Chapter 10 (1/1)

There will be a sudden change of POV. I just kinda feel comfortable writing what Haera feels from her own POV, so yeah.. I hope you enjoy this terrible chapter. :)  Haera walked back to home after doing the grocery shopping at a mini supermarket that’s pretty near from her house. As she walked down the street holding the plastic of her grocery shopping, she noticed a familiar street. And then in an instant she remembered. It was the street to his neighbourhood. To his house. m style="line-height:1.6;">Sungjae’s house. Without even knowing, her feet already brought herself towards the street. As she was looking around the neighborhood she then remembered how she always walked through this neighborhood to come to his house. The bitter reality hit her when she realize she didn’t do that anymore now. Or more likely, she couldn’t do it anymore. His family moved to another place not long after the accident. All of sudden her heart is aching, but her feet is still walking, bringing her to his house. She couldn’t bring herself to stop, even with the huge pain in her heart. And she didn’t know why she couldn’t stop herself. Probably it was because there was this little, tiny part of her that hoped, somehow, there’ll be someone in his house. Even though it’s not him, at least someone that is related to him. For example, his older sister. She is such a caring ad kind sister, not only to Sungjae, but to her also. After a few minutes of walk, his house finally came into her sight. Haera suddenly felt this huge pang in her heart when what her eyes saw a brand new renovated house. She knew it sounded stupid, being sad just because your boyfriend’s house that already passed away got renovated. But it’s the place where all her memory with him happened. She always come at his house, because there’s almost no one at her house.            The house is basically still the same building, but the painting is different and there are some renovations here and there. The mini garden that Sungjae’s mother used to take care of was not in sight anymore. There was only plain green grass. She somehow was really sad upon what she see. She knew that she should’ve expect this, ofcourse after his family moved another family will move in, but she still just couldn’t believe it. The last time she came to his house was like 2 years ago. But she still could feel the sorrow and emptiness of losing him as if it just happened yesterday. Haera didn’t realize that she was staring at the house so intently until the front door of the house opened and revealed a boy. Haera’s POV             I didn’t realize that I was keep on staring at the house until the front door of the house opened and revealed a boy. Him. It was him again. What a small world. I met him again less than 24 hours. Suddenly I remembered what happened last night. He danced in the middle of an empty street as if it was the only thing that matters to him. And there it goes again. The amazement crept up on me again. I didn’t realize that he was staring at me so intently (and vice versa) until I noticed Sehun standing up and said something to him. Great. Now both of them is looking at me and probably thinks that I’m some crazy stalker. But after I think it again, what are they doing in there? Does Sehun live there? Or that boy? And once again, I didn’t realize that I was staring at both of them as I was thinking hard. But actually, I was specifically staring at that boy that I don’t even know what’s his name is. But both of us is keep on staring at each other as if there was only the two of us together. And what shocked me the most is that none of us broke the stare. Well, I would, but somehow, I couldn’t. I got this really weird feeling inside me. It was like he’s trapping me with his intent gaze that I couldn’t even broke it. Suddenly, Sehun’s handphone rang and then I know right away that it was my cue to broke the stare. I looked at Sehun picking up his handphone, and looked at that boy one more time, only to find him still straing at me. I looked away immediately, trying not to care why is he keep on staring at me as if he’s the crazy stalker now. I walked away from that house, still with the grocery plastic in my hand. All of a sudden I just feel really embarrassed, like really embarrassed, and really stupid, and, well, stupid. They probably would tell everyone in school that Haera was turning into a crazy stalker because she did it to them. If that is really going to happen, I guess all I could do is just to be careless about it. Even though there’s this little hope inside me that they wouldn’t tell. Because if they did, the whole school probably will talk about me, again. And I don’t really like the feeling. Even though I could, just ignore it, but still, I don’t like the feeling of other people talking, and judging as if they know me. As if the know how does it feel when they actually don’t. I really- “Miss! Watch out!” Someone shouted loudly from behind me that I almost jumped. I looked to my side only to see a car stopping. The panick and fear strick me after I try to process what just happened. The car stopped right infront of me that I could almost feel my heart stop beating. I almost got hit. I almost got hit by car. My grip on the grocery shopping plastic loosen and it fell to the ground. My hand is trembling and my knees somehow is so weak that I fell to the ground. I somehow felt really stupid. I was thinking too hard that I didn’t even realize I almost got hit by a car. The man who shouted came over and kneel down to check on me.“Miss, are you okay?”“Oh my goodness, miss, are you okay?” An old lady said. I recognized her voice, she was the cashier on the supermarket that I went to grocery shopping before.