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TO [email protected]

Hi Oppa!

How are you?  I hope this message finds you well and that celebrity life isn't treating you too harshly.  Almost 6 years have come and gone since your holiday in France (yes, I've been keeping count!) once this month passes.  I got my friend, Aadila, to listen to K-Pop too, and she loves it as much as I do!  She loves listening to S****J***** (I will not mention that boy band because they are over-rated in my eyes) and BB (this one is over-rated too).  I guess I'm the only one who listens to you; I feel faithful and loyal to SHINee because everyone still listens to American Pop; don't worry, K-Pop will soon take over the world.

Is it weird that I e-mail you, not all the time but every so often, and it comforts me to talk to you?  It's like confessing to an online diary that doesn't reply back, only there to listen to my problems and happenings in my dreary life.

On the topic of my dreary life, I have a boyfriend now.  His name is Christian and to be honest, between you and I, I'm not so sure that I like him.  Don't get me wrong; he's very good-looking and all that which comes with being a fit guy, but I'm not attracted to him like I was with my previous dates.  He is aggressive, a tough guy, sometimes a bully to his friends, but he treats me differently.  Often when we are alone, he never talks but always wants to kiss me and do all those guy-things, like fondling with my- I'm sure you don't want to know the details so I won't bore you with them.  But tell me one thing: is it in a boy's nature to like girls physically and always do things physically with them?  I mean, don't get me wrong, the physical stuff is good too but, I often get the sense that Christian doesn't want to get to know me better, only wants to do the physical stuff with me.  I feel like a toy when I'm with him, a current play-thing that he likes and will soon toss away like his previous toys.  Why can't I talk to him like I talk to you?

I feel so lonely nowadays, because of Christian I think, but probably due to my being the only oddball in school.  I have Aadila, of course, but she isn't as close to me like you are to me, despite you're on the other side of the world.

I miss you,

I really do; I really wish you're here.

Always yours,

Charlotte

Dear Oppa,

I think I may break up with Christian soon.  What do you think?  Many people had warned me about my boyfriend but I didn't want to listen since I refused to accept that he had been shagging girls behind my back, until yesterday.  It just so happened I was at a McDonald's with Aadila and she saw Christian walk by with his arm around a girl's waist; we followed them but then Aadila backed out because she didn't feel comfortable spying on my boyfriend.

Nor was I for that matter.

Christian and that girl were in a back alley and they were doing it; I don't want to go into crude details but what I saw disgusted me.  I don't think they saw me but someone must've told Christian about it and now, he is irritating me with his calls and constant showing-up when I don't want to see his face anymore.  That time I saw him with that girl was quite dark so maybe I was assuming the worst?  Maybe I need to hear him out before breaking up with him?

I don't know anymore; where are you, Key?  Where are you when I need a friend the most?  I often believe that you're nothing but an illusion; what happened in France 6 years ago was just a good dream.  Are you for real?  I feel like I'm talking to a brick-wall and all those e-mails I sent were to some random person who is called Kim Kibum, maybe a pervert or some nosy parker.

This is my final message.

Goodbye Key, or whoever you are who have listened to all my rubbish talk for the past 5 years or so.

Charlotte