Somebody to love (1/2)

Author’s Pov

Gyeoul put her heads on the table while playing with her pencils. She lost her idea to write a song. She get a request from a lot of agency to write them a song. Afer Infinite debut become hit, her name as a producer started to hit too. But still, she need to ask Leo for his permission.

“Ah i’ve lost my idea.” She sigh. She try to sing some line so she can find the idea.

Jin that was walking passing her room stopped and look at her.

“What are you doing?” Someone said to him and he turn. It was Hana.

“N-nothing.”

Hana smile and lock her hands in him.

“Can you follow me t0 go practice.”

“B-but I-“ she pull his hands without hesitate and they walk away.

Gyeoul that heard a noises outside her office shook her head and saw Hana and Jin was holding hands.

She pissed off.

It was the first time she feel annoyed seeing Jin.

Just then her phone ring. It was from the hospital. She quickly answer it.

“Hello? Yes her daughter. W-wait what?! O-okay I’ll go now.” She hang up and take her bag then run out of her room.

She stopped Jin that was walking with Hana.

“Jin!”

Jin turn around look at her.

“Yeah?”

“I need your help, right now! Can you…”

She almost finished her words but Hana cut it.

“Jin is busy, he is teaching me vocal lesson.” Hana said with a big smile.

Gyeoul look at him like begging for his help.

“But my mo-“

“Lets go.” She pull his hand and walk away from her. Jin look behind at Gyeoul.

“Sorry.” He said in whisper and Gyeoul understand it.

She run to Leo office but nobody was in it.

“He probably have a meeting. Ah but I need to rush! Mom is dying.” She start to panic and her tears almost fell down.

Gyeoul’s Pov

I have no choice except run. Go with a bus? It takes time. I run quickly from BigHit building to hospital.

I know it was too far but I have no choice.

30 minutes running. Thank god I was once an athlete before I enter college.

I don’t want to lose mom now. It is enough to lose dad and Hongbin. But not mom. I wipe my tears while running. My heart beats fast than normal.

Don’t know what will happen next, I keep on running so I can meet mom.

I push people that was blocking my way and keep on running until I arrived in front of the hospital. I run to mom’s room and saw a group of doctor was surrounding mom’s bed. My leg is now weak after running but i keep on walking to mom. I push the nurse weakly and saw mom was now weak. Her life now is depend on machine.

“What… happen to her?” I ask them.

“Nothing happen, it just… her time has come.” Her time has come? What…

“Last time I visit her she look so fine!” I say refusing that my mom already weak.

“She’s always weak. I’m sorry for saying this, but in front of you, she just acting.” The nurse stroke my back trying to calm me down. I look at my mom. She’s weak.

She is going to leave me. She is going to leave me like dad did, like Hongbin did.

Why would my life became like this? Why would it turn like this? I was once the happiest person that live happily with my family. But everything’s changed. One by one, people that I love leave me like this.

God…

DO YOU REALLY THINK I AM THAT STRONG?!

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It was mom’s funeral, and I am here standing alone in front of her. No one knows her existence. Mom has suffer a lot. I hope she get the peace and harmony life out there with dad and Hongbin. I’ll be there, one day. Yes I’ll be there one day.

Leo called me, he said he is on his way to come here. He called me right after the meeting ended. I look at mom’s picture in my phone. My tears already stop drowning. I can’t cry, like I’m telling myself crying will not solve anything. I already lost her now. Its like I’m crying for nothing. Beside, mom is not going to alive again.

Leo tap my shoulder from behind. I turn and look at him.

“Are you okay?” He ask me.

I nodded slowly. I look behind him, searching for someone, but no one there.

I just wish he was here.

I let out a big sigh.

Forget it, he was busy with Hana, though no one knows that you were hurt.

You always hide your scars, showing the best smile you can give.

You want people to ask you ‘are you really okay?’. Even Leo always see your hidden scars, but you hope someone else can see it.

But unfortunately it was just a dream, a dream that never came true.

Think Gyeoul! If you say that you like him, what will change?

Your status are not the same. He is a typical idol, you are just a typical songwriter that write your song using your mind, your experience and the people like him will sing your song.

Beside, he can’t get caught dating with you! He has a lot of fans, not just you who love him.

But he is normal humans too. You should try! Before you try, you have to face two kind of people in this world, ARMY, and Hana. ARMY is easy, if you are dating, they can’t do anything, they are just a fans. But Hana, she is the one you should get rid off. She will take Jin from yours if you didn’t compete with her.

Think again! You already lost the people that you really love! Dad, Hongbin, and now your mom! Do you want to lost Jin? A person that you started to like? Started to care about? Think about yourself! You already suffer a lot! Those hidden scars will never gone. It will stay forever.

Author’s Pov

Laughing, cheering, smiling. The Bangtan room is now crowded and full of laugh when Hana enter BigHit. Just because she is a trainee and the senior have to teach them, she take her opportunity to be close with Bangtan. That is what hurts Gyeoul the most. When the Bangtan kid seems not close to her anymore.