Lee Taeil is the oldest, shortest, and most adorable member of Block B. But its not getting him as far as he wants. Respect from the other members? Nope. HUGE individual fanbase? Kinda, but not as much has he wants. A plan and the drive to get the aknowledgement he wants any way he can? Hell yeah. ForewordHow come whenever I do something, its barely noticed? I mean, I do appreciate my wonderful fans. They are what keep me going. But seriously, there is like, a HUGE contrast in fans that I get compared to the others.You know what.....Im not even gonna START to talk about the others. Maybe I wouldnt be so upset if they treated me a little bit better. COME ON, Im the oldest, but still they pull pranks on me EVERYDAY. And not the funny "aha I got you" ones either. Its the kind that will leave outside of your dorm naked or bloodied or bruised from when they beat the crap outta you. All I can is thank God for makeup. At first, I thought that the pranks were their way of welcoming me to the group. But now I think:Was I dumb?Was I stupid?Was I retardedDid I get a concussion?Did someone drug me?And every time, after about an hour of looking for an excuse that would justify me dealing with them, I would finally come up with an answer. But the only thing it would justify is the reason I deserved those pranks.I did it for the chance to be an idol.But even though I have worked through the struggle of living with 5 demented people ( Zico doesnt live with us) and 2 managers that just dont give a damn, I have only ever gotten the remainder of whatever they chewed up and spit out for me.Thats changing today.