This is a story of  me.... My Name is RyeowookI am gay.... in the closethow I know?Well... just say I know I am different since in the beginning of middle schoolPlaying barbie?Nah... I am not that girly you know....I never knew I am gay until I watched JAV (Japan Adult Movie) with my friend... while others were feeling hot because the girls... me... well... I have a boner when I see the actors dickQuite shocked huh?Me too...I suddenly ran out of my friends house that night... my friends thought I am shy because it was my first time watching adult video...YOU ARE WRONG MY FRIEND!!!!Then the night continue... with me having a dream to be the girls on that movieSince then... I just accept that I like manYap... I AM OFFICIALY GAY---------------------------------------------My highschool times was my turture time...when you are living on small town, you know you have to take care your image for parents sakeI never have meet someone who just like me,And I never tried to find itSo I am a loner With a big V on my head...the virgin gay boy in the closet TT____TT BUT NOT ANYMORE!!!!! CAUSE I AM IN SEOUL NOW....No one from my town is here for judging me...I am free!!!!No one can stop me!!! I wanna have a boyfriendI wanna fall in loveI wanna have first kiss, first night... and many many first It was my plan, Until one day, I met a boy...a homophobic boy if I may add He makes me angryHe makes me crazy But.....Why can I stop thinking about him?Why he always comes to my dream? Is it possible to fall in love... moreover have romantic story with a homophobic guy? I am doom