“What are you doing?! You should see where are you going! I almost hit you!” A voice said that I assumed was the driver of the car. I was about to apologize, but it feels like there was a huge lump in my throat that I couldn’t even utter a word. I really can’t. Tears was already forming in the back of my eye. I almost lost my life because I was too busy with my own thought. I really really do feel so stupid. Never in my life I was thinking too hard until I didn’t even know where I was going, not until he passed away. I guess I just had too much in my head that where am I going doesn’t matter anymore. The tears finally trailed down my cheeks. I cried. That moment, I swear, I felt so awfully miserable.  Author’s POV “Isn’t that… Haera?”Jongin was still deep in his thoughts. But his silence answer it all. They both can see it clearly that it is indeed Haera. The said girl was beyond confused as to what are they doing in that house. And she was somewhat feeling like a deer in the headlights. They caught her staring. The truth that they didn’t really know Haera that well, and vice versa, was making it a lot worse and awkward. They stayed like that for a few seconds. Sehun stared at Haera, Haera stared at Jongin, and Jongin stared at Haera. The staring was unbreakable for Jongin and Haera. Sehun was confused for a lot of reasons. He just found out Haera, staring at them, well probably Jongin only, but still, she was standing infront of Kyungsoo’s house and was already staring when they saw her. And what’s even confusing to Sehun was that Jongin and Haera didn’t know each other that well, but the way they stare at each other, the way that they keep on staring and no one wanted to break it, it was as if they are the most inseparable in the world. Suddenly, Sehun’s handphone rang, breaking the stare between all of them, but not with Jongin. He was still staring at Haera. Sehun picked up his handphone, while Haera started walking away, leaving Jongin staring at the empty place where Haera stood before.Sehun who already finished his call, followed to where Jongin was staring and found nothing or no one was there. And then he remembered it.“What was that all about?” Sehun asked with both of them still stay stood in Kyungsoo’s front porch.Upon hearing Sehun’s question, Jongin snapped back into reality after being deep down with his thoughts. He looked at Sehun and looked back at where Haera was standing before.“Just forget it. Let’s go.”Jongin and Sehun walked in silence. No one utter a single word. Sehun was still trying to process what just happened, and Jongin, he just couldn’t stop thinking about how Haera stared at him. It was the first she ever stared at him that long. Even in the class when they met eyes, Haera is the first one to look away. And then Jongin remembered that night when he caught her staring. Well, maybe her staring at him that time was reasonable, because who the hell danced in the middle of an empty street in the night? He was just so bored that night, that the music was bringing his mood up and his body just somehow moved by itself. But a few minutes ago, when he caught her staring again, he really wanted to know why. And he really wanted to know why was she infront of Kyungsoo’s house. Did she was about to visit Kyungsoo’s house but then cancelled it because she saw us? Wait, what relation do Kyungsoo and Haera even have? He got so many question, yet he couldn’t solve it. The same thing also happened to Sehun. But, Sehun’s thought suddenly interrupted when he heard a commotion a few meters ahead of them.“Hey, look overthere,” Sehun pointed to the crowd not far from where they are. Jongin did as what Sehun said and saw the crowd. But unlike Sehun, Jongin wasn’t really interested on finding out what was happening. Unless it was some street dance competition, he would join, but he knew it wasn’t one, because he couldn’t hear the music, and it was in the middle of the street. He just shrugged and continue on his own thought. Seeing that Jongin is not interested, Sehun ran and checked what was going on in that crowd. There wasn’t really many people so he easily got in the middle of the crowd. One glance at the car and the girl sitting down on the ground right infront of the car, he could tell that the girl almost got hit. An old lady was sitting down with her, trying to calm her down. She probably got some panick attack. After knowing what happened, Sehun decided to go back. But as he was about to turn around and left, he realized something. He looked at the plastic bag and realize that it was the same one with the one that Haera held when she was infront of Kyungsoo’s house. He looked at her clothes and realize it was the same one. Then he looked at her face, and he was right. It was Haera. He looked at her face and saw the tears falling down through her cheeks. She was crying. Sehun didn’t know how to react. Should he check on her? Should he send her home? But he didn’t know where her house is. And they’re not even friends. But.. we’re classmates. Not knowing what to do, Sehun decided to just go back and tell Jongin first with hope that he would know what to do.“You have to see what’s going on in there,” Sehun said as he panted a little because of his running.“What’s going on in there?” Jongin asked, suddenly interested because Sehun would never ask him too see something going on in a crowd unless it was a dance competition or something about free food.Sehun was still panting, “Haera…” Sehun took another breath.The moment her name slipped out from Sehun’s tongue, he knew something wasn’t right. He just knew. He could tell by the way how Sehun looked, he was somewhat panick, and he even ran just to come and tell him about it. Jongin ran to the crowd, leaving Sehun behind, still trying to catch his breath. Jongin managed to get in the crowd and see just like what Sehun saw before. And after what Sehun told him, he assumed that the girl must be Haera. He took a better look at the girl, and indeed, it was Haera. In a heartbeat, he instantly kneel down next to Haera, and looked at her. She was crying. His heartbeat suddenly increased. He didn’t know what was his feeling, but one thing for sure, he didn’t like the sight of her crying and her obvious scared face.