we were finally settled in our seats. It was going to be a long way back home.Home?I don't know if I could call it home...it feels strange. I haven't been there in years.To tell myself that I don't care would be a complete lie, but I also can't explain what I feel. It's a mixture of anxiety and excitement; it's just too overwhelming for me. But like always, I won't show it. I have never been good at expressing myself, I was never flexible with the idea of letting myself out without a care.I have never had close friends since I left Korea, which was when I was just 12. Of course, I had friends but they were just friends. And anyway, I was the happiest when in my room alone, filled with thoughts, and fantasies of my own.I have realised myself that I have changed. I have started changing since I left Korea along with my childhood, and my grandparents, my first ever pet, and my best friend.My best friend, Ailee.She was older than me, just by a year though. We were more like sisters, we shared everything, laughed together, get yelled at together, we did everything together! Those were also the days I was the happiest; with my best friend, in the past.I wonder where is she now? How is she doing? What she looks like? Does she even remember me, or will I even recognise her?I was the one who casted away. I don't know why, but I had stopped talking to her after a year since we moved. And her being her, didn't stop bothering me and told me that she will always wait. But maybe she got tried, tried of waiting; and knowing how persistent I was (and still am), maybe she gave up.If I (ever) meet her, the first thing I would say is, sorry.Sorry for neglecting you, sorry for not keeping the promise. Sorry for being me. Sometimes I doubt myself, if even I, myself have ever liked me. So maybe it's time a change- but I hate changes. Nothing really agrees with me, why am I so difficult?!But I will try! For the better me, and for maybe everyone around me. Until now, I have noticed no one is fond of me, and even my parents have to go through hell because of me. I know how they have to put up with my whining and moaning, and complaints and just simply me, but even through all this, I cannot bring myself to change. BUT NOT ANYMORE! Kwon Yuri will be changing for the better!Maybe this is my chance to do so; to start afresh by simply moving to a whole new place (not really as I was born there, and had lived there for almost 12 years but, eh. You know what I mean).I shall seize this opportunity. I had no idea that through all this my emotions had been reflecting on my face until my mom, who had been eyeing me suspiciously, tapped my shoulder. "Umm...Are you...alright?""Of course!" I chirped.Chirped?I instantly cleared my throat, "Err, yeah. I'm fine.""Whatever you say." Then she went back to watching her movie. I checked the time in the small screen in front of me; 6 more hours to go.This is it.6 hours later, I will be starting afresh; I will be starting again.    Annyeong, co-author here! keke ^^ ¬¬ Umm...I don't know what to say about this chapter- it's gives out a gloomy aura~ And it's boring =.=' But this is just to let you know a bit more about Yuri.So I hope you will still stick around (don't leave us!) We don't know when the next update will be~~~ We are waiting too, for our brains to function and our procrastinator selves to go away~ ~~Okay! Byebye! (o^^)oPyong~