What happens when your first love , returns to your life and turns your life upside down? Will there be a chance for you two to get together? Inspired from Ao Haru ride ..  Kim So Eun She isnt good at making friends , have been bullied during her middle school  , suffers from a lack of confidence , fears loneliness , would do anything to not contrary others and keep them around , hates being surrounded by boys and doesnt know how to act around them . Kim Jongin was her first and only love .  Kim Jongin - Kai outgoing , would easily become friends with anyone , has a painful past , lonely , . He would act harsh and strong when hes nothing but weak deep inside . He secretly had a big crush on So Eun , without having the chance to experience first love with all its beauty .  To be seen in the next chapters  ForewordI am no good when it comes to boys , and it became worse after i entered middle school .  Boys are noisy , they are brutal , stupid and annoying . They tend to make me uncomfortable and they cause my relationship with my female classmates to be kind of troubled . Their existence doesnt procure me anything beside disgrace and sadness . But there is someone among them who seems different . Kim Jongin .  He has a small build , his face is tender and gentle  . His voice isnt low like girls , its clear , like velvet , like a melody that would haunt my memories . That is certainly why im ok with him . I wouldnt mind being near him  I just need to close my eyes , to picture him in front of me . young handsome and full of life .   What are you doing guys ? it was Me-ahris voice resonating in my ears . We stopped in the courtyard and she was addressing one the running boys . I can easily recognize who its is , its Junghwa and from all the stories ive heard about him i can easily say too , that he is her crush ;  we are playing cops and robbers !   Can we join ? she squealed before turning to me with shining eyes youd want to play right?   I wouldnt refuse  , especially when my eyes laid on a person ,that somehow sends a feeling of comfort and pleasure inside of me . The accelerating rhythm of my heart beat , and the burn of my cheeks as i nod , and connect eyes with him . I have never noticed , but he had really beautiful eyes .  As i run to a place , i thought safe to hide .  I am sorry i whispered as i found out that he had choose this spot before me ill go and search for anot-- He tend his arm and the touch of his hand send shivers to my whole body , like electricity , i froze as he smiled one of his tender smiles , that left me amazed at how much of generosity and sweetness were drawn on his expression stay here he said the cops are here you cannot go out now   You are right i confirmed  And he was close so close that i could touch his back with my fingertips , and he had an unique smell , like strawbery maybe? or was it peach , i leaned closer and closer , sniffing his shirt  . He turned . our faces an inch a part , red blood flashed on his cheeks . What is he thinking right now? i seem unable to read his expression .. what if he is reading my inner thoughts? i cant let him see through me ! Stay here So Eun ah   As much as i loved hearing the echo of my name as he left our hiding spot and get captured in my place , as much as i missed him around me , i had to pay him back and i hurried to his rescue .   I am sorry i bowed my head in defeat i had planned to save you but here i am captured too   umm At moments like this i wonder how i should act , what kind of things i should do . I am unable to stop stressing .  Thank you  he almost whispered when i saw you running it made me happy , really happy . Thank you   And from that day , we would make eyes contact , then slowly look away , before looking secretly again ,  speaking hearts language with our gaze , it would cause my breath to stop for seconds and my self control to vanish .. I loved Kim jongin ,    Our second encounter was during a raining day   As i had taken a shelter from the rain ,  i recognized a familiar silhouette . It was his . and he was now standing close to me . Silence filled the place and , i felt genuinely nervous . I had to say something .  Its suddenly pouring huh? he blurted out  Yeah it is  what a lame response i had to give , but words refused to cooperate and that was the best i could come up with  Are you going to the festival ?  It is bad , it sounds like i am inviting him , embarrassing , it is embarrassing , i thought i was ok with him ,then why do i feel so nervous ?  use this    a warm cloth covered my drenching wet  hair , and i looked up to see his wide smile it is my gyms uniform ... I have never used it , expect for once   WHAAAT  i screamed  His laughter is filling all my thoughts , till this day , i still hear it , it was a deep and loud . I wonder what kind of face he was making , I wonder if kim jongin was feeling the same as ... I wonder where he is today . Today , i had to take a shelter alone .  observe every single silhouette , hoping it would be his I wonder what he is doing now . where did he go and why .   It is suddenly pouring Kim jongin i shouted , eyes becoming teary , i fought the urge to cry my hear out next time ill come up with a better response but will there be a next time?