[M] Obsession (1/1)

Obsession.------------------------a/n: M for Violence and Mild Green! (really mild like super mild! lol)------------------------I sat in the corner of my sealed, locked room watching her body on my bed, lifeless yet her beauty still remains. Her body stiff as a board and still as the concrete wall. What have I done? What did I do to deserve this?I asked her to understand me, that this is my obsession. This is the real GD she is seeing, and she was my obsession.Sandara ParkIsMyOBSESSION.----[Flashback 3 Months Ago] After disappearing for many years, I thought my obsession on her would disappear. I said goodbye to her after 1st year high school knowing it is for the best.I didn’t realize that the feelings inside me were something more. More that I chose to move far until it became an obsession.We started as friends back in elementary school, as she was just my simple playmate. And as we grew up together the more I got to know her. And little did I know she’s becoming more than just a friend to me.The way she’d smile, it’d be my strength, my vitamin, and my everyday need. My once thought of simple admiration for her beauty and grace had become into something simple called crush back then. Until the end of middle school towards high school, where boys started to crowd over her, trying to gain her attention.I felt defeated, yet I didn’t show it to her since being beside her was enough for me.Or at least that’s what I tell myself numerous times. But once she found someone, the more I felt jealous and greed slowly creeps inside me. But I held it in after all I didn’t want to lose her.And that was also the time; I chose to leave for the sake my growing insanity inside me.However when I thought moving far from her was the best idea, my obsession had only gone worst.My art had become solely for her. That all I could draw and paint was her face and how I would envision her figure as time passes by.My room had become nothing but a gallery of her beauty.And that’s when I chose to return to her and I am glad I did.The smile on her lips appeared and she welcomed me with open arms.Her warm embrace and the endearment “GD dear,” would echo in my head like a spell luring me into something deeper. She had fully grown into such gorgeous goddess as if she was sent down from the heavens.And this is the part of me where my obsession got stronger that little did I know, I never wanted her to leave my side.Everyday, I’d meet her and she’ll welcome me with the smiles I’d accept fully. Even when we’re not together, I remain by her side, hidden from her vision and with my camera.Capturing her beauty everywhere she’d go and even in her sleep.Creepy, if someone would know this.But what can I do?This is my obsession.She’s my obsession.She’d ask me if she could come over to my place.ButI’d say no.No she can never see my living space.She’d find me creepy and there she’d runaway.I can’t afford her to curse me and leave me. It’ll be the end of my life and so I locked all the windows in my apartment paranoid that she'll come out of nowhere to surprise me. I had draped each window with dark curtains not letting a glimpse of light from the outside seep in. Doors have multiple locks hoping no one can intrude when I'm asleep or gone.No one, even Sandara can enter my sanctuary.If I don’t see her all day, I’d be in my room all day and night watching her since every corner of my room has nothing but her face, body and everything else I have captured.A man with needs would stare at this beauty and having glimpse of her flawless body is enough to pleasure a man like me for a day and even at night.-Help.I need help, I need her help, but I can’t afford to lose her.Not now, now that we’re much closer.All I can do is wish to hold her once, and be her lover even for just a moment. I prayed, yes I prayed out of nowhere to be in that spot.However,She found someone else again.But instead of running away, I stuck by her side. I’d watch her and this guy together being happy as others say. They get compliments about looking good together, while deep inside my heart is breaking slowly, but my anger and greed started to build in. I wanted to capture her and keep her at my side to shower her with love and protect her.NoI was not the chosen one.I sucked in all my pride, I kept seeing her as a friend which I hated the most but since her presence is all I need I went through with it all.HoweverThat night, when you came to me crying telling me how this guy hurt you and made you cry. Anger rose inside me and I had to do what I needed to do.I taught the guy a lesson.I gave you the happiness you needed and deserve.“GD!” she shrieked behind me as she found me in the abandoned warehouse near my place. My hands were tainted with his blood with a knife in my hand. My face turned from a grim to stunned seeing what I have done.I slowly turned around and there I found her horrified seeing me like this and what I have done. She ran to the lifeless body crying.“No,” I muttered lowly. “Don’t cry…” I chanted those words and hearing her cry, tears started to trickle down from my eyes. Why? Why are there tears in my eyes? Please wipe it for me. I looked at her and she’s looking at me with tears in her eyes. “Please don’t cry. I did this for you…”“You’re crazy!” she looked at me scared and it was just like my nightmare I kept having. She was looking at me scared and escaping... it's all I could remember after.I gripped tightly on the knife on my hand as she looked at me like that.“Dara don’t,” I whispered scared that she’ll leave me and run.“You are crazy GD!” she shouted and slowly she got up on her feet. She grabbed her phone shakily trying to dial a number. “You need help!”“No,” I shook my head and quickly rushed towards her grabbing her phone tossing it hard on the floor. It broke into pieces alerting her. Was that fear I saw in her eyes?“Don’t come closer to me!” she moved back while I moved forward hoping to hold her. I want to comfort her. “Don’t come close!”“I did this for you Dara,” I said gently hoping to ease her fear. “This is all for you.”“No…” she shook her head. “I don’t know you!”“I love you Dara,” I smiled at her and was that fear I saw in her eyes? “I’m willing to do anything for you even this. I did this for you.”“No!” she moved back again until she had nowhere to go. And slowly a smirk crept in my lips.“Let’s go home,” I softly murmured. “I shall show you our home Jagiya.”This was my chance, the greed inside me had won this time. The chance I have been waiting for.“No!” she tried to move ahead of me, but I caught her on time. I gripped tightly on her wrist not letting her get away.