Yixing prays. To God, or whoever is ready to listen, he prays each day, to at least find closure, because he knows lost is lost and in his case, finding whats his is not an option.  ForewordHi again, guys. So I am back with a new story that is kind of... well you will see. Its not a romance, really, not by definition nor by claim, its more Yixing centric and concentrates on the entertainment business and the question if its really worth it. But in general its about Yixing as a person and the type of character I wanted to built, hope I have succeeded to do it well.As for the title, it has a couple of meanings that will be explained in the end, I think a lot of you will figure them out sooner, though. See if I am sneaky enough (no I am not).I will try to upload it fast since its only a few chapters. Disclaimer: (Per usual) I owe none of the real people whose names are written down in this story, the plot is however entirely mine, even if its revolting.Having that cleared out, I hope you all have good time reading!