( Instead of a description, heres a background of how the nyongtory/gri starts! I hope you guys will look forward to this story. ) - Eddward...Seungris Diary EntrySometimes I wonder about the things that divide us.The wall that we should dare break down, the wall that seperates us from eachother.The way that society puts it, a man should never lie with a man.A woman should never lie with a woman.How could we still go by these rules?After all these years, we still have these guidelines of who and how we should act, think, and love.Why hasnt it changed?I ask myself this because I am one of those who choose forbidden love.I choose Jiyong....Seungris Pov:I closed my diary and locked it. Jiyong gave it to me before he left to go to his fan signing event.I couldnt go because I was too tired from performing yesterday.Ive been on a really hectic schedule and I only have a couple days off.I wish Jiyong was here.I got up from my chair and stretched out my tired arms.It was rainy today, the roads had streams of water running over them.I kept looking outside, wanting Jiyongs car to suddenly appear.I knew he was busy though, I just had a small hope.None of the hyungs were here with me.They are busy with their own schedules.Im all alone today.I sighed and dragged myself across the carpet, later entering the livingroom.Its cold in here.I looked at the thermostat and rubbed my arms to keep warm.It was sixty-five degrees fahrenheit, way too cold for fall.I turned the dial to seventy-two degrees and walked over to the couch to grab the fuzzy blanket off of it.I suddenly heard my stomach make strange noises."I guess Im hungry."I slowly walked in the kitchen and pulled the blanket tighter around me to create more warmth.I looked inside the pantry and only saw sandwich bread."I really need to go to the store."I looked out the nearest window, then changed my mind."Its to wet and cold outside to go anywhere."I grabbed some sandwich bread and got sliced turkey out of the fridge.I then spread mustard on my sandwich and took a big bite out of it.It wasnt that bad, just not what I really was craving.I wanted to see Jiyong.I craved him.I just wanted him next to me, smiling.I pouted and took another bite out of my sandwich, then I heard noises coming from outside the front door.It sounded like someone cursing.I shuffled myself to the door and looked outside with wide eyes."Jiyong!"I quickly opened the door and was greeted with a huge hug from Jiyong hyung."Seungri..""Hyung..I thought you were busy signing for your fans.." I said, kind of concerned."I had to cancel because of the horrible weather." He said, still hugging me tight."Well come on in hyung, you dont want to catch a cold out here." I said, pulling him in the apartment."Neh..Seungri, thanks." Jiyong replied, taking my hand to help him up the stairs.I closed the door and looked at Jiyong.He was smiling."Seungri..I bought some hot chocolate for us to share." He said, pulling out a box from his jacket."Thank you hyung." I said, smiling to myself.He is really different off camera.Hes so kind to me.Hes so friendly.Hes so...perfect."Seungri? Do you want some right now?" He asked, rustling his hand through my hair."Neh hyung.."...Jiyong Pov:Seungri was smiling widely when I stroked his soft hair.If only I can tell him that he really means alot to me.He means more than anyone else in the world to me.Hes so adorable and nice when hes not on camera.I love him so much.I chuckled at Seungris goofy smile and walked over to the counter.I took two packets out of the box and set them on the counter, then I grabbed two mugs and put hot water in them.I stirred the hot chocolate mix and gave one to Seungri."Its not the fancy stuff, but I hope you like it." I said, smiling big.His cheeks had a tint of bright pink when I said that."Its okay hyung. I like this kind."I just wanted to pinch his cheeks and kiss him, but I knew that would be a bad idea."Seungri...are you here by yourself?" I asked, noticing the others were not around."Neh.." He responded, tightening his grip on the handle of his mug. "I was alone the whole day."I sighed and patted his head. He blushed again."Ill hang out with you for the rest of the day. Is that okay?""If its with you, its okay. I mean..um.." He mumbled.He started to stutter and he bit his lip afterwards."Oh really?" I said, smirking. "If its me, its always okay?""Hyung..dont tease me." He replied, putting on a cute pout."Okay, sorry maknae." I said, taking a sip out of my hot chocolate....No ones Pov:Seungri also took a sip of his hot chocolate and made a surprised face."Hyung! This is really good!"Jiyong smiled and patted Seungris head once more."Im glad you like it. I only got the one you would like most."Seungri blushed and became very flustered."H-Hyung...""What is it?" Jiyong asked, seeing the pink faced panda."Why are you so nice to me? I mean, I know that everyone is, but youre extra nice to me."Jiyong put his fingers to his chin and thought."Well, I like you the most. Dont tell the others though. I just think that you and I have something more special."Seungris eyes widened.He felt his heart skip a beat.He felt warmness in his chest.Did he really hear Jiyong say that?"What do you mean by special hyung?" Seungri said eagerly."Well...um, its just that we have something between us that the others dont have." Jiyong said, trying not to confess.Seungri could die right now.Could Jiyong be hinting at something?Its worth a shot."Be more specific hyung, Im not really getting what youre saying." Seungri said, playing dumb."Um, well...I dont know..we just.." Jiyong started to say, later becoming flustered."Hyung, spit it out already!" Seungri exclaimed.He was teasing Jiyong so much, but it was for a good reason.Maybe, Jiyong actually liked him, more than a friend."Seungri...if I say this, you have to promise not to get mad, because I dont want to lose you. Okay?" Jiyong said, biting his lip."Okay! Tell me! Please hyung..." Seungri replied.Jiyong couldnt believe he was going to say this.Seungri did ask though, so it wouldnt be his fault.Right?Jiyong took a deep breath and mumbled out his words."I..um..I think..that..I..might...like you."Seungris heart felt like it stopped.This really was happening.This was actually happening!Seungri felt weak in his knees.He looked at the ground and blushed. He couldnt look up at his hyung.He was afraid of fainting from happiness, if that makes sense.He heard Jiyong curse under his breath."Im such a fucking idiot. Youre probably embarassed now. Im just going to leave." Jiyong said, turning around and putting his mug in the sink.Jiyong then felt two arms wrap around him.Seungri was hugging his back and...giggling?"Seungri! What are you laughing at?! My feelings are not funny!""I know. Ive been waiting for you to say that for the longest time hyung." Seungri whispered.Jiyong froze in his place then suddenly grabbed Seungri to face him."You? You been what?" Seungri smiled and looked in Jiyongs eyes."I like you too hyung. For the longest time actually."...     ForewordJiyongs Diary EntryEven if this love is dangerous, I will always love you.I love your smile and your laugh.I even love those dark circles under your eyes.If I ever had to let you go, I think I would die.Thats how much I love you,Seungri.