Idol, singer, dancer, rapper, actress, model, prodigy, producer, friend, girlfriend.   How many people are you supposed to love? If youre living in a 5 foot 4 body, weigh less than 110 pounds soaking wet, how much space do you have to love?I was supposed to love my family, my four best friends, what other friends I had, then more than two million people, even if they hurt me or the people I loved. Somehow, I squeezed in another person, without meaning to, and his love took up all the space I had. I squeezed and squeezed, loved and loved, and the pressure overcame the volume, and to put it less than eloquently, I blew up.  Foreword1. I dont own EXO or SM, I wish I did, but I only own Nyx, the members of it, other ocs.2. If youre not pleased with the depictions of your "faves", please dont trash on me. I depicted them how I imagined them and how I perceive them to be.3. I have tweaked certain things and events, such as music awards and daesangs, etc, so I apologize if I have taken an award from your bias/bias group.4. My characters are my children, and when children get insulted, their mother does, too:)5. Also: No actual celebrites come in until chapter 6, and EXO is first introduced in 9.6. If this offends you in any way, please delete this story from your library and stop reading it. I dont want any beef.7. This story is long. As in, 30+ chapters  7. Also, please dont plagarize my story. I took a lot of time on this.8. Ultimately, be nice and Im sorry if Im not. Give this book a chance cos its pretty great (I hope)!