Its been a few months since I lost my computer and inspiration, but Im back!I am not sure how I will be going with this story, since it is an idea I had a long time ago and just found myself willing to write about again recently.Its Jaechun, because our little 5starssupporter needed some and they fit.Title is inspired by an artist I met recently who likes to mix words in a unusual way and I liked that. XDsummary : Jaejoong is lost in his guilty nostalgia but he didnt expect the world - and espacially Yoochun - to change that much to prove him wrong.    PS to my other-fic readers (in particular Jaemintee) : I dont forget the stories. I will go back on it too~ ForewordHow he loved to watch those candid faces, scrutinize them, envy them. He loved seeing those four smiling boys facing him, happy and carefree. Yeah four, since the fifth one, he couldn’t envy him. [...]The intimate way he and Yoochun appreciate the soft melody of each song brought them closer every day more, so similar yet so different from what he shared with the others. Even if he hoped – knew- they share was more than this after those years together, Music was clearly the cement of their bond, the red string linking them forever. [...]Was it because of him that lately Yoochun was only working as an actor?