Need I say more? My heart is broken, and this is how I vent. I dont know if this will be the last one I write... but allow me to be a delusional SONE this one time. In times when things are just so depressing, we try our hardest to be optimistic, right? We try to think of different possibilities as to why things happened. Well... this is MY alternate reality to all this crap. This is how I envisioned it... because I really dont believe that Jessica wanted to leave SNSD (like SM and other rumors claimed). Jessica is my bias, and though I love all 9 members... without Jessica, to me, SNSD would lose some of its color. I will still support, of course. But even I am not sure up to what extent. When SNSD released Mr. Mr., I already had a thought that SM would be focusing more on TTS, and the others would be left to their own. And I even thought that its okay, because Jessica can hold her own... and with Blanc, I was happy for Jessica, but somehow, I already knew that it would be the start of their parting ways (especially when TTS came back with Holler, and the others doing their own thing). No one stays at the top forever, right? I knew it was coming, but I never thought it would be this soon. I guess its just so hard to accept the fact that Jessica may become an inactive member until SNSD finally steps down. But I still have faith. OT9 forever. Foreword Again. This is MY alternate reality of the situation. Allow me this delusion to get me through this shit. And seriously, Im starting to lose hope in SM (first, DBSK..then SJ..now SNSD). Im starting to hate 2014, too. Ugh, fuck it all. Just go ahead, read, and be delusional with me.