Letters (1/1)

Hey, Kris?I guess, you don’t expect anyone writing to you. And I guess, that stage name was only a haunting memory to you. You used your real name when you debuted in China as an actor after all. We were all shocked… and hurt. Some of us left and some of us defended you. But that chaos happened months ago. And we were never the same ever since.I remember when I first saw you. I thought you were a jerk and really cold but as I discovered many sides of you, I found out you weren’t all that. You were kind and gentle to your members. You took care of them very well, especially Xiumin and Chen because they were the only Korean members right? And promoting in Korea must’ve been hard for you.It was always like that. They would set aside those who were foreigners and preferred the products of their own country. You were a stranger in a foreign land, only having English to aid you when you communicate with the others. You slowly improved in your Korean and before you noticed, you could casually talk to your Korean members, especially your co-leader, Suho.You tried your best but your best wasn’t enough to prove yourself worthy of accepting projects in your homeland. Your company didn’t allow you. You were controlled, used as a puppet even. Every one of the SM idols is like that but I’m glad you broke free. I guess you were brave enough… but I hope you’ll still owe your victory to SM.I mean, they did discover you and all that. Even Hangeng displayed the proper thankfulness to your company. Recently, you know, Kris? Luhan also filed a lawsuit. Some of us speculate you only filed a lawsuit so there wouldn’t be much fuss about Luhan’s decision. Did you go to their Beijing concert? I think you did, or you streamed it. Whatever the case, I hope you meet up with him.Oh yeah, happy birthday. Sadly, you won’t be able to celebrate your birthday with your members. It would be lonely, right? You spent two birthdays with them, even more without my attention. If you ever feel lonely, I hope you can turn to us. I’m happy that you notice your international fans. I’m glad you understand us. Heck, I’m glad you understand English.Kris, I mean Yi Fan, ah, habits do die hard. I’m just here to wish you a happy birthday. I do hope you read this. I have a lot of competition after all. And I’m just a complete stranger. Anyhow, I need to go and ship this off to China. I wonder how much the shipping fee is. I don’t care anyways. As long as I know I have the ability to make your birthday happy, I’m good.Wo ai ni, Wu Yi Fan. Women ai ni. We love you. I hope you’re happy and I hope we made you happy on your birthday!One of your thousands of fansKris raised his head after reading the letter. Memories flashed before him. How can this one fan say so much? He looked at the new apartment he rented. He suddenly felt the lonesomeness he felt during the first day of separation between him and the rest of EXO.He sat on the couch and took the bowl of chips on the coffee table. He planned watching a movie while he waited for the first minute of his birthday. He opened the TV and the DVD player. He decided on watching a Jackie Chan movie. As the scenes played, he suddenly remembered the Korea-China friendship concert. He was with his members.He sighed before getting his phone. He was shocked to see Tao’s message in his inbox in LINE.Happy birthday, gege! It has been months and I really miss you. Don’t worry. I’m not crying anymore. Have you seen Luhan-ge? I’ve heard he returned to Beijing. I hope you have a super duper happy birthday. I also hope you drop by during Chanyeol-ge’s birthday. We all miss you. I even saw Sehun looking through your pictures. You’re so handsome like that gege! Kkkk. I hope you have a successful career in our homeland! Jiayou, gege! Wo ai ni ^^ Kris almost went to tears but he remained strong. He didn’t want to cry. He mustn’t cry. He promised Tao and Sehun that. His tears wouldn’t fall because of them but he really missed them. He missed Chen’s lame antics too and how Xiumin would scold the others. He missed Lay’s cooking too. He missed disciplining the members.He missed how Suho complained about how childish K was. He missed Chanyeol’s and Kai’s lame jokes. He missed Baekhyun’s gossiping. He missed Sehun’s and Tao’s whining about what they wanted. He missed how Kyungsoo beat Baekhyun up and his kimchi spaghetti.He groaned as he looked up to the ceiling and covered his eyes and he whispered to himself,“Even if seasons pass, even if centuries end, even if we were all separated, I will always be the Kris you loved. And I will watch over you like the father I am to EXO.”