Her Long Wait (1/1)

One... Two... Three... I counted on my mind as I softly tapped my right foot on the wet ground... Four... Five... Six... I sighed... Slowly, I raised my head and looked at the quiet street. It just rained and is very cold, so maybe that's why I am the only one around.I stood up from the bench I was sitting on and decided to have a walk. I put my hands on the pockets of my jacket and leaned my cheeks on the scarf on my neck which reached my lower lip. I silently walked as sad thoughts conquered my mind... I know there's a lot of reasons to be happy. That's what they say... But right now, I have a lot of reasons to be sad that no matter how hard I try, I can't put a real smile on my face... I tried to ignore those sad thoughts coming inside my mind. But this one... No matter how much I want to forget about it, I can't...It's been five years... After he left, I never had contact with him anymore. I don't know if he's still keeping his promise to me. But I still keep on hoping... But I can't remove the thought of maybe, he forgot about me already... Sigh... I don't know... I don't know anymore... I don't even know if he's still alive.  I mentally slapped myself for thinking that. I sighed... How could I say that? I stopped on my tracks and looked at the sky. The clouds were covering the sun, so it didn't really hurt my eyes. "East Sea..." I mumbled... and again, I sighed. "Where are you?" ~FLASHBACK~One... Two... Three... I counted on my mind as I tapped my foot on the ground. I stared at my feet and busied with tapping it again and again. Four... Five... Six... Sigh... Is he coming? I looked at my watch. Its already 9:30... He's 30 minutes late already... Sigh... It's only 30 minutes... I should wait for him. He's going to come... I know. "Kyung Mi!!" someone shouted, making me look at the direction and there, I saw him running as fast as he could and when he reached me, he immediately fell on his knees as he was trying to catch his breath. I stared at him... The happening still not syncing in in my brain. "D-donghae?" I asked, like I wasn't expecting him to come. He turned his head to me as he was still panting hard."I'm sorry... for.. be... being... l-late.." he said, still catching his breath."Its... Its..." he started to explain but I stopped him by putting my finger on his lips. I held out my bottle of water to him. "Drink this first.." I said and he smiled, taking the bottle from me and drank the water. He looked at the bottle after drinking and muttered, "Uh-oh.. I... I drank all.." "Its okay." I said with a smile and took the bottle from him and put it back beside me. "Thanks.." He stood up from the ground and sat on the bench, right beside me. I smiled. "I'm really sorry Kyung Mi.. We still had something to talk about in the school so, yeah... And I wasn't able to give you a call because my phone already ran out of battery." he explained."Its okay.." I said and let out an eyesmile as I looked at him. "I understand." I continued, still wearing the eyesmile. He smiled back and poked me near my eye."You're so nice... Your kindness, your eyesmile, your smile, and your voice... They made my day... YOU made my day..." he confessed, making me smile more. He then put his arm over my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. I "hugged" him with my right arm as he held my left hand with his right hand and caressed it. I looked at the sky. It was full of stars... The sky is so beautiful. The moment is so beautiful. The night, its perfect...I leaned my head on his shoulder as he leaned his head over my head. "Kyung Mi-yah..." he called."Neh?" "Saranghae..." I smiled at what I heard. I squeezed his hand and whispered, "Nado saranghae.." ~END OF FLASHBACK~ Before I was even able to stop it, a tear fell from my eye. "Saranghae..." I said with a sigh. I started walking again. The only thing that can be heard is the water dripping from the roofs, trees, and the such, and the sound of my feet touching the wet ground as I walk... For the nth time, I sighed. If anyone sees me right now, I'm so sure they'll probably know that I am not happy.. Frown on my face, dried tears on my cheeks, and eyes that are obviously sad. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and unlocked it. I searched on my phonebook and when I saw his name, I selected it and pressed "call". I put my phone near my ear and listened to the ringing sound, waiting for him to answer. But again, his number is unavailable. I sighed as I put my phone back on my pocket. Why did he even have to leave? Well its not just a simple "just because". Its for his dream.. His father's dream for him... To become a singer.He was hesitating to leave and pursue his dreams because he didn't want to leave me. But I didn't let him sacrifice it for me. I know I'll be hurt. Because I'm his girlfriend yet we won't be able to be together for years.... I knew this is going to happen.... But as I said, I'm his girlfriend.. And I'm supposed to want what's best for him. So I let him go... Not totally let him go... But right now, I don't even feel like we're still in a relationship.. But I love him... I still