“Hey, are you okay?” Jongin held Haera’s arm as he try to check if she’s hurt anywhere.Haera was still beyond scared and panick that she couldn’t even answer any question. But that familiar voice managed to make Haera turn her head to the person that asked her. And to her surprise, it was him. The boy that she didn’t even know what’s his name is, yet so many already happened between them. She could only look at him, and no matter how hard she tried to stop her tears, she just couldn’t.“She’s fine. She’s just a bit shocked.” The old lady that was calming down Haera answered Jongin. Even though the old lady already told him that she’s fine, but he still couldn’t stop worrying. Heck, he didn’t even know what’s making him so worry about her. But he didn’t care.“Hey, Haera, I’ll send you home. It’s okay, I’m here.” Jongin said as he looked at her eyes. He didn’t even think about the words he said. He didn’t even know where her house is but he offered to send her home. But it somehow just come out of his mouth like that.“Are you her friend?” the old lady asked.Without much thinking, Jongin answered, “Yes, I’m her friend.”“Bring her home okay? And take good care of her.” The old lady said, standing up.Jongin nodded his head. He put Haera’s arm on his neck and bring her bridal style to the roadside. Jongin saw Sehun coming and told him to take care of Haera’s plastic bag. Jongin put her down on a bench near a tree on the roadside.“Can you walk?” Jongin asked as he sat down next to her.Haera was still a little bit shocked to what almost happened that it took a few seconds for her to answer.“What? Yes, sure. I can walk,” Haera answered after wiping her tears with hands. She then looked at Jongin who was already staring at her. They stayed like that for a moment until Sehun came and faked a cough to show his presence. Haera looked at Sehun who held her grocery shopping. Noticing Haera’s glance to the plastic bag, Sehun handed it to her. Haera took it.“Thank you.”After that, it was silent. None of them talk. Sehun didn’t know what to do so he just looked up at the sky and pretend on counting how many clouds was there. Jongin was thinking hard on what should he do next. Should he offered to walk her home? Or should he just leave first? Same thing with happened with Haera. She was also thinking hard on what should she do next. Should she just leave like nothing happened? Or should she thanked them and asked their help to walk her home? Because she was still scared and shocked as hell.“Are-““Tha-“Both Jongin and Haera said at the same time.“You go first,” Haera said to Jongin.The said boy cleared his throat, “Well.. are you sure you can walk home by yourself? I mean.. w-we can walk you home.. I mean.. ofcourse that’s only if you let us..” Jongin trailed off. He suddenly felt so stupid for stutter. Why in the world he stutter in his words? He could feel Sehun looking at him with his playful smirk. What the hell Sehun.. just wait.Haera was somewhat surprised to his offer. She never thought that he would be that kind. And Sehun too. She thought that they wouldn’t even care about her that they just walk pass by her without helping.“Well, first thank you for helping me. And I’m actually fine walking by myself. I’m totally alright.” Haera said trying to assure them that she was okay when she was actually not okay at all. Noticing that the boy didn’t buy what she said, she stood up.“I’m seriously fine. See? I’m not hurt anywhere.” Haera said one more time while gesturing to her body. But while doing so, Jongin caught one thing was wrong. Her hand was still shaking a bit. A hint that she was not okay. She was still scared. Jongin looked at Haera, trying to show that he’s not buying what she said. Haera looked at him and knew that he’s not believing her. The said girl sighed, not knowing what to do anymore. She didn’t even know why was she trying hard to assure the boy that she didn’t even know what his name was, when she could just leave them. But she just couldn’t do that. It just somehow didn’t feel right for Haera to do and it would be rude to leave them just like that.“I’ll walk you home. Just to make sure you’ll be okay.” Jongin offered and then he stood up. Haera finally gave up, if he really insist on walking her home, so be it. At else, she’s not sure if she could walk all by herself with her condition like that. Sehun who was standing awkwardly near them, notice where was this going. He didn’t feel like walking Haera home because his starving stomach comes first.“Uhm.. You just walk Haera home and I’ll go buy food.” Sehun said to Jongin. And before Jongin could even respond, he was already running, leaving Jongin and Haera behind. He turn around only to wave his hands towards them and shouted, “Bye! Be careful!” And he added one wink to Jongin when Haera looked at another way. What the hell Sehun.Jongin the turned around and both of their eyes met. Suddenly it felt really awkward with just the two of them.Jongin cleared his throat. “Let’s go.”“Okay.” i'm really sorry for not updating for a month;_; i was so busy with school, and my laptop was broken;_; but now that i finished all my exam and i got a new laptop, i'll try my best to update more^^ and im really really sorry for this terrible chapter, i just wanted to update fast that i don't even know what am i writing and i got distracted with a new fic im writing(i really am a bad author /sobs/)  ONCE AGAIN, I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY.