[M] The Endless YOU~ (1/2)

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In a classy restaurant, "hyung Mister, your wife won't be jealous with our eomma, right? Send her an sms to inform her that you just won a date with your bias at the fanmeeting¬!" you never expected that your twins who was trying to protect you away from the guys, would gonna let you date JUST like that for an instant.

That man just smiled, "I'm not yet married, young man. But.. I'm waiting for her.. I'm going to wait.. and wait for her.." that man's gaze that could melt you more faster than a snap. Then those little boys clapped in victory, "awesome! Our mom has no husband too.. so.. this is better, while you're still waiting whoever she was!" that man's face suddenly went down, disappointed, expecting something from these young boys or maybe teased him for their mother.

For the rest of the hour you had with him together with your children, were all well spent, seeing how your twins enjoyed the company of their real father, making you guilty for not informing him that you got conceived with him.

On the drive way back home, the two fell asleep in your arms. The 3 of you sat in there at the passenger's seat together. "____-ah, it's been a long time since the last time we've talked." he comfortably asked you, but there you are, starting to get tense or even sweat so badly.

"Don't you have any plan to talk to me? Did I make something wrong before you left?" heart thumping.. You were trying to calm yourself, inhale.. exhale.. but it seems like it was not clearly helping you out.

"____-ah, are you there?" he held your hand this time which was at your son's shoulder.

You put up all your courage, restraining for the tinge feeling you have inside you, "I'm fine, Hae." you finally managed to utter 3 words.

"Why aren't you with Waltz? Isn't he the father of the twins?" he questioned out at the same time.

"Waltz.. He never got the chance to see them, but that's a good thing since he would got the suspicion that he was not the father of my children." your gaze was focused outside the window, while you were telling that to him.

"So... is that mean, we can date freely?" from the high intonation of his first word, went down on his last phrase, more of a whisper.

Your head unconsciously shifted on his direction, "missing this kind of view?" then he teasingly smirked at you, but you returned him a smirk of yours as well, "you're so full of yourself! tsss.. I'm just a fan of yours on my teenage years, but now its different! I admit that I was oh sooo overly jealous, whenever I saw how cling you are with your stupid girlfriend.. holding hands here.. hugging right there.. kissing over there.. yuckkk~! Of course, as a crazy mad fangirl, its normal to overact like that! But time itself will help you to accept the fact that your bias was also a human, who needs love from his true love..." you paused and noticed that the man seems to focused every word you have spake, "oh okay.. that's enough! I talk a lot uh? That's what I just feel that time! Such an immature was I, right?" you chuckles lightly, but he seemeth to be really serious, waiting for you to continue.

"If you are not yet done, just continue," he told you that makes you gulp nervously.

"Jihyun eonni and I seems to be very different, right? Eonni doesn't talk until he was not yet fully hurt, while here I was, I'm just starting to get hurt, but I already tell to all the people around me, that I was hurt. That's how I reacts every situation.. Such a childish act of mine, isn't it? If Waltz did not marry me, probably no one would ever be mistaken to love someone like me.." you still managed to smile even though that's the truth for yourself.

"Don't say that, okay? Even though you just sing, you can make someone say that he wants to marry you!" he stated in a very serious manner. After his last word, no one hath able to speak again, and finally your agony being with him had ended when his car turned to park in front of your house.

After he laid your twins on their bed, "Thanks Hae, for everything tonight. The twins really enjoyed your company with them."

"How about you? Haven't you enjoyed?" he asked that makes you moved aback.

"I.. I also did. What important was, my children's happiness.." you smiled shyly, as he turned to look at you, unconvinced.

"I wonder if Waltz was not their father... then who?" hesitating to continue, while you felt yourself trembled, unknowing how and what to tell him.

He hold both of your shoulders to make you look at him, "Is it I? ____-ah, is it I?" he asked twice, willing to know the truth from you.

"If it's not your husband.. then.. who is your first love? Am I your first love?" tears started to trickle down your face, but you wiped it right away.

"Please look at me straightly with my two-eyes and point me that I'm not Wihae and Wihan's father." his grip on your shoulder tightens more.

Tell him or not to tell? Tell him or not to tell? That's what was the discussion from the committee of your hypothalamus. Undecided, what to do.. what to say..

"Slap it in my face that I'm not! Please, let me know. I don't want to assume nor think that they were not mine either." he invoked for, but you just shrugged his hands away from you.

"We are now living in peace, Hae. We don't want to bother anyone, especially you. We used to live like this.. we used to stand with our own feet without anyone's help, so please, don't ask me anymore." facing your back on him, makes your tears to flown down like a streams of water.

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The next day was weekend! So during weekends, it was all spent for you together with your children on a park or anywhere they wanted to will thou compromise just for them. That's how much you love them! You even set aside the fact that they don't need a father.

While your twins were helping you out to pack some sandwich, "Eomma, can we bring hyung Mister for our trip today?"

"Who? Hyung Mister? why did you call him that?" curious how your twins name their father like that. "He's too old for us to call him 'hyung', while he looks young to be called 'Mister', to make his name short, we combined it! Isn't that amazing, mom?"

"Tss.. kurae.. I'm proud to have a smart twins like you two." then pinched both of their tiny nose.

"Can we, mom? jebal? putakhae? jebal?" they cutely pleaded. Just through your imaginations being with him, felt your body trembled all over, how much more if that will come in reality!

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For as usual, you can't resists your twins' charms, forgetting your own principle as long as they were happy.

Almost half of the day was spent for travelling, the twins even fell asleep, "you can rest here on my shoulder if you want to," he kindly offered, but for as usual, refusal strikes you again.