Final (1/1)

"Goodbye." you said as you put the familiar object into the palms of my hands. It was a mannequin head that I had gave to you for your birthday. You wanted to be a cosmetologist for idols. I was trying to be the good boyfriend that I was and helped you. I looked down at it, it was torn up. Nothing like how I first gave it to you. It didn't even look like a human face anymore.What did you do with it? I wondered. Nevertheless, you turned around and walked away from me. Taking your umbrella and yourself far from me. I could only watch as your silhouette get smaller and smaller as you walked farther away. I stood out in the rain, only gazing upon you as you suddenly disappeared from my life.How did this happen? It only felt like yesterday when we began our relationship. We were young and foolish but we were in love. I loved you and you loved me, or so, I thought. I gaped at the mannequin head in my hands. It stared back at me blankly. I turned around and without looking back, I walked away. - "Come on, get over her," Youngjae said as he tried to comfort me. "You're too good for her anyway.""Just leave him alone, Youngjae." said the leader from his spot in front of the computer. He was probably just annoyed of Youngjae's non-stop talking rather than caring for me. He was always too busy watching his war movies for some reason. I never saw why they were so interesting to him. Then again, I never wanted to find out why."Hyung, forget about her, okay?" piped the maknae. I looked at him and couldn't help but smile weakly. He really was just a walking ball of sunshine; able to brighten anyone's day with his cuteness, but that wasn't enough to lift me from my break up. I could be compared to someone mourning over one's death rather than a break up.I made the situation sound serious even though it was something stupid. We were both young when our relationship had started, many would be surprised to even know that the relationship lasted for three years. Three anniversaries, two people, but only one truly loved the other. In this case, that was me."Hyung, lets go out for ice cream. Ice cream always makes everything better!" said the maknae line. They came over to me and pulled me up. Jongup reassuringly smiled at me, signifying that everything was alright. Zelo, on the other hand, only gazed into Jongup's eyes. Not even stopping to look at me.I suddenly felt a strange sensation pooling in my stomach. What was this exotic feeling? Why does it feel so unfamiliar to me? Could it possibly be ... jealousy? Was I jealous of Jongup and Zelo? Was it because they were young too? Or was it that they truly both loved each other and would till the end? Those questions, I truly believe that I cannot answer them correctly. - "One chocolate, one vanilla, and one strawberry, please!" Zelo says to the woman at the counter. She nods as she places the order and tells us the amount of money we need. Jongup fishes money out of his pocket and puts it on the counter. Zelo then grabs ahold of Jongup's arm and leads him to a table. I can only look at them, follow, and be jealous. - Soon after, the lady calls our order. In which, Jongup goes to receive it. Zelo sighs softly and watches as his boyfriend gets up to advance to the counter. I can only look at Zelo and feel envy of him yet happy as well. I'm envious that Zelo can have such a caring partner but ecstatic because I like seeing the maknae profoundly euphoric.Isn't Zelo ... daunted that Jongup might vanish from his life? I guess that he is, too, blinded by this mysterious thing called love. Jongup meanders his way back to the table with the tray of ice cream in cups. He hands them out before sitting beside Zelo once more. They look like a picturesque couple together, simply lovely. They're both still adolescents after all, who could blame them. At that stage of life, you'd want to experience love and all that it has to offer. Well, not exactly ... everything. Break ups are something you absolutely do not want to experience. Other than that, everything about love is wonderful.The holding hands to shy kisses to the heated ones. Love was a wonderful thing but an equal horrific one.Jongup smiles as he lets Zelo take a lick of his chocolate ice cream. Zelo grins as he does the same to Jongup. Jongup, while smiling, takes his thumb and wipes off excess ice cream that was on Zelo's face. Zelo, feeling immensely embarrassed from the situation, blushes.  - Once we had headed home, Jongup and Zelo went immediately to Jongup's room to play video games. I only stood at the door and move slowly towards the computer desk. The chair was occupied by a certain someone. I heard a loud boom, signifying that there was a bomb of some sort. I turned to the computer screen to see many individuals running about while shrieking.I then turned to my peer in the chair. He had a mirth expression plastered to his face. I could only look at that face in disgust. Who would be amused about one's death? Oh yeah, this guy and his stupid war movies. I don't even see why he enjoys these movies so much. I sighed as I sat down on the chair next to him and stared at the screen.He took a quick glance at me before directing his attention back to the computer screen. I just sat there during the movie. Hearing a few laughs here and there along with scoffs. I only remained silent as the movie went on. Then a scene I didn't expect popped up, I was immediately frozen.I only shifted slightly as the couple embraced each other. Yongguk probably felt uncomfortable as well, he shifted and pulled out his phone. A smile crept up on me as I decided to tease him."Can't take the heat?" I said teasingly. Yongguk put his phone down onto the computer desk and stared at me. His facial expression was frigid, it made me tense."I can watch it perfectly fine," he said while turning back to the screen. "Nothing that I can't handle""Yeah right. I doubt that." I said looking at him in the face. He gives me a scowl before turning to the screen once more. I sigh softly and sit back down. We watch as the couple do other things a pair would do. I could tell Yongguk detested to having to watch these scenes. Honestly, I wasn't feeling it either. Maybe it was just because I just got out of a relationship; I don't know. "Hey, look, you don't have to watch it." I started while looking at his face. He turned to face me with his cold expression once more."Look, I said that I'm fine, got it?" He then turned back without hesitating. I gave him a face