Can I say that all the things you said back then were lies?   Like “ I’ll always stay by your side” maybe? I believed you, I believed your love and those sweet words you gave with your sincere gaze to me. But now, look.. There’s only wind, blowing some tiny hairs that slipped off my pigtail. Caressing my cheek, as if trying to fill the emptiness which had to be you..  Your voice that I used to hear, always. Where is it, now? “I love you” or “I miss you”? Just a simple sentence could made my day even better. You always knew how to do it. But now, look.. There’s only birdsongs and sound of the leaves bumping against each other as if wanted to sweep all of them, taking them away with the air..  I’m here, seating alone with my cold hands because of the autumn’s wind welcoming winter. There’s no you with your bright smile, which could make me feel covered with warmth only by looking at that precious thing..  You’re there, but I couldn’t see you. It’s not you, I bet. It’s not you that I used to know.. You’re standing with a girl, giving that smile that you used to give to my everyday. She supposed to be very happy, right? And you also, I’m sure you’re even happier now with her. Even my heart ached everytime I see you, I know I have to bear with it, like what you’ve said to me that day, we’re just not meant to be together so why have to force it?  Yeah you’re right, this sincere love I have.. I should give it to another guy..  But do you know how great my fear is  to start loving someone again?