love him... ~FLASHBACK~ I was walking my way home from school with him. We go on different schools but he's fetching me everyday.. "Kyung Mi-yah" he called me as he was holding my hand."Neh?""What do you call a heart that attacks?" he asked. I raised my brow."Huh?""HEART ATTACK!" he exclaimed... I chuckled, realizing it was a joke. "Hmmm.. What about a heart that steals?" he asked another question."Mmmmm. I don't know.. What?" I shrugged."HEARTTHROB!!" I chuckled again because he said it with "enthusiasm"."So corny.." I teased but he just chuckled. "Then what about a heart that loves you?" I was trying to think of a word that has "heart" and "you" in it.. But, none."What?" I asked, giving up. He stopped walking, making me stop as well then he faced me and planted a kiss on my cheek."My heart.." he whispered in my ear, making me go red like a tomato. I smiled and looked at him, making our faces to be just an inch apart. "What do you call a selfish heart?" I asked, looking at him in the eyes."Mmmm.. What?" he asked back. I smiled."Your heart..." I said, making him raise an eyebrow."Huh? I'm pretty sure my heart isn't selfish..." he disagreed."It is." I defended."Why?" "Your heart is so selfish that it took my heart from me and kept it all for itself... See.. So selfish.." He let out a cute smile. A smile that made me smile as well. Then, he pulled me to a tight hug. "You're so corny." he mumbled with a chuckle."Its true though.." I said, hugging him back. ~END OF FLASHBACK~ I smiled at the scene that flashed on my mind. But, it was a sad smile... It was a smile telling that I miss him so much already.. "Lee Donghae... gidarilge..." I whispered to myself as I stepped on the road and crossed it. As I was on the middle of the road, I felt something cold on the tip of my nose. I looked up the sky and that was when water slowly fell on my face one by one. Its starting to rain... Sigh... I don't care.. I walked my way home.. And as I arrived, I was already wet because of the rain. I immediately went to the bathroom to change. I looked at my reflection on the mirror... I look so awful... I don't know myself anymore... Where am I? Where is the Kyung Mi that used to smile a lot? The Kyung Mi that was always happy despite all the sadness she has in her heart?.... I sighed.. What happened to me?... I looked down and let out another sigh.. I just shrugged that thought off and decided to change my clothes. But as I was about to do that, I suddenly felt pain on my chest. My eyes widened, feeling nervous.. Oh no.. Here it goes again...I held my chest, hoping that the pain would go away. But no, it didn't.. The pain was still there.. It didn't lessen, instead, it got worse.. And now, I'm having a hard time to breathe... I felt more nervous than before.. I closed my fist, trying to fight the pain.. But it didn't work.. I ran to my room and searched for my medicine. As I found it, I immediately drank it, still holding my chest... I cried... Its hurting so much... No... It isn't because of him... Its because... I... I'm... s-sick.. And that is the reason,.. The reason why I didn't go after him and the reason why sometimes, I think its better for him to not come back for me anymore.. I'm gonna die soon.. So its gonna be useless even if he comes back.. I sat on the floor, crying in pain. I leaned forward to my bed, letting it get wet because of my tears. "U-umma..." I called.. but I know she won't come.. She's not home.. She's not gonna hear me..  "D-donghae... Lee Dong...h-hae..." I mumbled, calling him.. But who am I kidding? He's not gonna come.. I cried there for hours, trying to fight the pain... Its still there. It didn't go away. My heart was still hurting so much... Physically and emotionally.. But I had no more tears to cry... So I just sat there, my head leaning on the bed as I let the tears left to just fall. I reached for the notebook and pen laying on my bed. I opened my notebook and on the exact page where I opened it, there rests a picture.. I took it to look at it... It was my picture... A picture of me... with him... Despite the pain I'm feeling right now, I smiled, seeing his smile that I love so much.. I took the pen and wrote on the back part of the photo... " Lee Donghae... Mianada... Jeongmal Saranghaeyo..." Tears fell from my eyes again... I miss him...  "Please be happy..." I whisperred.. "I'll still wait for you..." as I said those words, I accidentally dropped my pen. The last tear fell from my eyes then after that, everything went black.   ~~ SECOND CHAPTER PREVIEW: I cried hard... Screaming my heart out..Kyung Mi yah.. I'm here already... ~~ "Please... smile.." she shook her head."I can't." ~~ "Don't forget me, please.." ~~ " I have to go now.." ---- Hey guys! ^^ HajHee here.. :D I'm gonna publish the second chapter maybe later or next week... xD it depends! ^^.. Hope u like it guys! :)) Please comment and subscribe! ^^ I'll appreciate it! :) Negative comments will be appreciated as well, but please don't be too harsh.. :D Positive comments? Of course they are highly appreciated! ^^ I'll get encouraged by that! ^ So please do..~ ^^ Gomawoyo.. :D SARANGHAE!! ^_________^