“YOU’RE MINE!” I yelled through my gritted teeth. She’s trying to escape like the ones I had in my nightmare. “YOU ARE MINE!”“I hate you!” she yelled at me. “I FUCKING HATE YOU! I DON’T KNOW YOU ANYMORE!”“Oh Dara,” I slowly lifted the knife, running it lightly on her cheek down to her jaw line. “Of course you know me, I’m GD, your GD dear.”“NO!” she tried moving her head away, but with my other hand I held her head still.“You.Are.Mine.” I uttered. “Now, let’s go home.”Once we made it in our home, her face fell surprise at it and no words escaped from her mouth at first.“Do you like our place Dara-ya?” I asked showing her each corner of our home with her beauty on it. I looked at her and she was tense at first and slowly she looked at me with disgust.“You’re a freak!” she spat making me laugh.“No, Dara,” I glanced at our place proudly. “These are all masterpieces that I dedicated to you.”“Please GD,” she pleaded and this was what I am scared of. Her pleading voice I heard in my nightmare.“Please what?” I asked looking at her lovingly.“Let’s get you help,” she insisted. “Let me help you get better. What happened to Seung Hyun we can forget it. I won’t tell the authority about it, but please let me get you help.”“The only help I need is you Dara,” I walked towards her, but she moved to the other side. I wickedly smiled seeing she wanted to play. “Come on Dara,” I slowly unbuttoned my blood tainted, long sleeves polo. “I see, yeobo wants to play.”“Don’t come closer to me!” she went to one corner and as I got closer she moved to the other side.“Why not?” I kept walking towards her letting her run to any corners of our house. “There’s no way you can escape now Jagiya…”“Please GD!” That begging again irks me. And losing my patience, I ran towards her ignoring her screams.“No one can hear us baby,” I caught her on time. I pulled her closer to me, but she tried to struggle free. Tears, they’re trickling down her flushed cheeks again. “You have all of me Dara, and you’re the only one I need. Let’s start having a family.”“NO!” she spat at me which made me laugh. [Mild X Minors OFF Limits Please!]“I like that…dirty foreplays,” I slowly wiped her saliva off my face and seeing her stunned I crashed my lips on hers. Ignoring her loud cries as I forcefully and eagerly shove my tongue inside her warm cavern tasting her, and just as I expected she’s such sweet delight.I locked her hands with my other hand and using my knee I kicked her hard on her stomach weakening her as she tried to struggle free from me. I caught her on time and still I devour lips and face not bothered with what I just did since all I can feel is the devil in me.There I dragged her in our awaiting love nest where more photos, drawings and paintings of her where hung and spread across the wall.From her extraordinary beauty to her naked body I took secretly in her own private home.I saw fear flash across her eyes and even disgust upon seeing our living space.“All for you baby,” I said laying her on our bed. I took the knife from the back pocket of my pants making her gasp but no words escaped her precious lips.“Shall we start?” I whispered as I lifted the knife starting from her flawless face. Slowly and lightly pressing it on her skin as I move it lower towards her neck, and I can tell she’s nervous as her chest heaves up and down heavily.Once I passed her neck, I glided it towards the middle of her chest putting more pressure as it runs through her pastel pink, ruffled blouse tearing through each button tenderly.“Please,” she finally spoke but it came out raspy and tired.“Please what?” I cooed as I kept on going. And as I got through the middle, it slightly opened allowing me to see her matching white lace bra and that skin I have longed to touch and taste.Just when she tried to free herself, I held her hands captured with my free hand pinning it up on the top of her head while my legs locked hers spreading them apart on the mattress. I looked down at her first and then at the opening of her blouse.My member beneath my pants shifted in discomfort as I could finally see her body up close and the growing needs inside my body increased.“As I expected,” I whispered seeing her perfect toned abdomen and small yet perky covered breast. “Such beautiful sight only for my eyes.”“No…” I heard her weep but everything was blocked from my surroundings and all I could think of is sinking myself inside her all night long.“Oh yes,” I looked at her filled with desire. “We’ll take this slow and as memorable Sandara…”The knife went lower cutting through her white lace skirt until she was almost naked beneath me. And seeing her body up close as whole I felt more and more needs inside me, I dropped the knife on the side allowing my free hand to touch her.“PLEASE!” she screamed all her lungs out but I could only laugh since no one could hear us.“That’s right,” I looked lustfully into her eyes. “You’ll be screaming for me!”“NO!” she tried to move again and again and wanting her still, I punched her in the stomach making her winch in pain and still just how I want her to be.“I told you to be still baby,” I soothed her tummy. “I don’t want to hurt you, but you keep disobeying me. Just enjoy this!”“YOU CRAZY OBSESS FREAK!” she tried to shout.“Oh yes I am!” I said in a matter of fact tone. “I am CRAZY and OBSESS and that’s all because of you Dara… All for you baby and you’re mine now!”“And yes,” I leaned down near her ear. “I am a freak…FREAK in bed. So be ready for a long wild, freaky, and crazy ride all night, baby.”“NO!” she cried, but pinning her down with my body, I grabbed the band of her underwear tearing it apart in one go. And once her sex was free, I grabbed her lace bra tearing it the same way leaving her naked beneath me.“NO!” she protested, but I didn’t listen. All in my head was her and me making love. “PLEASE NO!”But I ignored her cries and pleas as I kiss her everywhere and savoring the places I have been dying to taste. From her bosoms down to her flat stomach, and I wanted to feel her all.Feeling her slowly draining out of energy, I quickly unbuckled my belt and unbuttoning the button of my jeans letting my shaft sprung free ready as ever for the awaiting moment.And with no warnings, I thrust inside her making her painfully and pleasingly scream which came as music in my ears.Even in her state, of what seems like a lifeless body, I pleasured her as much as I could and in return I felt the same way. Her body and mine are sure a perfect fit like a perfect puzzle.She was everything I need, she was my obsession.[End of X]