that read melancholy."What if I'm not? Did you ever think about my feelings?" I yelled as I stood up suddenly. Yongguk, taken back from the outburst, looked at me with a face that only read one thing; sympathy. My eyes started to glisten as I stared at him more. I turned and walked away to only be pulled back by Yongguk. He pulled me into his chest to hug me from behind.I felt my heart race at an irregular pace. His head moved to lay itself on my shoulder. He leaned forward a bit to get his lips close to my ear."I'm sorry," he whispers into my ear softly in that deep voice of his. "I'm not a very considerate person.""You think that I don't know that?" I retort back. I struggle to get out of his firm grasp around my waist. I then harshly pull myself away from him and walk away from the room. Yongguk stays in the exact position as I left him, gaped at the scene that had taken place. - I ran down into the basement and panted heavily. I stared at the ground and slid down the wall behind me. When I reached the floor, I put my head into my knees as my breathing starts to speed up rapidly. The colorless, transparent liquid finds its way to escape without my consent, sliding down my cheek and onto the floor. More tears start to build up and drip down, one by one.I hear footsteps getting louder and louder, signifying that someone was getting closer but I didn't let that bother me. I kept on sobbing like there was no tomorrow. It was only till a hand was placed on my shoulder that I looked up. That face, the face that I didn't want to see was just inches away from me."I'm sorry." was all he could say. I couldn't even look at him, I buried my face into my knees once more. I heard movement as Yongguk shifted to somewhere else. I felt my face being lifted as I was once again faced with a certain leader's. I scowled at him the best I could, crying a few minutes ago and all."You look really ugly when you cry." he states. I could only stare at him, astounded at what he had said. I harshly wipe the tears away with the sleeve of my jacket and look back at him with puffy eyes."You're a real jerk, you know." I said as I shoved him. Since he was squatting, he fell backwards, landing on his behind. Even from the distance, I can see the end of his lips curl up as he ascends."At least I can fix that. You can't fix being ugly while crying." he says as he brushes the dust off of himself. He stares back at me with a slight smirk."Well ... well at least I'm not always crying. At least I can get someone" I retort back at the jerk I have to call the leader."Whatever" he says back as he lends out a hand. I stare at the hand that was thrust out before me. I shifted my eyes to stare at those glowing ones beaming back at me. I hesitantly reached out my hand, intimidated that the hand might pull back. To my surprise, he waits until he has a grasp of my hand and pulls me up.I stand up and brush myself off as well. I look up to only see the familiar object that I had left down here. My gaze casted to Yongguk who only stares at me back. I walk closer to the item, my eyes fixed on it. It looked as if it were taunting me. I patted my back pocket to feel another familiar article. My fingers pull out a lighter, the one you had gotten me.It had a rabbit with a pink mask and tattoos around its body imprinted on it. I opened it and tested it out a few times. I heard a click and a flicker of light. The flame danced as it came to life. I held the lighter closer and closer to the mannequin head that you had given back to me. It started to catch on fire quickly.The flames burned the mannequin head and turned it dark in color. I stared at it, my eyes shining due to the light. I turned away and threw the lighter at the mannequin head. It hit the head and dropped to the floor. I smiled as I walked away from the scene with Yongguk. Leaving all the memories I had with you to burn away. - "Hey, you guys want to go out?" Youngjae asked all of us. We were all scattered amongst the rooms. The DaeJae couple in the kitchen, the JongLo couple in front of the TV playing video games, and the BangHim couple watching war movies. It wasn't because I took a liking to him, I ... I wanted to spend time with Yongguk. That's all."Sure, hyung!" shouted Zelo from his spot on the floor. Yongguk looked at me as if he were asking permission to go. I nodded simply and gestured to Youngjae."We'll go too." Yongguk says as he shuts off the computer monitor and gets up from his spot on the chair. I stand up too and stand beside him. The maknae line immediately pause the game and turn off the TV then turn to Daehyun and Youngjae in the kitchen."So, it's settled then," Daehyun starts as he goes to open the door for everyone. "We're going out for a date.""No way, I'm not going on a date with this jerk face." I protest while pointing to the leader's face. He gives me a look before turning to Daehyun."Yeah, I don't get well with people who look ugly when they cry either, sorry." he says to Daehyun. Yongguk looks back to me with a smirk plastered on his face."You ass." I muttered under my breath as we walked along the streets."I'm a what now?" he says."I said you're an ass, are you deaf too?" I retort back at him. He looks at me flabbergasted but quickly goes back to his old self in a matter of seconds."I can be for you." he mumbles. I give him a what-the-hell expression in response to his mumbling."What did you say?" I demanded."I thought I was the deaf one." he says while sticking his tongue out and walking faster. My eyes widen as I stare at him walking away."YAH! Get back here, Bang Yongguk!" I yell as I run after him. I won't let you go, not like her. I won't let you get away from me this time. I'll catch you and won't ever let you go. You're different from her, completely. But, that's what I like about you. Yongguk, just know that I don't plan on letting you walk out on me any time soon. You're mine, Bang Yongguk.I only stop abruptly as I feel water hitting my face. I look up to the sky to see dark clouds, it's raining. I can only grin at the thought of it raining. You despised the rain and always stayed inside, making me stay with you. But I suppose that it was only you who thought that because now, I am outside in the rain chasing the one who I truly care for. The familiar feeling comes back to me, the wet damp atmosphere. The rain falling down to this planet harshly and quickly. The ever-so familiar sound of the downpour. The familiar sound that could only be ...The Sound of Rain